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I wanna start my volunteer work this week! While our Communist government thinks it's a great idea to shut down the country and the liberalized follow-the-crowd sheeple peeple are too ignorant to see it, there are thousands of people getting neglected and dying. Mostly from drug overdoses, suicides, mental disorders. Their souls are dying from lack of church because freedom of religion has been taken away. Lgbt people are homeless with lack of help in this staged "pandemic." Some people really are sick from the virus but nobody helps them because they are contagious. So let's do something about it. Volunteer time! 😍

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Tor link page (dark web links) (not all dark web links the dark web is Multiple links and sites that you can’t get to without a proxy not everything on the dark web is illegal)

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I was reminded of the woman who washed jesus' feet today. Its starting to happen more, these people who always step in when needed in a certain moment. As i said, this is a Chicago thing for me. Its crazy, and they say go where the miricles happen your probably meant to be there.(not meaning easy, trials happen but good follows) Some are angels, many are just nice people. I try to be this way myself and i know that there's usually somone to help when i need it so i find these more and more.

For example last week a homeless stranger asked me for a dollar, or a peice of gum because their sugar was down. I started to snub her then God said dont be cocky give her some money! You wont die really you wont. I never give money to homeless. Its not me. Smallest amount i had wss a ten. I thought oh boy ok. Of course this person was surprised, they knew it was hard. They kept thanking me. And i was on the way to my job interview. I wasnt going to pass the drug test. But they forgot to do it. God said you would have failed, so because you gave that money i made you get the job without a drug test. Cool stuff.

So this week started with that dude saying lgbt goes to hell. And he added that its great to be sober, not steal, lie, cheat, to try and help people, to not sleep around, ect. But you will will still go to hell it doesn't matter and your lukewarm. Ok sir, by that logic id be stupid to live good at all. If hell is enevivible then shouldn't i just use drugs wreckelessly,sleep with every guy, cheat, lie, steal, and do whatever? Why even try to do better? No point.

I later was thinking he does drugs himself as a tweaker knows a tweaker. Hes questionable, and even coming out of a car reaking of weed and alcohol with people half his age. I'm sorry that didn't sit well with me. Horrible example for young people he is. Harder drugs though, he ain't honest, he's not 4 years sober, i don't believe it. The point is pharisees hide their sins but they do worse than they accuse of. That aside, as the night progressed things happened. Theres nothing more hurtful than you doing your best yet people mention the bad only. I was proud, a job, bills payed for the month, went grocery shopping for second time this month, ect. Those seem small yet they are great to me. Antonio and i had a fight. He was a dick, i was mouthy, people were instigating so after that it was over we thought. Worked it out like adults so now happy. Wasnt so hard.

So the lady whom i love so dearly. I met her first about 2 weeks ago. I came to this property. Ever have somone be so nice you think they are being sarcastic and insulting you? In Chicago we assume nice means it's a scam, but nice people exist. I just wasnt paying no mind really. She said she fogot her door code and asked if i could use mine. And she literally was stoked over it. She hugged me and said you answered my prayer your a life saver thank you so much! Mind you this was the day i overdosed. I wasn't feeling to great but she was refreshing. I thought, nah she's just mocking me cuz I'm high. Walked in and didnt see again her till this morning.

So knowing yesturday was rough i was crying and telling god my heart. And he answered so promtly. I walked into a bathroom as i had a schizo moment most would laugh at. Nothing so delusional, just bursting into laughter randomly, talking to angels, addressing things and being emotional kinda crying about things. Looked like a multi personality pshycopath or something. As i came out she pops out of NO WHERE! Are you ok? I thought, oh crap. This is embarrassing. I laughed it off and said not really but itll be ok. But i assumed she was being sarcastic. Like "Umm you ok? You need a mental doctor?" No she legit cared. And moments later she said im going to give you a massage. At first i thought huh? Then i thought, that's humbling. YES a massage is great please. A few minutes later she comes back with lotions and says "i know you! You saved me that day!" I still dont know how opening the door was so awesome but I'm glad she was happy.

So she gave my full body massage and it was wonderful. I didnt realize it was what i needed. So simple yet so perfect. We had a nice talk. Nobody likes being crazy. And when you have somone acknowledge your gifts as not crazy you feel happy. Especially coming from a far more sane sounding person. She mentioned her spiritual experiences. I shared some of mine. Somehow i ended up telling a bit more than i intended to yet i felt so comfortable around her. She mentioned how people won't get it but it's ok you can be active in your gifts and let people say things. Shes from portorico but her engilsh was fluent. She used words i rarely hear from most people and i thought, shes onto it, this lady knows her stuff.

It gets better. Sometimes the simplest thing said makes us cry as it touches that deep. "You have a great spirit you are so tender so fluid and you are clearly misunderstood. You can do much." She went on. But the thing that made me break into tears. She took my hands, she pulled back my hair, she looked in my eyes and said "your beautiful. You look like an angel. You have a glow and you look so angelic." I said thats the nicest thing anybody has said in so long and cried. And after she finished she said ill be seeing you soon. I was speechless. Been speechless ever since. I even started vibrating, which only happens when I'm having a high spiritual encounter. I love days like this i really do.

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Sometimes you have take that difficult road. Sometimes you have to speak words few will understand. Sometimes you have to risk losing your comforts, your security, your position to do a big thing. Sometimes, you don't get to be cool or respected or admired. It's sometimes you have to decide whether dating, social, monetary, or other advantage is better than doing what you know needs to be done. Sometimes you have jump into the unknown, alone, and trust that God will catch your fall. If you ever sacrificed anything at all for what is better later, your 10 steps ahead of the crowd! Do something radical today. Be weird. Lose your false securitys. Be EXTRAordinary. Avoid blending. Shine bright.

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We think God exsists only in moments of perfection. This concept is to shame the one in the most need. It's from hell, and the religious accusers work for the devil when they promote this. Because we are flawed, and its not true you must halt your progress until you get it together. God is there when you lose your temper. God is there when you say too much. He's there when you overdose on a drug. He's there when your in the hospital. Or when you self harm. Gods there when you get mad at him, and there when you need him. He's not religious or hateful, he asks not for perfection but honesty and effort. You still can help someone, still be happy, still be loved. It's not a competition. It's ok to not be ok. Don't hide it, identify it and keep going, don't feel your not worth it. You are.

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“Everything is energy and that’s all there is to it. Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics.”

— Unknown

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If this isn’t a troll, here is a picture on what you’ll find in the Deep Web. Marriana’s Web is probably a hoax, so you can forget about that.

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Yes so very true.