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I have two forms of self . I realized it a long time ago. But today it's very clear to me . Since childhood I was made in a way who was an excessively perfectionist and used to respond to the wave of attention seeking. I used to fear a lot very easily without even understanding. And self belief - I didn't know what that was . I never understood who I am , what I need . I used to get easily attracted by what others are doing and I tend to copy that. It can be bipolar.

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The Human Mind is Truly Remarkable

by Thomas Marsh-Connors Angry British Conservative Blog

We live in an age obsessed with machines artificial intelligence, robots, algorithms, and self-driving cars. And yet, every so often, something as simple as tossing your phone in the air reminds you: that nothing mankind has created comes close to the brilliance of the human brain.

Earlier today, while chatting with a mate on the phone, I found myself instinctively throwing my iPhone in the air and catching it. Over and over. Absent-mindedly. Without even thinking about it.

And then it hit me: How the hell is my brain doing this?

I wasn’t consciously focusing on catching the phone. I wasn’t calculating trajectory or distance. I wasn’t telling my fingers when to close or where to move. I was having a conversation and yet, somehow, another part of me was tracking a moving object in space, adjusting my hand’s position in real-time, compensating for motion, light, gravity, and muscle tension. All without conscious effort.

Let me tell you something: that’s not normal. At least, it shouldn't be. It’s not something we should take for granted. It’s miraculous.

A Symphony of Silent Genius

Your brain is a conductor and your body is the orchestra. Just to perform this simple task (tossing and catching a phone), dozens of brain regions coordinate perfectly:

The motor cortex activates your muscles.

The cerebellum controls timing, precision, and balance.

The visual cortex tracks the phone’s arc.

The dorsal stream predicts where the phone will land.

Proprioception (your sixth sense) tells you where your hand is in space.

Reflexes make tiny last-second adjustments.

And the best part? You don’t have to think about any of it.

You're running two separate but perfectly synchronized processes one verbal (talking to your friend) and one physical (catching your phone). And both are happening seamlessly. Your brain is splitting tasks, assigning them to different areas, prioritizing efficiently, and updating inputs constantly. That’s not just multitasking that’s a level of organic processing power no AI system has ever come close to.

We Are Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

As a Christian, this sort of thing only deepens my awe. You could spend your entire life studying neuroscience and still not touch the depths of how the mind works. The way the brain governs the body silently, precisely, and with effortless grace speaks of something far greater than random chance or chemical coincidence. It’s design, not chaos. Order, not noise.

And while Big Tech wants us all to marvel at the “latest breakthrough” in silicon intelligence, perhaps we ought to spend a bit more time being blown away by the carbon-based intelligence sitting between our ears.

Your mind is not just remarkable it’s sacred.

So next time you find yourself tossing your phone, catching a mug without spilling the tea, or typing a text while crossing the road without getting flattened just pause. Marvel. Respect the machinery you’ve been gifted.

Because the most powerful computer on earth… is you.

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you don’t need perfect conditions to start. you just need to start. five minutes of focus is better than waiting for motivation to come.

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I always love brain work . And lately I have started to observe how I function. I never really observed me or thought why am I doing it . I just gave my all in whatever I feel interested in. Though for the first time I do feel actually kind of bright when studying something that is science with the aim of being a doctor. I tend to procrastinate when I do like to do something.

I felt an existential crisis before. Now I do regret being born .

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Joy in June. Upgrades in June. Nourishment in June. Excellence in June.

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Healing makes you antisocial in the best way. Suddenly, you crave peace more than attention. Suddenly, you realize how much noise you used to mistake for love, friendship, or fun.

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"We have a tendency to avoid what is bitter and to run away from our suffering. We're not aware of the goodness of suffering, the healing nature of suffering. Some of us practice sitting meditation in order to escape suffering. It gives us some stillness and relaxation and helps us leave behind our difficulties and disputes, and we feel a little bit of peace and happiness. But that's not the true purpose of meditation."

-Thich Nhat Hanh, Zen and the Art of Saving the Planet (2021)

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Start actually believing you’re deserving. Move like it. Watch what happens.

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May you be so deeply rooted in your worth that no one’s confusion can uproot your peace.

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It does not get any better. Everyday I wake up, torture myself for a long amount of time . I try to be consistent. There's no me in it . Earlier things were like this. I didn't have my presence in it , I used to look at everyone and feel everyone has a way except me . I used to feel inferior. I used to feel everything was out of my ability. Then I faced something, it made my return back to my own life . I finally started to feel I am not like how they made me. I feel different, I do things differently and there is no need for me to copy in order to fit in .

I feel myself when I write .

I have found the attitude to accept myself with my every behaviour.

Earlier I couldn't write here . I always had this thing - the fear of putting myself in a public place . But now I did .

The last 2 to 3 years I couldn't go out because of lots of fears and bruises. I was sick completely. I couldn't get a choice but to suffer .

It was (it's still there) always about what others say, think , comment, perceive, or how they look at me . I became excessively self conscious. I know the world doesn't revolve around me . But every time things came in my way made me feel disturbed.

I know what I want to do. I know how I can change myself. And the fear is the resistance where I am not interested. I want to be a doctor.

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To be consistent.

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Acceptance

Understanding

Concentration (all five senses)

Confidence

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May you love yourself more than you love the idea of someone else choosing you.

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Things that push me backwards and out of my own life - are actually the blockage. Growing up I did inappropriate things in many situations , it's the upbringing that I consumed and suffered.

Many silent sufferings which were meaningless to me, but made me suffer anyway are those subconsciously consumed things.

It is not a pain , it's a baggage that I carried for too long.

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I am failing in life every day . My mind is just trying to justify everyday somehow and I can only be an observer.

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Worth waiting for

Some things in life are simply worth waiting for. In a world that rewards instant gratification, it takes patience and belief to hold out for what truly matters. The dreams we build, the goals we chase, the relationships we nurture—these aren’t supposed to happen overnight. They take time, effort, resilience, and a willingness to trust the process. The intentional life isn’t about rushing to the quickest outcome; it’s about investing in what’s real, meaningful, and lasting. When we stay the course, when we honor the journey, we find that what we were waiting for wasn’t just the result—it was who we became along the way. And that, more than anything, is worth it.

Loving life, when I wait for it

Joe