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people are dying

Maybe one day, we'll get the timing right.

Maybe this is the middle of a longer love story.

Maybe In Another Life

—Taylor Jenkins Reid

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HI ASH

i wonder if anyone still remembers me here

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OMG HI ZI???

i wonder if anyone still remembers me here

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i wonder if anyone still remembers me here

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Forever thinking about "My heart was yours before I could admit it, and yours it shall ever remain."

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HAPPY 1 YEAR TUMBLR ANNIVERSARY!!!!! 💜💜💜

YAY TYSM ZI ILY

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HI GUYS!!

long time no see 😩

today is the 1 year anniversary of this account and i know i’ve been ia lately so i decided to post all my unfinished/finished wips!! I never got around to finishing them and idk i thought posting them would be better than letting them rot in my drive. yay here’s the link if you wanna check it out!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/32424691/chapters/80396536

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thanks for the tag zi! @immhungry

fantasy me looks like a bad bitch

tagging: @maos2013 @herosofmarvelanddc @browneyedgenius !!

Tagged by @captain-of-the-historicfuture to do a picrew real me Vs fantasy me. Thank you for tagging me, I really liked this! 💙💙 The link for the picrew is in the original post.

No pressure tagging @zeldaiscool19, @daisy-appreciation-week, @redvanillabee, @child-of-the-tardis256 and @sugarpiehoneyduck!

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or literal death tbh

now the question is, what would it take to get moony to write again

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Some amazing book dedications: 

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Lesbians, what is your wisdom today?

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What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go.

You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to  her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all  busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself

but you killed everyone else around you too. 

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now the question is, what would it take to get moony to write again

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me reading another soulmate au at 3 am like

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AHHH WAIT IM SO EXCITED THANK U FOR THE TAG @immhungry

Love at first sight or slowly growing fond of someone? | love letters or mixtapes? | hand kisses or kisses on the cheeks? | understanding each other without words or finishing each others sentences? | gazing into each other’s eyes or looking away blushing? | longing to be with someone again or spending every second together? | laughing together or crying together? | someone run their fingers through your hair or gently playing with your hand? | surprise kisses or long tight hugs? i refuse to choose.

THAT WAS SO FUN AHHH I MISS MY SENIOR CITIZENS HAAHHA tagging @maos2013 @browneyedgenius @herosofmarvelanddc

Yes yes YES I love this!! I was tagged by @lunarlesbianlove 🥰 Thank you, lovely!! 💖✨

love at first sight or slowly growing fond of someone? | love letters or mixtapes? | hand kisses or kisses on the cheeks? | understanding each other without words or finishing each others sentences? | gazing into each other’s eyes or looking away blushing? | longing to be with someone again or spending every second together? | laughing together or crying together? | someone run their fingers through your hair or AND gently playing with your hand? | surprise kisses or long tight hugs?  

I tag: @welshdragonrawr @supremeinlilac @mssallymckenna @shineestark @ifnotlovepersevering @i-just-cannot @pearplate @serawalkerwrites @billiedeansbottom @marvelfansince08love and anyone else who wants to do it!!

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thanks for the tag @maos2013 !!!

Soft 9/20

baby pink | iridescent | glitter is always a good option | minimalistic tattoos | cherry patterns | sweet scented perfumes | wearing generous amounts of blush | doodling hearts | getting excited to pet an animal | fun nails | rewatching old barbie movies | hair sticking to glossed lips | heart shaped sunglasses | taking pictures of the sunset or sunrise | stuffed animals | protecting nature | stickers everywhere | teen movies | the light rain that falls from a clear sky at the beginning of the night

Dark Academia 13/20

neutral tones | masculine outfits | studying languages | worn down copy of books | grey skies | turtleneck sweaters | loose fitting pants | hair tied with a silk ribbon | trying to remember a cool difficult word you read somewhere to use in a convo | thick belts | minimal makeup | windows fogged by rain | vintage jewelry | blouses with cuffed sleeves | reading a murder mystery and trying to solve it | oxford style shoes | sweater vests | subtitled old movies in a language you don’t speak | leaves crackling as you walk | annotating books to express your emotions about the story

Edgy 5/20

closet full of dark clothes | fishnet tights | makeup sweating off | neon signs | searching for unknown songs | chokers | band tees | doodling on old converses | finding smoking aesthetically pleasing but not doing it | weird humor | accidentally very dramatic | dim lights | layered outfits | chain belts | chipped nail polish | messy hair | low quality pics | piercings | combat boots | scribbling on desks

70s 6/20

colorful wardrobe | doodling flowers | wearing shorts | using a bikini top or bra as a normal top | listening to ABBA | flowers in your hair | DIYing everything | jamming to songs alone in your room | drunkenly telling your friends you love them | patterned bandanas | mid heeled shoes | messy braids | flared sleeves | walking barefoot on grass or sand | bold sunglasses | the good kind of tired you get after doing something you enjoy for hours | feeding stray animals | fun patterned socks | room decorated with succulents and other plants | likes to go roller skating or skateboarding

Preppy casual 11/20

collared clothes | drinking juice out of a champagne glass | getting excited to see the met gala looks | thick headbands | small pastel cardigans | making your friends take your ootd pics | plaid mini skirts | tweed two pieces | watching reality tv to pass time | frilly tops | watching old Hollywood movies | academically driven | long manicured nails | new year’s eve fireworks | colorful tights | layered golden jewelry | yearns for luxury brand items | decorating your room with fairy lights | cursive and neat handwriting | lace details

FF THIS WAS SO FUN AHHHH @immhungry @likea-black-widow-baby u guys have to try this !!!

Thank you for the tag @sassicaismysupreme

Soft: 16/20

baby pink | iridescent | glitter is always a good option | no bra | minimalistic tattoos | cherry patterns | sweet scented perfumes | wearing generous amounts of blush | doodling hearts | getting excited to pet an animal | fun nails | rewatching old barbie movies | hair sticking to glossed lips | heart shaped sunglasses | taking pictures of the sunset or sunrise | stuffed animals | protecting nature | stickers everywhere | teen movies | the light rain that falls from a clear sky at the beginning of the night

Dark academia: 9/ 20

neutral tones | masculine outfits | studying languages | worn down copy of books | grey skies | turtleneck sweaters | loose fitting pants | hair tied with a silk ribbon | trying to remember a cool difficult word you read somewhere to use in a convo | thick belts | minimal makeup | windows fogged by rain | vintage jewelry | blouses with cuffed sleeves | reading a murder mystery and trying to solve it | oxford style shoes | sweater vests | subtitled old movies in a language you don’t speak | leaves crackling as you walk | annotating books to express your emotions about the story

Edgy: 5/20

closet full of dark clothes | fishnet tights | makeup sweating off | neon signs | searching for unknown songs | chokers | band tees | doodling on old converses | finding smoking aesthetically pleasing but not doing it | weird humor | accidentally very dramatic | dim lights | layered outfits | chain belts | chipped nail polish | messy hair | low quality pics | piercings | combat boots | scribbling on desks

70s: 9/20

colorful wardrobe | doodling flowers | wearing shorts | using a bikini top or bra as a normal top | listening to ABBA | flowers in your hair | DIYing everything | jamming to songs alone in your room | drunkenly telling your friends you love them | patterned bandanas | mid heeled shoes | messy braids | flared sleeves | walking barefoot on grass or sand | bold sunglasses | the good kind of tired you get after doing something you enjoy for hours | feeding stray animals | fun patterned socks | room decorated with succulents and other plants | likes to go roller skating or skateboarding

PREPPY CASUAL: 9/20

collared clothes | drinking juice out of a champagne glass | getting excited to see the met gala looks | thick headbands | small pastel cardigans | making your friends take your ootd pics | plaid mini skirts | tweed two pieces | watching reality tv to pass time | frilly tops | watching old Hollywood movies | academically driven | long manicured nails | new year’s eve fireworks | colorful tights | layered golden jewelry | yearns for luxury brand items | decorating your room with fairy lights | cursive and neat handwriting | lace details

Tags: @dreamer-queen @star2684 @yourtaletotell @delias-bitch-craft @xsarahxpaulsonx @stayeviildarling @in-cordelias-coven @paulson-hargitay @cordys-babe @cordeliaswhore and @y/n only if you want too