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ben/jeff

ive already done a benjeff aesthetic before but i did it >:]

tried to make it less angsty n shit this time ♡

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Classy

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all i ever wanted was love but you both hate each other so much you've turned love into toxic sludge and if either of you truly loved me you'd fuckng work things out but you don't and there's no point anymore there's no fucking point

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Source not found. From my old Hetalia folders.

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I just want to be perfect so that anyone will care about me and I can stop disappointing every person I come in contact with even if it means self harming multiple times a day and having break downs alone in the bathroom at least I can maybe stop making them miserable

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so basically my entire system has decided that were done asking for help we're done wallowing in our own self pity we can be stronger than this we can hide how we feel again and take care of everyone else it's what makes everyone happier and taking care of my boyfriends and making sure they're happy is more important than my own well being everyone was happier when that's how I was as long as it doesn't kill me it's the better option back to hiding break downs with showers and lying to keep everyone else sane I'll be fine on my own anyways i always have been

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I just don't even know what to do no one cares that I exist and when I try to apologize for the fact I'm awful I'm just told I'm being guilt trippy but I'm honestly so fucking sorry every time I even open my mouth I'm such a fucking burden and I'm so sorry I just want to stop living so I can make you guys better you both don't deserve to be treated like this I just I should be comforting you both but I'm holding myself up like a fucking asshole I just need to stop feeling so I can be there for you guys that's all that matters I know I don't matter and I'm so sorry for ever trying to I'm not important and I should just stop I'm sorry

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I have no where else to post this so I just??? All of you have been so fucking rude to me lately and then call me sensitive or say I'm being rude Like??? Why do you all hate me so much??? It makes me want to fucking disappear And fucking Matt is one of the ones who's always rude to me and I just What did I fucking do? What happened to my loving boyfriend? All he does lately is snap at me or /completely/ bury himself in video games I want my fucking boyfriend back I want to feel loved Most of all I want to fucking die again If matty isn't here for me than no one ever will be and I'm just as fucking useless as I thought

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こんな夢をみた by フジタヨーヘー

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