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“A human being could be alive for years and years, thinking and breathing and eating, full of a million worries and feelings and thoughts, taking up space in the world, and then, in an instant, become absent, invisible.” - Jhumpa Lahiri, Unaccustomed Earth

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Its been 4 years since I lost track . This knowledge has given me more misery and far away from god . I miss God. . Its so apathetic and cold . Why did you make me go down a path which has scared me for life . I don't know if ill ever have solitude . Just a mis fit for the whole society . Still I thank him for not making me a slave and still better than most . But whats the point if I can't make it to the dream I had decades ago. Everything seems so empty . Non interesting . Just tik tok and time is going by . Now I'm not saying I'm un happy with what I have and the blessings around me . Its just im losing time where I can be more valuable. More giving, more spiritual, more my self . It like im living somebody else's life with no control . I want to scream sometimes . I wish my prophet could come and guide me again . All my work that I've been spending my life upon is just an excuse to keep me busy . I've always been alone under the shadows of too many people. My tongue is my enemy and I have no will left. Crisis are at its peak

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Why did I come i should have stayed ..I should.have stayed . It looks like I might be one of them .

I was warned . But I never learn .

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You have to be open and brave, believe me. It takes more courage to love than it does for war, and i, im courageous

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Indeed or true. They are the strongest

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weird flex

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It's almost 10 years

The Grid. A digital frontier. I tried to picture clusters of information as they moved through the computer. What did they look like? Ships? Motorcycles? Were the circuits like freeways? I kept dreaming of a world I thought I’d never see. And then, one day… [You got in?] That’s right, man. I got in.

TRON: Legacy (2010) dir. Joseph Kosinski

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loyalty, consistency, respect, stability

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People provoke you until they bring out your ugly side, then play victim when you go there

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Phase 2

Its beautiful. Its wonderful. It is also I believe the best thing that has ever happened to me.

I.F: Why are you here?

Me: I feel loved without love

I.F: how does it feel?

Me: fire and ice

I.F: oh well ! you will never be able to put a finger on anything because the aura of her confusion will create ambiguity and the ultimate peace will be hard to get .

Me: yes the sanity, but it's just been a month and half or so. I must give more time.

I.F: I don't know how things will go for you friend but it usually doesn't work this way.

Me: this is it ..this is theeeeee person.

I.F: are you for her ?

Me: I feel it though. As I say it's only been a month

I.F: feels like you two had chemistry way before than that.

Me: I get comfortable quickly. As you know it's my weakness and strength .

I.f: I sense you are frustrated apart from all this. Why is that?

Me: well I feel loved without love and it has its frustrations. MAJOR ones. I cant say it. I dont know for the first time who to ask and discuss this with. Am I overreacting, does everyone suffer like this? I just dont want to compare. But how I'm going to know if its alright to happen like this or this denial of love is natural. Lol I feel denial of love either physically or emotionally is very harmful.

I.F: may be more time is required

Me: yeah that's also wat iam assuming. I hope it's going to get better

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One solid point

The purpose of religion is to control yourself, not criticise others.

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Epic Sculptures From Car Parts

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A little bit

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But....

“You can’t just plan a moment when things get back on track, just as you can’t plan the moment you lose your way in the first place.”

— Sarah Dessen, Someone Like You

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I want to stop for a while. Want to get hold of myself. I'm still trying to stay in this world , Keep up with my timings and hustling with a heart longing for divinity. Then a stubborn voice of nay with curved face shows up and I feel.i have to go for a deeeeeeep soul cleansing before I can get onto this path.

I have a question again . Is this alogrothim that I want to decide is best for me or GOD wills it ? If he wants to choose I'm still okay with any but all I want is love, mercy and blessings

A smile on my face when I completely know it's him helping me . All my worng doings just vanishes like a clean slate .

I forgive others and let go of people mischief . And I want that reciprocated

God bless you ,me, every one .

Try to speak humble .

Don't want to get angry anymore

Be organized

Want to remember him all the time

Use divine love to help the world and make it a success for myself and people around me

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all i want is a clear mind & a happy heart

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“If you can love the wrong one so much, just imagine how much you can love the right one.”

— Brandon Stanton, Humans of New York