bpdhiyoko

[bpdhiyoko]

Are you an over sharing borderline or a trust issues borderline? Or are you the hellish combination of both?

[bpdhiyoko]

that bpd feel when “time to do something self-damaging just to prove a point”

[bpdhiyoko]

do you ever just want to shout like… it’s because i’m sad! like yes i didn’t do my homework, yes i didn’t text you back, yes i’ve been hiding in my room! i’m sorry! but i haven’t killed myself so honestly where is my badge!

[bpdhiyoko]

i broke the light switch yesterday apparently lol go me i want to die everyone wants me Dead i ruin everything

[bpdhiyoko]

With bpd, you can break a heart and say you didn’t, and it’s not because you are just an asshole or that you don’t care about their pain, it’s that you cannot imagine being important enough to anyone to have that much power.

[bpdhiyoko]

me: i wanna die

friend: what’s wrong

me: nothing that’s just my default setting

[bpdhiyoko]

BPD is a curse, you can love your fp/soul mates/friends to death and do anything for them.

But you will never feel any love back, you will doubt that they even like you, if they don’t validate you every single hour of the day you will never feel good enough for them and that fucking hurts.

[bpdhiyoko]

Someone I care about: *gets upset at me*

Me: *splits on them so that I don’t have to experience extremely painful feelings of rejection and abandonment*

[bpdhiyoko]

me @ my brain: ok but like real talk could u shut the fuck up for five seconds im tryna do shit

[bpdhiyoko]

Borderlines are so strong for putting up with a disorder that’s trying to destroy them. Even if you don’t feel strong, you are strong just for being here.

[bpdhiyoko]

my mum comes into my room at 10AM to give me the "i do SO MUCH for you and you dont even CARE" speech along with several digs at how i do fuckall and have no life like.... no shit i have no life we moved house i dont know the area well and every time you talk to me you remind me of all the ways in which im a failure as a person..... i dont really want to spend time with you like that lmao...... idk i just want ONE DAY where she isnt around draining me

[bpdhiyoko]

me, going from one bad assumption to another: parkour

[bpdhiyoko]

me, internally: it's not all about me, it's not all about me, it's not all about me.

me, opening my mouth: *makes it about me*

[bpdhiyoko]

pay attention to me me me me, only me. i want to be the only one you love and call yours

[bpdhiyoko]

As a person who is borderline™ I can assure you that jumping to conclusions™ is my specialty.

[bpdhiyoko]

me: engages in restrictive disordered eating behaviours

me: unsurprisingly loses weight

me: "what the frick frack paddywack how did this hAPPeN this is TeRIblE i cannot beLieve this ??????"

[bpdhiyoko]

I wish I could stop time for a while so I could have a chance to get better.