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HARDEST LESSON

I finally see the daylight.

After the darkest night.

Scariest time of my life.

I can finally breathe in clean air.

It was only ever toxic there.

I was powerless and I was scared.

Took a long time to even see

The damage you inflicted upon me

All the times you'd start a fight and call me crazy.

You went and took the parts of me I loved best

Caused so much drama and fucked with my head.

Sleeping with her on the side but at night you'd be in our bed.

If disappointment had a name, it'd be you

Thought at first you were great, oh if only I knew

That you were great at anything but telling the truth.

So I'm walking away from this roller-coaster ride from hell

Getting off of your super high shelf.

And I'm shutting you out while standing up for myself.

And you will never again have the power to hurt me.

I know your little tricks and quite frankly you are not deserving.

And I'm honestly so glad we never got married.

And as much time as it took to heal from my burns.

You will go down as one of the hardest lessons I've ever had to learn.

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THE ONLY WAY OUT IS THROUGH

THE ONLY WAY OUT IS THROUGH

THE ONLY WAY OUT IS THROUGH

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Falling into place — view on Instagram https://ift.tt/v5w8xAC

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Stop being mean to yourself.

You’re tired.

Not weak.

You’re burned out.

Not incapable.

You’re past your limits.

Not a waste of space.

Be gentle with yourself.

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i love sleeping and being mentally unavailable

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“Bad things are always going to happen in life. People will hurt you, but you can’t use that as an excuse to hurt someone back.”

— Unknown

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„Everybody telling me life’s short, but I wanna die“

-Lil peep

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I want to look as sick as I feel. so they know it's real

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Fortesa Latifi, from The Truth About Grief.

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Never stop being a good person because of bad people.

Unknown

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We need like a month where nothing happens and there's no repercussions we all just stay in bed and hibernate and nothing goes wrong

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I saw sparks fly between us,

like shooting stars falling through the blanket of night.

I thought it was beautiful, these small sparks and stars.

Though as I focused on the small few that flew in front of me,

I failed to see the bigger picture.

The warning signs. The sirens.

The meteor shower raining down its fury, and the sparks

that were instead part of a looming wall of fire.

This whole time,

I thought you were indulging in mellow sunset hues,

but instead you were only seeing red.

— s.a

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If he won’t let you leave the house without informing him of your every move, he is abusing you.

If he threatens to abandon you every time you have even the slightest argument or misunderstanding, he is abusing you.

If he sees you with tears streaming down your face and doesn’t even care, he is abusing you.

If he tells you you can’t talk to your friends anymore, he is abusing you.

If he threatens to hurt you or your family or friends or himself if you leave him, he is abusing you.

If he tells you what you can and can’t wear, he is abusing you.

If he breaks things and punches walls and screams at you when he’s angry, he is abusing you.

If he calls you rude or demeaning names and puts you down, he is abusing you.

If he continues to do things that hurt you or make you uncomfortable after you’ve asked him to stop, he is abusing you.

If he cheats on you, he is abusing you.

If he touches you or violates you or has sex with you against your will, he is abusing you.

If he tells you that nobody else will ever love you, he is abusing you.

If he yells at you about things that are his fault, he is abusing you.

If he doesn’t want you to go to school or have a job, he is abusing you.

If he gets insanely jealous over even the slightest things, he is abusing you.

If he laughs at you when you cry, he is abusing you.

If he controls all of the money in the house, and won’t let you have your own, he is abusing you.

If he threatens to take or harm your children if you try to leave him, he is abusing you.

If he makes fun of you for the things you love, he is abusing you.

If he destroys or tampers with your personal belongings to get back at you for something, he is abusing you.

If he treats you like shit all day and then whispers sweet nothings in your ear when you’re going to sleep about how much he loves you and is going to change and make you happy, he is abusing you.

Abuse is not always cuts and bruises. It can be psychological. Abuse is a serious thing whether it is physical or emotional. However, the signs of emotional abuse can be subtle and sometimes even go unnoticed by the person being abused. The abuser will do everything in their power to convince the person they are abusing that this is normal and that all couples go through this. They will try to convince you that what they are doing to you is your fault and that you deserve it. Please, please, reblog this to help people recognize these red flags. Emotional abuse can easily lead to physical abuse in the future. Add your own signs to the list let people know this is not normal and they do not deserve to be treated this way.

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I spend a lot of my life just getting through today, with the hope that tomorrow will be better. If not this tomorrow, then the one after that.

That mindset has kept me going through the pain in my back and my tailbone, covid and my empty nest, and then the loss of my dad.

Simply surviving for one more day has been good enough for me for a while. I’ve learned to hold on to the good while staving off the bad as best as possible.

Funny thing is, my attitude really helps me with fostering dogs. All issues, from poop to puke to sleepless nights to humping and who knows what else will happen, will pass.

It may be frustrating or difficult for a moment but none of it bothers me because I know it’s only temporary.

So I enjoy the experience as much as I can, accepting the bumps along the way. Because it will end soon enough.

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isn’t it crazy how they could be the love of your life, but to them, you could just be a pit stop on the road to them finding theirs?

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since this post now has over 200k notes, many of which are criticizing the second photo for being sexist, i’d like to say something…

i created this photo set from MY experience in an abusive relationship. the photo on the left is of a hole my partner punched in the wall when i ducked away from his fist; on the right is a bruise from a punch that i unfortunately couldn’t dodge. and as for my choice of using “he” instead of a neutral pronoun, i am a female and my abusive partner was a male. i am fully aware that there are battered men out there and abusive women. this post was in no way meant to be sexist. it was simply a way to express myself and reach out to women who have shared a similar experience.

to everyone who has reblogged this post, i cannot say how much it means to me and other abused women. you are spreading a message far more powerful than you probably think. to all the beauties who have been abused, stay strong and remember what is being portrayed in these photos. no “love” is worth the emotional or physical pain. 💖

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I think another good thing I came to realize was that, in therapy, "acceptance" doesn't mean that something is okay or good. To accept a situation or emotion means to understand that any amount of wishing it didnt happen, pretending it isn't happening, or regressing into maladaptive coping mechanisms will not effectively deal with what's going on. To accept is to acknowledge, to understand what is happening or what you're feeling and cope appropriately and healthily without self-judgement.