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it's crazy arguing with your parents as a fully grown adult because it's like i can't talk about childhood without sounding like a bitter insane asshole but those experiences literally shaped the person i am and i don't understand why they just get to dismiss it all and make me look cruel for being maladjusted when they played a massive part in making me this way

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life would be sooo good without my curse

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everyone should have a balanced diet of both good music and music that fucking sucks. it's healthy. get over it.

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someone said we had more fun in childhood because we didnt have any past memories to linger on and it has stuck with me ever since

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when i’m in a pleading-my-situationship-to-run-away-with-me-with-my-big-weepy-brown-doe-eyes-before-the-final-battle-because-i-was-robbed-of-my-childhood-and-i’m-bound-to-duty-and-i’ve-never-known-true-freedom-or-bodily-autonomy competition but my opponents are alicent hightower and ava silva

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I saw the TV glow and I don’t think I’ve ever had such a visceral movie experience. I want to choke on this move like Tara choked on the dirt. Take my egg tooth razor blade and split open this skin of mine. See the static beyond. Feel my heart beat, because it’s not too late, it’s not too late, it’s not too late.

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I Saw I Saw The TV Glow & I Am Not Okay

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People make a lot of good "thank god I'm not a kid anymore" posts about like school bullies or homework or puberty. But actually my #1 top of the "thank god I'm not a kid anymore" list is the fact that I can leave the event when I want to.

Any event I'm at! I can say "okay well I'm tired I'm going home goodbye." Could not do that shit as a kid. If you're a kid it's like yeah you will sit here at your brother's soccer game in the cold for the next 1.5 hours. You will sit here at your sibling's football practice. You will stay at this BBQ until the whole family is done with the BBQ. You are stuck at the mall until mom finds the pants she needs. You are stuck at the grocery store. No we don't know how long. You are stuck at band practice. It's running late but you're not allowed to leave. You are stuck at the party that the adults said you're leaving soon but they keep talking to these 2 people who showed up late. What the Fuck.

And that shit is on top of having homework.

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"immortality sucks because all your friends die" all your friends die anyway. those we do not mourn are those who mourn us.

"immortality sucks because you forget who you are" we always forget who we are. do you remember who you were at four years of age? who you were at fourteen? "who i am" is a shadow cast on the wall.

"immortality sucks because" skill issue. skill issue. skill issue. give me your liver

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i don’t know about you guys but the main reason i am still on tumblr in 2024 is BECAUSE it is the most cloutless least influential social media app out there and that is the experience i am after. absolutely none of this will ever translate into significant attention or real success in my life and that is so beautiful.

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the secret to life is always having something to look forward to

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my dumb? founded. my flabbers? gasted. my gob??? smacked