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There are no happy endings. Endings are the saddest part. So just give me a happy middle And a very happy start.

Anonymous (via itsagoodlife)

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Lifeline

I feel like a fuck up. I feel like I ruin every relationship I’ve had with anyone because of my insecure ass... “you’re being annoying” “stop being insecure” “you ruin EVERYTHING” “why can’t you just be more like **?” 

Ever since I got harassed by M, I just lost all my socializing skills, I become annoying, anxious.. but I shouldn’t blame it on anything, I guess. I wish I can give less fucks and just go with the flow, but my mind wouldn’t let me. It’s all my fault. tbh, I’m tired of living.

I’m too much of a pussy to do anything. But gosh... I wish I wasn’t. 

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You only want me when you think I’m moving on…

Excerpt from the book I’ll never write #9 (via letspretendeverythingwillbeok)

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I watched you as you sat next to me, but I couldn’t see you anymore. You were already gone and I just stared blankly as I wondered when did you even leave, when did you stop loving me.

Things I realized when I was drunk, part IV (via thingsirealizedwhen)

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But just because you’re strong and resilient doesn’t mean you never need someone to be there for you, to take care of you.

Tammara Webber (via quotemadness)

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barky never stopped by. I’ve stop having feelings for him. he’s different

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worth learning

eighteen was love nineteen was lost twenty was first dates and twenty-one began with him

he was a mixed drink he was wine by the ocean he was tequila no chase and he was lessons worth learning I learned I can trust my first instinct, but still give a second chance I learned a kiss can tell me everything, but everything can change I learned not knowing is exciting, but unreliable is annoying I learned different can be better, but now and then I need familiar I learned I can know it’s wrong, but sometimes I have to try and I learned he won’t be my twenty-two; he’s not meant for my ‘I love you’

- k. c.

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Jan 15, 2018

been soooo busy. 

song(s) of the day : 

All In My Head - Tori Kelly 

Don’t You Worry bout a Thing - John Legend version

Barky starts talking to me again, he said he’s been busy lately and might stop by this week :) excited but I don't wanna put my hopes up.

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Do not mistake my lack of caring for a lack of emotion. My emotions are why I no longer care.

(via queer-lil-wolf-boy)

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“Wasteland”

My mind is shaken,

My thoughts kill,

I want to leave,

But don’t have the will,

You’re my world,

And my world is now broken,

I wish I could die,

And bury the words I’ve spoken,

So forgive my presence,

And forget my history,

For nothing else matters,

If your not with me.

//Poems-by-Augustine

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We chose to keep quiet about it, we chose to drown in the loud silence that lingered around us because we knew that if we were to talk about it, it would only bring us to an end.

Lukas W. // We still want each other (via somepiecesofmyheartandsoul)

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Jan 8, 2018

Barky sent me a selfie snap and he looks very handsome. But the lack of communication makes me fall for another guy... well it’s just a crush for now but who knows. School today was TIRING. Had a field trip but I made it back to campus for my other class in time. Nothing interesting really, just that I feel myself starting to “lose” feelings for Barky, both happy and sad tbh. happy because now my happiness doesn’t depend on him, but sad because he’s a great guy. ah well, whatever will be, will be. 

Song of the day : Sai & Co - Kyrary Pamyu Pamyu