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yES! im so happy for u and ur poly relationship where ur getting everything u’ve ever wanted in ur life financially sexually emotionally and physically yes I’m absolutely not dying on the inside embroiled with bitter envy and seething jealousy and wanting to cry my eyes out because I’m trapped in a loveless toxic relationship while you get to live the dream YESSSS

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i can feel my own heart rotting in my chest on the regular

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astrology: “the native of this placement is blessed with longevity of life”

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I’d rather fall asleep to the pain of fresh cvts than some existential bs

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trying to off yourself and failing is SO EMBARRASSING i’m never leaving the house again

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God if you exist prove it by killing me in my sleep tonight

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so what do u do when u hate ur life, have no job, no education, a relationship ur not in love in and have been in for 8 years and own a house and four animals in, have no money, no family, no way to escape or make your life better in, and like 5 mental illnesses

asking for a friend

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I thought it would get better with age

It does not

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˚₊‧ ⊰ ⸸ ⊱ ‧₊˚

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Staying up into the late hours of the night thinking of ways to kill yourself is something else entirely.

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“if i were you i would-“ be dead. you would be dead.

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who else mourning the person they could've been if they were treated kindly as a child

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we are so back (relapsing)

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I just want to be soft

Why am I so angry, so harsh, so violent, so destroying.

It’s unfair

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Nobody apologized for how they treated me they just blamed me for how I reacted

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They should invent a new kind of Being Alive where it's not painful and it doesn't hurt constantly and actually feels worth it and you're happy for more than a few hours at a time