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i love watching people play ffx. it doesn't matter if it's their first time or their tenth time. i love watching gameplays of it. i love when they decide to reply the game after fifteen years. i love when they have memories attached to the game. i love when they have insight about the game, even if it could be canonicly wrong. it's just one of those games that keeps on giving, it's that one game that tells you everything you need to know right away and you don't even know. i love ffx!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( not you shiva cloister of trial. not u. )

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i've got afflicted by immense x-2 nostalgia, thus making my dear friend play it through remote play for me ( they had never completed it before. cannot be a close bud of mine if that does not happen, it's a requirement for friendship unlock. ) and we have just reached ch.2. i'm a known beclem hater because what prompts someone to unfairly say such lines like ' summoners are worthless now ', ' i doubt you have defeated sin without any help '.

the youth league especially is known to be very adverse to yevon & its following and traditions, which is entirely fair, but beclem really pushes the limits of it by insinuating things about yuna that tick me off ( it is intentional to bring you to the gunlet gameplay, and still — ) but at the very least it makes it very satisfying to beat his score, even just to hear yuna stand up for herself and the memories she made along the way of her pilgrimage, which does not even have anything to do with the traditions.

my pilgrimage was successful because my friends and the aeons supported me along the way. and they still do. memories of the time we spent together make me strong. i won't stand here and let you call that strength useless.

i've had this train of thought before, re: the way summoners have been seen by spira's general opinion before the eternal calm ( and for some, even after ). at times, i got the feeling that spirans did not truly value their lives. followers of yevon or not, there was a level of disrespect of their lives which made it very sad to think about. at times, it felt like they were disposable. and although crusaders were trying their best in their own way, it is a recognized thing that they were never successful in any endevor, though effectively making the final summoning the true sole solution to bring the calm. it's hard to point out all the flaws with spiran society, but it feels like from different sides summoners are given for granted, and to think beclem would go out of his way to still think that way really makes my blood boil, as well as yuna's truly — but the amusing thing is that she has engrained this way of thinking selfishly, where it is not that she cares about defending her 'honor' as the high summoner that lived, but rather honoring the memory of her friends & aeons who all helped her make her pilgrimage the way it was. and it would not have mattered if she had failed in bringing the eternal calm or not, she would have still thought that way — that her friends deserve to be praised and rememberedin a honoring way, and that strength cannot be useless.

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started thinking about the bond between kimahri and yuna and how he picked this tiny child in his arms and carried her all the way to besaid, and how when he was meant to leave her, she begged him to stay with tears in her eyes. and he did. kimahri had no real connection to yuna in truth, it was 'the wish of a dying man' manifested and nothing more, and yet he still decides to stick by her side when she asks not to go.

we know how unforgiving kimahri can be. he could have headed back to his tribe, resumed his watch at the mount, but knowing that this creature would be alone in the world was enough to make him stay.

in dark times, she must be. she must shine bright.

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Since I have nowhere to go atm, thanks to CORVID19, I thought I might focus on painting backgrounds/ environments and speed paintings. I really liked the thought of having a FFX3 so here’s my take on it ;-)

Pls, remember to stay at home and healthy!!! 

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"It was the only thing we could do. It was the only choice we had. I gave in, I accepted, I believed. I allowed it to be true. I thought I'd be able to go through with it without ever doubting myself, but I… it hurt so much."

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what if i at one point. started a x replay and used this blog for commentary about my own thoughs. shakes my cup i miss my babies

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this is yunacore i fear

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i won the videogame day 5 i'm free

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i just met someone ( a colleague of my artist friend ) who just nonchalantly recounted that he saved amano's life ( yes. that amano. that one ) by grabbing him after he hit his head hard as fuck into a staircase and he didn't even say anything like oh i just hit my head and then this colleague went to his manager by telling her he hit his head and she just said "oh, again?" like. what. how crazy is that

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Extravagance hides the funniest of things -- like the king being checked by the rook.

cardd // playlist // affiliated with @extravagantliar

indie green/purple // diplomatic/humorous rook from dragon age the veilguard not canon compliant penned by tepid

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gonna be put this blog on a hiatus for the upcoming two weeks! things are slowing down since i have a weekend trip coming + next tuesday the savage tier drops in xiv and i'm racing for week 1 with my static! the new tier seems kinda funky.. ... i'll just be lurking around and i'll be spotty but i won't be able to funnel all my energy into replies unfortunately.. .. ;- ;; so just wanted to thank everyone for their patience with me & my gorl !!!!

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if square enix doesn't announce a ffx remake in my lifetime i fear i will have to crash out. good NIGHT !

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@braskide prayed : sorry about how i ruined everything by saying it out loud ↪ from this meme.

& here they are , at the very end of this story. a bit selfishly , tidus never wanted this moment to come. the end meant that it was real , & that it was over. after this ... he'd disappear with the zanarkand he knew , he'd free the fayth from their restless sleep & only exist in memories. in a way , tidus had already accepted this truth , but hadn't been able to find a way to phrase it , had hoped he'd have more time with his friends , more time with her.

which brings him to now , standing at yuna's side for the last time. his heart is heavy with grief , or perhaps something akin to it. grief for his home , grief for the life he'd known , grief for the life he'd never get to have. most of all , he grieves for yuna , knowing that this is their final moment. the guardian's hold on her hand tightens slightly , everything he could think to say dying in his throat.

no words can truly express the things he wants to say , & tidus loathes his inability to speak , though perhaps it hurts more to hear yuna's voice , heavy with the kind of regret he feels as well.

sorry about how i ruined everything by saying it out loud.

tidus can only shake his head , smile on his face too bittersweet to be comforting.

❛ yuna ... there's nothing you have to apologize for. ❜

or rather , he's the one who should do the apologizing. he wishes they had more time , wishes he'd said something sooner , wishes that it didn't have to be like this. but if this is all the time they've got , it'll have to do.

❛ ... i've gotta go soon. now that the fayth aren't dreaming anymore ... ❜

he doesn't have to say it. soon , he won't even be able to touch her , so he can't afford to drag this out any longer.

❛ ... do you remember what i said back then , in macalania ?? i'll always be with you. so don't forget about me , okay ?? ❜

his hand slips through hers , intangible at the end of his time.

❛ yuna ... i'm glad we met. ❜

i'm glad it was you at the end of it all.

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