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the more time takes

the more possibility makes

out of the house with curve line in my lips

my friends getting more jealous on the dawn of the friday

jealous about the possibility that we have

jealous about the laugh that we show

jealous about the meet that we keep

with your black shirt, black moto, black helmet, even the eyes

the shiny you offer, sun

without the face, the name, the heart, even the soul

the empty you offer, dust

the shine makes blind, the dust makes quiet

the possibility in my head

the impossibility in around

the older i got

the sadder i realized

that time may not come

that you may not come

you come, i rejecting

you come, i passing

you come to me, it's late

it's all just may

no certain way will exist

trying to be the best, the best of myself

as they beg

trying to be the obedient, the obiedient as a son

as they ask

trying to be the normal, the normal as a people

as they sharping the religion words toward me

point of time will come

that's might be

the lonely period will come

that's might be

will you still come to me

that's might be

the possibility in my head

the impossibility in around

— the hardness of (delusional) love

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Brick by Brick – Live at Bradley Center, 2012 [X]

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i'm naive when i said that i haven't been dating with someone until now bcs of my parent permission

ahaha i'm that pussy

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The Last Shadow Puppets - BBC Radio 1′s Big Weekend 2016

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netflix's on my block was really entertaining, really. they taught me many things about friendship and family. I spent the series for 5 days, wow only 5 days for 3 seasons—that's a new record—because it's really lit. but the ending... at first I didn't accept what they made bc it's like ruining the entire episode, the arc chara they built.

I was angry, sad, disappointed, screaming, and almost vomiting not bc the ending was sucks—it was unrealistic and the script was bad, but because it really reflected what I was experiencing right now. I did not accept the ending well because I also rejected the fact that not everyone will be by our side forever, even tho our homies. after what we've been through, happy, sad, adventure, life, death, chase, dancing, loss of reason, party; all objects there will not be permanent, maybe, but the memory will always be within 32GB of my brain.

Last, the ending is not sad, but it's beautiful because it is realistic about the lives that many people go through now, and thankful they did not force a "happy ending" according to people standards. and I'm happy about that.

ruby, jamal, monse, cesar, and jasmine, abeulita, oscar, and olivia I really thank to yall omg I've never been so personal to the series

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Alex Turner shot by bouccan during AM tour in 2013

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Tranquility Base Hotel & Casino, 2018 By Zackery Michael

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what a was bad dream.

bad dream? i guess not

idk how to started but one day when im on high school we go to yogyakarta. but idk exactly where part yogya is. i saw building with palace style. all white. i think it was taman sari, but taman sari isnt that high roof. the ceiling is BEUTIFULLL chiseled. but when rifat wanted to tak e a picture of him, actually it was home. yes someone's home. so we out from there and i FORGET. how could sasa—my elementary school's friend—IS THERE for take a picture of bagas—my high school's friend. ITS QUIET STRANGE. the last i saw her when 6th grade. OH YEAH DONT FORGET THAT I WAS ALMOST STOLEN. YES IT WAS STOLEN BY 2 TIMES. I dont know what else to do but take things and leave them. i was confuse bcs they way they talk to me was very friendly. ok ill tell u something, part when id talked with stranger ive had thought that i was abroad. like viet or thai. but i just realized i was in yogyakarta when i saw rifat and there was 3 or 6 gates. but i couldnt read clearly the sentences on it.

well it was my second dream.

the first is like deep blue sea movie.

i could read the title. COULD READ THE TITLE OF THE FILM RIGHT ON TOP LEFT. LIKE A MOVIES ON TV. THE TITLE IS WORD "SHARK AND BLA BLA". THE FIRST DREAM IS AS STRANGE AS SECOND DREAM.

we was on a building surrounded by the ocean. when we tried to go down of a building i could see like a jar lid.

then suddenly the dream immediately jumped into the scene of me and my unknown friend told to leave the building when it was raining heavily. and i crash bcs of storm and then i wake up with the voice of my mother who told me to sahur bcs this is first day of ramadan.

well happy ramadan guys 🖤

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wow where am i now?

why i didnt write anything abt my daily 'campus' life?

is that get hard?

or i just forgot that?

actually at day 10, i really idk feel tired and my friends was coming to my room and id laugh id sleepy id hungry id whirling.

but u know what i still remember that day, even not the whole happened at that day, friday exactly.

and when i came home bcs of coronavirus, i got dizzy to write somethin

but i hope i can get that energy again after that virus disappear. aamiin.

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day 9

it was so flat, wake up at 6.30 but i could still lay in ma bed bcs the class will starts at 1 hour later. ok but i just realized today wasnt so flat. the course was so bad. bad is means screwed up, fucked up, messed up, etc. like wth the formula really hard than previous. even i understood, bcs we in 2nd semester rn. after that, actually id pancasila course but like i was tell in my posting my lecturer is too lazy—idk how to explain bcs before my class he had taught the another class—and he asked us the class will be often off. so rn my head is full of imagine. idk how to stop it. my brain decided to imagine ill be his boyfriend. yes u not wrong, HIS. its disaster bcs like i was never thought about that. but i just come out unexpectedly. i scared if i treat him different and hell strange react. so hell see me different like my another friend did me like that. I REALLY WONT BE LIKE THAT

note. : u must pay ur friend a gasoline. kike he really help u right? so be kind to him

18.52 / love, pal

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day 8

math was easy bcs we learnt what we had learnt when high school. its abt limit and its basic. i think we could do it fluently. and bahasa course's lecturer is replaced—idk itll be permanent or what i hope no—and her kinda u know. we really happy hot lecturer mr asep, bcs hes chill. and the successor—i hope again not—have thought of various ways of learning. maybe bcs she is still young in her minds still full of great spirit to teach. i appreciate it, but slow slow down maam. ohh yeah and dont forget i was jOOOOGING, CANT U BELIEVE IT? even though its just 7 rounds. im proud of myself haha. i hope itll be once every two days, aamiin.

note. : BRING A WATER U MORON AND EAT SOME BEFORE DO IT

20.36 / love, pal

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day 7

hmm today is not really interesting. like all is normal. statistics and cooperative and smes economics is fine. the lecturer was gooood and my friend was tame. and i had thought abt my life, my study, my situation, my capability, my friend environment, and my desire. if i took some organisation or lk bso, what will happen next. and then i might continue my study in other place, what will happen next. or i will be a cow boy who still confused abt himself and run away from his duty as an organisation member. or he will be a boy who not participate at all the event and all tasks and burdens like active students. im thinking i can join the lk bso at third semester. i mean its ok. even late with the others. ill join organisation in outside faculty—i forget the name—than lk bso is my faculty, but who knows. wish me luck guys 😌. now i really lost my way.

note. : dont shy to ask or listen some advice. just hear it, u can filter it again if ur minds is clear. ohh yeah and DONT FORGET ABT UR ENTREPRENEURSHIP. u can review the study today and write it on ur book

22.27 / love, pal

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day 6 (love my band)

EVERY LECTURER MUST BE LIKE HIM PERIODT. the lecturer that give their students an assignment at first day they meet is no COOL. i mean mr. seno really did what he must do. gave students an idea of ​​what theyll learn later, made them wonder. instead we are told to ask questions that we dont even know what to learn next time. honestly today was a normal day. no suck lecturer or bad assignment. i hope tomorrow will better, aamiin. when english too, ms uut gave the easy task even the homework not really. i think just it. ohh yeah and i had watched shape of water and that movie is reaaaaaally good. not mediocre rom movie, but idk just we can see in other side. i cant explain it. ok bye enjoy for tomorrow even statistics still exists haha.

note. : u dont have to buy a book, u can borrow it from library. but before that, open the rps first to know what books we must read and learn. and make a summary for ur knowledge. thanks.

21.11 / love, pal

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day 5

"FUCKKKKK IM LATEEEE" that was my first i said today. i up 6.40 when i must in class at 7. and i broke my deal with myself if ill wash my hair. and idc abt anything, and i 'run' into the class. ohh lucky me the lecturer ms uut even not came yet. i wait, wait, and wait until 7.30 she finally came up. like FUCKKK—the second time—why she hadnt said that, so i could breakfast first. my stomach roar like they never eat before, bcs yeah at night before i hadnt ate—u know till know i try to not eat dinner—i just hope i didnt get maag. e ntr e pr e ne rship. i wondered what would i learn from it bcs i dont really good at that, but i hope i can REALLY learn from it. when ms uut was ordering to write our future plans. I REALLY HAVE NO IDEA. i was just write 'will' my job based on my hobbies. idgaf but other than that i was thinking what will i do when i grow up, or even this time lately. bcs my awareness of job or experience are really LOW. it makes me F sad but i knew thats isnt the right time. so i write maybe i like. im so jealous with people who already have knew their skill even i still sleep, watching movies, eat, and burn my parent's money. ok i dont wanna sad protracted. when microeconomics my lecturer is still with statistics, mr pras, and his teach style still sama haha. ang i think he push us like u know the lecturer who got high hopes for us. but its ok, we think thats how it should be. and i dont blame him.

note. : u can/must realize ur hobbies for some benefits. and contemplating something doesnt hurt

24.40 / love, pal

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day 4

theres not many i can tell abt today. even today was dies natalis or my university's birthday. i actually curious abt the event, but my eyes chose to open at 8.45 tf. ive never been too up late. lana del rey and lorde really didnt let me to rest my ears and eyes. they really did it with their heaven voice. and i doing it rn haha. ok but can we talk abt ive read thg until the page 319/406. wow i must be really like that book huh, if i tell u i really love with katniss. when i was junior high school ive BIG CRUSH with katniss bcs of jlaw, but now the more deeper i read it the more im in love katniss, anddd peeta despite im confused abt he now. ill wait until the end. ok and id general course abt pancasila and the lecturer was a clown. i mean really really clown if compared to yesterday. he talked like he was drunk, astagfirullah. but the way he thought make me AKFJWIANBXEJQOMS and when he said hell attend to class once for two weeks im like 😲 and 🤐 is this can called blind salary. i dont wanna make him like religious criminal and i dont know abt his business but it kinda confusing. he wants to meet once for two weeks but doesnt guarantee well get good grades? U DONT EVEN TEACH. U IN PANCASILA CLASS BUT TALKED ABT ISLAM ALMOST ALL THAT TIME.

note. : idc what u time come to course but dont close too much with ac, it makes u feel sleepy. andddd dont to close if you reading book. dont do it like i do rn wit phone

20.51 / love, pal