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RANBOOLIVE YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME RANBOOLIVE

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There are cows that have never heard music and that makes me sad

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Everyone around me is an Eagles’ fan and yeah it’s sad they lost but atleast they didn’t watch you lose like 20 MCCs

Sports fans will never know the sorrow that the boobers have gone through the past years

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Monster

A child should only have imaginary monsters to fear. Make believe evils hiding in the closet or under the bed. Instead, I had you. I feared you. Your hands. Your eyes. Your anger. Your annoyance. Every waking moment that felt as though I had been condemned to live in a waking nightmare. You did this to me. You were supposed to love me

Care for me. Protect me. So why is it that my protector was the one I needed protecting from. Your unkind words and crueler hands that have embedded themselves so deeply into my brain and body. I can no longer think without your screams of my worthlessness protruding from my brain. My movements erratic and jumpy, offset by every little thing. You were meant to protect me. Yet you thrust life upon me from the age of seven and told me 'That's how the real world works.' You have become apart of me in so many ways that I am scared one day I might turn into you. But I will not let that happen. I will not become you. I will not be like you. I will be better. I will make the choice that you did not. I will never harm those I was meant to protect. I will not tell them I love them while wiping away tears I made them cry. Never will I make my loved ones cower in fear and call it respect. If respect is fear then respect be damned. I will keep them safe. I would rather die than hurt the one's I love. I look in the mirror and I cry. Every now and then I see you. I see you when I'm angry. When I'm stressed. And in those moments I feel fear unlike any fear I've ever felt. I pray to the Universe that I will be ok. I hope that I don't use my past as an excuse for my weakness. That I will be stronger than you were. Stronger than I feel I am. I want to be as great as I can be to those I love and care for. I see you when I see me and it scares me. It scares me because I know how good it would feel to let it all out. How freeing it would be to give in to the weakness. It scares me because I know how easy it would be to turn into you and I'm scared because I know how much harder it will be to be me.

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Who in the HELL GAYED UP MY CHECK MARKS??????

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Hey putting this here as I want to collect my thoughts as well as speak to people before putting out an actual statement. I just wanted to apologize for the way that I handled the discussion about the racism that exists within my community. I thought as a way of discussing it that I would talk about some other things while playing a game in order to hopefully attract the part of the audience that actually needs to hear what is being said, as I thought that if I made an entire stream around it, those people would not click on it as they think that it doesnt apply to them so they wouldnt need to hear it. I see now that that was not the appropriate way of handling it even though before I thought it was and I thank you for bringing that to my attention. I should have put more emphasis on the issue and I should have at least have had it at the beginning with nothing to distract from the message. I also apologize for saying "move on" during the conversation. What I meant was when an argument starts over something that is not important, instead of bringing it to a point where someone takes it too far, to simply move on from it and to not have it get to that point of argument. I would never tell someone who has been affected by racism to just move on from it so know that is absolutely not what I meant and I am sorry again for not wording that correctly.

I take responsibility for how I handled today, it was not the correct way of handling the issue. I am speaking with people in order to get a better grasp of exactly how to address this situation. I am sorry to any bipoc who have felt let down because of this. I will continue to educate myself and I will do better. The issue starts with me and I apologize that I made it worse. I am sorry.

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Gender is a void of longing that screams at you constantly never being coherent and then one day you understand it and everything goes quiet

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What will you do if you run out of idea's, or feel extremely unmotivated to make tiktoks for a while?

Then ill just go nuts ill go wild ill literally just say "Hey the bahoziongas are out tonight!" and then cut to a field of leopards like who cares it will just become unintelligible after a point

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To anyone who sees this please recomend me some angst fics that will make me cry or happy ones :) <3

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I imagine cats as people stuck in cat bodies that dont think of themselves as humans but think and feel like humans

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It is raining outside. I like the rain. It is nice. I wish I could just sit in the rain. Rain is beautiful and if I could be like anything in this world I'd like to be the human embodiment of rain. Not in the literal sense that I'd like to be made if water, more the feeling that rain is. What rain is. Specifically late night/early morning rain. Everything about it is amazing. If I could just be that I would be happy. I would enjoy my time as someone who is like rain. I wish I was rain.

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Its 2:56

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Tumblr is like crack

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Every little thought is going here now

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Just cause and the chances of anyone seeing ot are obscenely low

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Repeatedly

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I just realised that I can just post here