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Just a couple dinners making fun of hell

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I didn’t bring a bag but I did bring that fire zanz. He’s in Walgreens so I can think and share this in secret if he found out I was posting at all in real time he’s freak the fuck out. And I don’t ever know what kind of mood he’ll be in. I tried to offer my mouth to put him in a better mood but he insisted that he needed food first. This is what happens when u watch euphoria all day. And all yesterday.

But I can relate to it so much. Except my life was so

Much worse

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You find little ways to cope, always have ear buds so you can be listening to something g nice while they treat you like shit. It kind of makes you forget that this is your life. Especially like this track, I could have wrote it myself. If you’re lucky they’ll ignore you enough so you can get a whole playlist. It’s not like they are what you have to say anyway. Just shut the fuck up and look pretty.

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It’s never really explicit what I’m doing wrong but it doesn’t feel like he missed me? Or like I’m supposed to past some test to get him in a good mood

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Any time I stand up for myself - I’m throwing off the vibes no matter what th accusation is

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Now I don’t need any more and if he offers okay but I’m not like waiting around for it. In fact if we didn’t do any of would be easier to get him off and to sleep anyway

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This morning he’s begging me to come over for snuggles. When I call tonight he wants time to himself and I can come in a couple hours….after I’ve been waiting with no response. Hell no. I’d rather take two seroquel and wake up tmrw having no knowledge of this. I stood up for myself and said it’s not fair and he just goes. “I said what I said” like take it or leave it

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And can you just remember this - he’s giving you what you want and you are incredibly bored okay I can turn it around

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The goal was not to pay for dinner and I achieved that goal 🤣🤣🤣🤣

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I bet locker

Inside the car

Windows closed

No air

I

Just have to wait

For what?

I looked a certain way

I did a certain thiing

I don’t even know what it is anymore

No

Air

Except what was in the car.

He locked

The door so if

I try to

Leave the alarm

Will

Go

Off

All night long I’ve been accused of everything

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And I called him at 5:43 AM - he told me to call back in 30 minutes and I went to sleep

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And I should have known because how are we going to watch tv without a tv?

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She called him and he lied about it

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He flirts with another girl but I’m the crazy one

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But then again the neglect and the judgment it’s just not fair on any level I don’t do that to people

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If plugs ever have a problem, never offer a solution. Unless it’s another plug

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Ya I made a lot of allowances I shouldn’t have with BE. Glad that’s over with. Too old too boring