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Guys… I didn’t disappear! I’m here living the mom/work life. There isn’t enough time to get hit all done haha. I do want to run. I’ve started doing some running already but I can’t get consistent yet. I’m working on it though.

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So I finally stood up for myself some at work. The second job that I’ve been covering had a person who got an offer. Apparently he turned it down today. My boss called to tell me and I told him that I just can’t do it any more. I get 3 hours (4-7p) with my kid per day when she starts daycare on August 16th and I can’t work during them. I told him that he needs to find another solution because it’s not working. I’ve been putting in 50-60 hours and I just can’t keep it up.

Now, as a woman in engineering, I know this move makes me look weak. It makes me look like I can’t handle it and I hate that. I also feel like it’ll eventually come back to bite me and I probably just lost my next promotion/raise because of it. But you know what, I only get 18 years with this baby and I want to enjoy them.

You want to keep good employees, show them and their families some respect. I would never treat my employees like this and work hard to shelter them from these kinds of issues.

Also, don’t talk about work/life balance if you don’t mean it.

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Ran 2 miles today at walk 4 mins, run 2 mins. I’m slowly getting there @marine-corps-strong.

I had the best vacation and I do not want to go to work tomorrow!

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@theunstuffedpepper you guys are too cute! I hope your return to work was okay! It’s so tough.

Rules: tag 9 people you want to get to know better.

Favorite Color: Orange

Last song/album: I’m at the beach and jamming to some Jimmy Buffet.

Last Movie: Cruella. It was so good and made me so happy. I haven’t had much movie/tv time in a while but we watched this over three nights.

Currently Reading: The whole towns talking by Fannie Flagg. Highly recommend. She wrote fried green tomatoes too.

Currently Watching: Geez. I’m still trying to watch this years greys anatomy and this is us. I’ve been swamped lately and who has time for tv.

Currently Craving: A good night sleep! I haven’t really slept well since like pregnancy week 20.

Coffee or Tea: Water and only water.

I tag @weighting4me and @abcd-adventures and anyone else who wants to be my friend.

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So we all went to the beach, Maggie included. This is her first vacation and she loves it. It’s baby badgers first vacation too and she is loving having her mommy around the whole day. She’s 4 months now because time is flying by.

I am still doing 2 jobs at work, managing way too many projects and people! I needed this break. To the point that I left my work phone at home. I haven’t done that in years (I even brought it on my honeymoon). It’s so nice to say fuck work and walk away for some family time.

Next month will be baby badger going to daycare (and me freaking out, crying, and missing her like crazy!) along with me going back to work in the office more instead of teleworking 4 days. But hopefully it’ll also bring them hiring a new guy for my acting role so I can have a manageable load again.

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Three “runs” this week as I start back the couch to 5k. 5min walks, 1 min runs for 30 min. Doing it again next week. Also 4 getmomstrong workouts and 1 local group workout.

Work is insane, still doing 2 full time jobs. Baby life is amazing but difficult. Baby badger doesn’t like to take a bottle, so constantly needs me.

@winter-finch sorry I disappeared on our book club! Apparently it was too much to take on. But, I’m still working the hunger/fullness scale.

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This is a rant…

I started work back 2 weeks ago. I’m hating my job. They dumped another persons entire job back on me. I helped out and took the responsibility last winter, but now I’m swamped and can’t do it. I’ve told my boss and he just said to do it until he can find someone else but they don’t seem to be making it a priority.

I already struggle to go back to sleep after feeding baby badger, now I just lay in bed and think of all the stuff I need to do. I also think of all the time I’m missing in her life. I know I can’t be a stay at home mom for many reasons but I also want to be involved in her life. I don’t want to look back and feel like I missed it. Ugh. Life is hard. This is all.

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none of that shit is welcome here

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Mom life…When you use your baby’s swaddle blanket as a sweat rag during your workout!

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Went to the pool with baby badger today, mostly to dunk her feet in but also to see if I remembered how to swim. I haven’t been in a pool since college?

I wore a two piece and highlighted my stretch marks. It felt good to not care what I looked like.

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Back to the office (and the field) today. I guess my calendar didn’t have anyone to change it. March 12th was when my water broke haha. I’m pumping at job sites all day. It’s awkward as hell and guys just don’t get it.

I miss my baby but I also missed the construction engineer life. I am so happy to get out and see the progress my projects have made while I’ve been out.

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I think dieting broke me. I honestly can’t tell if I’m hungry or not. This might be the hardest principle for me. I’m trying to decide why I’m eating but most of it seems to be boredom.

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Oh my. I am doing great rejecting that diet mentality @winter-finch. I’m moving on to the next principle. I did eat a family size Oreo in like 3 days and made myself sick, but that’s how I learn I guess. Otherwise, I’ve done great just eating what I want. I devoured some hot dogs but also indulged in a bunch of fruit this weekend.

I took baby badger back “home” this weekend. My typical 5 hour drive turned into 6.5 with her, but we made it. Hubs and Maggie came too. It was a circus. I am exhausted but she got to meet her great grandparents and see her grandparents and we happened by a couple friends along the way.

I start work (from home) tomorrow. 11 weeks was a huge stretch and I’m glad I had the days to do it. I just hate the thought of missing her growing up. It’s happening so fast.

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Book club! Plus this momma’s first night out!

I’m feeling a little guilty. I always do bedtime and this will be my first time missing. When I left, baby badger was crying.

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We went to the zoo! It was a ton of fun. Baby badger enjoyed it mostly by sleeping which gave me and hubs time to really enjoy reading and pacing ourselves through the animals. It was a ton of fun. We then went to eat a late lunch out at a restaurant (outdoors but still) which was really nice. I got 11k steps haha. Baby badger did a combination of in the stroller and baby carrier.

This week had made me really enjoy being a mom again. Having help and some time to do a workout and shower as long as I want (without getting out before my hair is washed because someone woke up), had been nice. I feel more like a human. I am dreading work but it’s mostly still from home so I’ll get to see baby through the day.

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I hit the workout group this morning and skipped a bunch of stuff. I feel okay about not doing stuff my body isn’t ready for. I am dying to run again but need to build up my core first. I went on a nice walk after the workout.

I’m ready for our week together as a family before I go back to work. Next weekend, I’m headed back to the mountains to show baby badger her family. It sounds like the perfect end to maternity leave.

I think I had some pms (baby blues?) last week because I could not get my emotions together. I had a breakdown last Sunday then cried twice last week. I am mellowing out now and feel better but it was rough.

Oh and I read a whole book for book club next Thursday!

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I’m walking almost every day. I also signed up for the getmomstrong program (strong like a mother) and I’ve been doing it pretty regularly. My core is a joke but I don’t think I can blame it all on pregnancy. Honestly I think my crossfit experience would have been so much better with basic core work. I love this program.

I am also catching up on the intuitive eating book. I’m reading the science-y part now and I totally believe it. I’m excited to ditch the diets! @winter-finch I’m cracking chapter 4 now so should be done with 5 by Sunday :)

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Used in 2013 when I was in school. Who knows today?

Gave these up 20 years ago