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trying to connect the dots, but possibly just splaying them out further than ever before!

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Final Destination - Bloodlines

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William James Day

Girls on the Beach

1910

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the call of ktulu

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people in books and tv shows are always getting so upset they throw an untouched meal in the trash. that would never be me. i'd receive the worst news of my life and still be like Let me put this in the fridge.

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And Tell Me, When Did The Water Surround Me?: Miranda, Mermaid of Dartmouth statue at high tide, Dartmouth, England.

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okay now that we’ve a had couple lesbian blockbusters and milfs are having a romance moment, we need to bring back the manic pixie dream girl. she was never fuckin suited to fixing all the problems of some boring twenty year old everyman, but you know who could actually benefit from a quirky free-spirited blue haired girl with pronouns (she/they)? a newly divorced forty-something mom who’s trying to learn how to be herself for the first time in her life

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“she should be at the club” changed me as a person. forever

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makes you all frilly. idiot. pushes you over

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go on more walks. walk for no reason. walk to solve a problem. walk to blow off steam. walk to get outside. walk to listen, read, and learn. walk to escape distractions. walk to improve your health. walk to think. a simple walking habit can change absolutely everything.

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So through our 12th Doctor transition metaphor, Missy and Clara are two visions of "the Doctor as a woman" (not really competing visions; they're more like the same person at different life stages). Missy represents "would being a woman make me irredeemably evil," while Clara represents "would the lack of a protective masculine mask make me 'breakable' enough to inevitably get me killed." Each of their arcs reaches a sort of "no, but" conclusion: Missy is capable of goodness, but also so dogged by self-destructive impulses that no one will ever know; Clara is capable of fully embodying the Doctor role (and surviving the "death" of transition a la tv glow), but only at the cost of full alienation from everyone she once loved.

Bill is the Doctor's younger self if he'd actually gotten to self-actualize as a teen/twentysomething autistic lesbian. She gets sabotaged by Saxon Master, who self-destructs rather than become a woman. Missy and Bill are again two faces of the "self" - Missy as the self subject to a literal suicide, and Bill as the young-lesbian-self, spiritually smothered, forced into the ultimate mask/closet of cyber conversion. (This is the culmination of the themes we've been setting up since deep breath, re undeath, turning yourself into a literal or emotional robot in order to survive, killing the true parts of yourself so many times that you've ship of theseus'd your "self" out of existence and all that's left to you is to jump or be pushed, etc). And yet, Bill can't be extinguished. Where there's tears, there's hope. The Doctor has to face both the younger self who was (oh god I said so much sexist shit when I was younger, I'm going to throw up), and the younger self who never was (Bill, the self beneath the robotic mask). The Doctor has to grieve Bill, and yet understand that she's still there. She never really died. Despite your best efforts, despite the machine you tried to turn yourself into, the living death you made of your life...that inner spark survived.

So the Doctor is able to reach the same choice as the Master - kill yourself, or become a woman - and choose change.

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SPN deleted scenes → 9.10 - Road Trip ↳ Cas and Crowley bond over their shared human experience

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A little cup of sunshine in the morning 🌞

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Oh yeah, I know them, we grew up together on tumblr.com