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Callaghan SS01 by Nicholas Ghesquière

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wieiad: the skin of my lips

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hate how big my arms looks no matter how much fucking weight I lose

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I finally have what naturally skinny bitches have …. for now

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I’m just used to typically having to try a lot harder and I want to enjoy this while it lasts 🙏🙏🙏

it’s lasted about 3 months or so??

bc when I first got out the hospital in the end of December I had dropped abt 8 lbs but i ended up GAINING it all back in a couple months but thennnn a couple months after the accident/surgery (like in the end of feb) is I think when it all started happening ? when I started to lose the same 8 lbs and now I’ve lost a total of 10 since the hospital which may not seem like much

but keep in mind , I haven’t been trying and also I gained those pounds back only to drop them off again and I’m continuing to lose … I’m scared imma jinx it by just talking abt it in a positive manner lmfao. bc i feel like it’s really not good that im losing weight without trying n kinda terrifying like im telling yall…. I have to REALLY try to lose weight. I don’t just lose weight this easily..

the way I still restrict even tho I absolutely should not be doing this w these unexplainable body issues lmfao .. had a bag of popcorn for dinner and a diet sprite

I think I’m in denial a bit when I say I haven’t been trying to lose weight bc I mean I haven’t really been trying whatsoever but those disordered habits r still there n I still find comfort in them

hungry? Diet soda. still hungry? ok let’s try a little snack n then usually I’m just not hungry anymore !! it can be a snack of usually whatever. my body hasn’t cared too much for taste lately on top of the small appetite

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the way I still restrict even tho I absolutely should not be doing this w these unexplainable body issues lmfao .. had a bag of popcorn for dinner and a diet sprite

I think I’m in denial a bit when I say I haven’t been trying to lose weight bc I mean I haven’t really been trying whatsoever but those disordered habits r still there n I still find comfort in them

hungry? Diet soda. still hungry? ok let’s try a little snack n then usually I’m just not hungry anymore !! it can be a snack of usually whatever. my body hasn’t cared too much for taste lately on top of the small appetite

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gonna sound really annoying probably but this is my safe space to vent abt my ed so it is what it is

but I still CONTINUE to lose weight w/o trying and it’s sooooo nice. but honestly it’s very worrisome? not to be a hypochondriac bc I don’t think my worries are misplaced..

all my life I’ve had to actively TRY to lose weight. not just have this shit drop like that. it’s so nice like I said but at the same time scary af.

as a lot of yall know (well those who have been mutuals w me for a min lol) I’ve been having stomach issues n ended up in the damn hospital vomiting over 24 hrs over a month ago n I hadn’t been that sick since the surgery after the accident in December.

anyways. my body has been acting so weird and idk how to feel abt any of it.

I drank BEER and ate WHATABURGER last night and somehow lost weight. without any shitting too!!!

anyways this has been a common thing, like I continue to lose no matter what I eat which sounds nice as of rn but ik it’s not gonna last and also I think that’s not a good thing and can b very bad …. Also my hair is thinning so bad and my nails are in bad shape so I can tell I’m not getting enough nutrients n stuff.. my nails are breaking even more, also so weak most of the time. and not to mention the nausea i have been experiencing!!!!!

it’s kinda scary when you have no control over the weight loss?

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to endure YEARS of this shit and pain just to have a healthy bmi and mid physique should be illegal

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FINALLY OUT OF 120s JAIL 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

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just ate a cookie that was from a local bakery and shit tasted like it was 1000 calories

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crazy how anxious i am when i have food in my gut

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Seriously, the people who comb through hours of Eugenia Cooney's livestream footage to clip every single second she flashes an ankle to prove that she's the most pro ana fetishist who ever walked the earth and wants to starve your children are way fucking weirder and actually ableist than that anorexic woman simply existing online

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I cannot get out of 120s jail , this is definitely a result of me being “more ok w drinking full sugar drinks” bc bro why did I drink a soda last night. I full sugar Dr Pepper. when I meant full sugar drinks, I meant sweet tea more than anything but I drank a Dr Pepper last night n I feel so disgusting abt it. i feel like I can feel the sugar sticking inside of me !!!

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it’s too early for this bullshit

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Bed rotting is terrible for my mental health but good for my weight.

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I’ve been more comfortable drinking drinks w sugar lately since I haven’t been rly eating ig ?? so that’s a plus. I missed sweet tea. I do feel guilty abt it still but no where near how I used to. but it’s probably all bc I’ve still losing anyways ugh idk my ed is definitely loving whatever is going on and then mt body is not at all