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i'm 21 now, and i went out to my first happy hour last night. so college, so downtown, so women's bathroom. sipping on a red juice and thinking about "these are my people," having a friend mouth magdelena bay lyrics to me and singing the same fka twigs verse over and over. we talk about our studies as i am drunk and seamlessly, everything comes back to linguistics. familiar yet unfamiliar spaces and american girl dolls, sticker trading at 3 am. and that's not to say everything is romantic, but the words were beaming at us through a tv screen and i enjoyed it a lot. i want to do it again, i could not stop smiling and it enriched my experience living in this city

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i'm so proud of where i am in my life rn, i feel like i'm doing well mentally, academically, and setting myself up for success. so why does it feel so scary to let go of memories keeping me in the past? i have such wonderful people in my life, i love my best friend with my whole heart. yet things sometimes feel so scary and nostalgic, and it still makes me so sad that i can't relive anything. time just keeps moving, moving, moving.

it's literally dates and places - it's February, passing by my old dorm building, it's going home for my grandma's birthday, it's sickness. It's flu season and mucinex. It's the fact that i have so many good things in my future and they just aren't here yet, it's the fact that so many good people are in my life right now and i don't want to take that for granted. it's connection, it's people you pour your heart out for, it's never wanting to do that again, it's pouring your heart out because it's all you know how to do.

it's lessons, inherited traits, what you had to learn on your own. cold walks home and "was it really this cold last year?"

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we love going to work! (a year and some change later)

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A couple of days ago I woke up and saw my clothes all over my dorm room floor, and remembered being hungover in April, alone with blue hair

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how to get through your sort of senior year of undergrad

if you can't tell by my header, i've been obsessing over chasing moving trains, roy blair's 2nd LP. i don't stan people the same way i did when i was a teenager, especially when i'm a 20 yr old prospective grad student admiring people in their 20s. when you're 20 i think you can tell who keeps themselves and their emotions guarded. but it's always hard when you don't know musicians like that. it's kind of different now being off the grid because i have no one to share this music with. i could show it to my friends, i want to put CMT on a playlist for a new friend or lover one day, but it's a bit different than recommending kpop to each other through youtube channels and twitter replies.

i guess this tumblr blog feels more of like a diary to me than social media

not too long since CMT came out, i've been reading interviews, scrolling the subreddit, and he just dropped two playlists on spotify that make me sooo happy because i've been dying to know his music taste - it's unlike anything i've come across. a lot of ambience, which in such a hectic time of my life rn, is needed deeply.

i came across this IG live from almost 4 years ago - i can't believe this album has been in the making for even longer than that! strawberry and hummingbird still sound perfect sonically! wow! i was really impressed even though i knew and felt the growth and time this album took to flourish.

i love music and blair's discography makes me love it even more - especially when it doesn't feel like a paycheck album, it feels loved and crafted.

must listen to: karaoke, amberwood, and belmont

just wanted to get out my appreciation and thanks. i had no idea when i started writing this; blair turns 28 today! happy birthday to this guy who makes amazing amazing amazing tracks. fresh, innovative ideas.

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I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO BACK TO BAKBCAKCBAKBCKBACKBCKBCAKBCKABKCBBCABCBKCABCBK

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yaoi school

want to read this chapter of our textbook so badly but i'm deciding sleep might be needed tonight more than ever

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this is what it feels like to cancel on an amazing opportunity last minute just because of your workload and frankly if you don't have those 4 free hours on friday then you are fucked

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I'M GETTING WORRIED

let me go add all of the cds i need to my discogs wishlist thx

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the way you tilt your head up to the sky

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decided to make another tumblr to expand my internet presence even more

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i saw the substance and i am absolutely horrified for this life bro

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goodnight

can't wait to get into my bed tonight with my yaoi