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We’ve had plenty of adventures in this short 9 months of being together and when I get back, we’ll have plenty more. This video was made to remind of us all the beautiful moments we’ve shared together as a young family before I deployed & to give hope to a future where we can share the rest of our lives together. Dedicated to my Lord, Jesus Christ, for the mercy and the grace he has shown me in my life & the wonderful blessing of a family. To my absolutely beautiful wife for loving me entirely beyond what I deserve. To my son, for being so pure and light hearted & to my baby who is on the way, soon you’ll be out of mommy and into our family! We can’t wait!!! For those of you watching, I dedicate this to you as well. In hopes that it will remind you of your loved ones as well. Keep them close, & love them with everything you’ve got. With Love, Brownfield (On “Brownfield Dreams” YouTube) https://www.instagram.com/p/CHDCQUuD2axLfp9eqLGd_lM7u3dCDaNT4RCpPY0/?igshid=ng3g9clv3rpy

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The absolute love of my life. https://www.instagram.com/p/CG2rxz3MMPjsG392v7HwwKcq3Q41WQOP5pNPtI0/?igshid=1dztzjihnar0r

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I just want to be consistent. To live “healthy” isn’t just having a nice body nor just eating the “right” foods. To me, it’s , as a whole, making sure that everything functions properly. Therefore, I DO need to put in good food and keep strong bones and strong muscles.

Being big, swole, used to be the goal. But now, or I should say for a while, it’s only been to be sure that I’m strong and functional in all aspects. Being “battle ready” for anything that may come.

To improve my fitness, I’ll definitely need to work my cardiovascular system a WHOLE lot more. So that will be a focus with sprints and long distance runs. The next thing will be both muscular strength & endurance, and that’ll come through calisthenics workouts both w/ & without weights. The last thing I want to make sure I accomplish is sharpening up my fighting skills. It’s been a while since I’ve officially trained in any fighting technique so I’d like to hop back into that.

As for fitness, this is my goal for the remainder of this 2019 year & into 2020. I’m going to try and track this on a weekly or bi weekly schedule and see where it goes from there. I can’t wait to see the results & I can’t wait to feel more confident in the skill I obtain.

Journey to Lyfe...

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Empty.

Lately, I’ve been feeling empty. No matter how much I study or listen to my bible lately I’ve been feeling like its not fulfilling me. I can only guess that as I move on to the next endeavor in my life I’ll continue to feel this way not only as I am, but it’ll get worse.

Really I know the answer to getting my fulfillment in life back. A follower of Christ with only doctrine is missing everything. Lately, all I’ve been doing is study study study, and I have gained so much knowledge which is cool. My discernment has increased a lot and I’m able to pick up on a lot of the slightest things now but now it’s just feeling like knowledge. Now it’s just feeling like I know these things and can now avoid these things or warn others about them, but my actually relationship with Christ is suffering.

It’s like I wake up and I begin research, or am looking at some video talking about the end times, or am reading another article about what ever topic concerning biblical doctrine or the world and its antics, I HARDLY spend anytime in prayer. Not that I don’t at all, but its been very few and far between, like really. So knowing the issue, or thinking that I know the issue, now is the time I put into action what it is that I’m missing.

Time to get back into the quiet space with God.

Love

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Anxious for Nothing.

I’m just waiting on the military at this point to give me my go ahead for the physical aspect of my MEPS process. I’ve really been anxious to go, just really ready to get out of here and get started but I had a thought the other day while with my sister and her boyfriend.

The beginning part of Phillipians 4:6 “be careful for nothing” come to mind. So I began to think to myself I’ve been really going after this military thing with fervor, I should really calm down and appreciate the time I still have outside of the military because shortly, I’ll be there and I’ll look back on these days and wish I had danced more, read my bible more, hung out with my family more, etc. So really, I should be making the effort to do those things.

Many times in my life as well as people I know, we tend to rush into things and rush our lives away. Honestly, our lives are over pretty quickly in the first place, but we make them go by so much faster by wishing ourselves into our future and our mind being there instead of our present, we miss our present time. The moments we could create in our present aren’t created because of that reason and our lives seem as nothing when we look back at them.

I guess, I really just want to start making a difference in my own life in the now, instead of later. I want to make the most of every moment of time right here and now & honestly, making time to settle down and read, or write, spend time with the family and or friends, seems so much more fulfilling than with movies or games or tv.

So, I’m sure it’ll be a lil bit before I break the habit but I’m definitely going to work at it and hopefully within a few months it’ll be so much easier to enjoy each moment of my life. I will keep account/ record and maybe it can help others as well.

Love.

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Would you rather have sliver and gold or would you rather have Jesus

Jesus. Silver & Gold will soon pass, Christ both made the two & lasts forever.

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I won’t quit.

It’s funny. This wasn’t supposed to be the original post but I lost the other post because I got a call on my phone and it connected to the iPad and because I went into another app...lol, it all disappeared.

...Whatever...

Anyway,

All I really want to say in this message, is...here is to a new beginning. A new start. Fresh. It has to be. & I desire to dedicate it fully to Christ. I just know its going to be a battle because my flesh is so frustrating. Like Paul I do all the stupid things I don’t want to do and let me be frank I play way to many video games and still watch pornography from time to time...Wow...I said that...lol, yes...I did say that, & its real, & its serious and its not something I desire to do. As a matter of fact, when I do it, its only because of a thought, not because I’m excited in anyway shape or form physically...its stupid...and I hate myself every time. & I feel less than every time. & feel dead every time....and I hate it...I absolutely dispise it.

...but I can’t stop...

What I mean is, I just keep going back. The thing is I think I’m doing this, trying to stop, in my own power, by my own discipline. But I don’t have the fortitude to stop on my own. Doesn’t matter how long I go without I always find myself at it again (day, week, or even a month) I end up back at square one and never feel as if I’ve grown or gotten any further with Christ. This thing makes me heavily doubt my salvation...I just pray the Lord continue to work in me and I don’t end up being a “Lord Lord” man. I could cry thinking about that...

Anyway this is not an out my struggle with sin (right now). This is about letting you know, as the reader, whether that be myself, my Father in Heaven, or who ever else is reading this...

...I’m starting over...

On the foundation of Christ alone. I’m taking my life in a new direction. I’m going to the Air Force. I’m joining and I’m going to learn new skills that I can pass on to an adopted son and family. I’m going to learn the scriptures. I’m going to seriously prepare myself for Christ’s return. I wil seek my Father in heaven with All my Heart, Mind, Soul, & Strength...I will. I won’t quit. I won’t end until I know that I know I have Christ and Christ has me. I have “to know.” Paul talked about a “knowing” an intimate “knowing” of Christ. & that’s what I want. That’s what I desire...that’s what I a going to seek out, HIM and HIS Kingdom, first and foremost from here on out.

So this will be a blog, paired with...(hopefully) a vlog, that will document my journey through the scriptures as I read and hold myself accountable with the video uploads and blogging. I’ve done this before and It was an incredible growth experience and the fact that others were able to share in that growth was great as well. I will find Christ and be sure that it is HIM I have found, and not a counterfeit.

Jesus...please, help me...Help me be sure, and me to find and to know the real you. I wish to know you...

I won’t quit until I find you, Jesus.

Brandon “Simba” Christopher Brownfield

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I'm interested...

Talk to me beautiful lady, yes you! Let me get to know a little bit about who you are, & maybe we can be good friends, & turn that into somn more powerful later on. Or...give me a hint your interested, make it a pretty big hint though, I'm not THAT good with hints. Just show me your interested & we can be interested together.

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Baby girl...

I’m not much right now. I’m a compiled list of goals and dreams. Haven’t accomplished much in my life just yet, but I’m really trying, more than that, I’m actually doing. Very noble, very humble, extremely sensitive, huge heart with the willingness and longing to love you to the furthest extent of it. I’m an encourager, motivator, lover, I extend myself and open myself up very easily. It’s a bad habit, I get that, but my willingness to open up helps others to open up as well, you get to know people better that way. Well, I open to you, at least when I meet you, you get to know every little thing about me, the things I haven’t told, the things I keep to myself, the things that are hard to open, because once open, it’s permenant. There’s no closing it again.

I want a best friend, I want lover. I want someone to be able play and wrestle with. Someone to joke around with and can laugh at my stupid jokes. But someone who can get serious and know when it’s no longer play time. But then again, knows that nothing is ever that serious unless the loss of life is involved.

My list of dreams is all my potential ready to burst, ready to be set free and fly. Sound corny?! Not to you lol, you understand it because your exactly the same way. Your potential is going to sprout it’s wings someday and be fully abundant in it’s season. & believe me when I say I will be there every moment of it! Seeing you flourish in your dreams as I do will be an amazing experience! God created us to match each other, to be a perfect combination! A beautiful melody, an awing masterpiece, a inseparable pair. No one should compare themselves to us because of course we’re truly one of a kind, truly! I see no couple out there as powerful as us, as motivated as we, as focused as our mentality, as driven as our movements, or as connected as our spiritual sense will be!

I see you beautifully made by the hands of God, mind body & soul oh so beautifully made. I love you to friggin death already and can only pray I’m prepared enough for you when we finally meet. God I Love you for you, but I Love you for making someone especially for me as well. I can’t wait to meet the embodiment of complete beauty in it’s entirety.

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...aaaaannndd...again... But tonight...somn was just special about tonight. I honestly wish I could have recorded tonight’s practice, but then again, all at the same time, these are the moments your glad wasn’t caught on film. Somn was different...& I’ll keep that in my hearts memory... #brownfielddreams (at Walkersville, Maryland)

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“I’m wonderin if I’m the only one, the only one afraid of growing up, Cause everybody looking like they winning, and I’m just tryna figure how to finish...” “Goodish” (ft Eris Ford) - Deraj (at Walkersville, Maryland)

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Looking back at last year, I gotta get another freestyle like this in. See the whole thing on YouTube: https://youtu.be/3Ifh1OCY7Sg

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“Best Part” (feat H.E.R.) *no sound they deleted it last time. (at Frederick, Maryland)

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This is the Freestyle I did today. Check it out on YouTube! https://youtu.be/KJxD2HGW7ss (at Frederick, Maryland)

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I totally forgot to post this up. This is another freestyle. I posted this on my YouTube 3m ago, check it out! https://youtu.be/xi0u8gm3YNw (at Frederick, Maryland)

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...aaannd...again! Chose to do a freestyle tonight. YOU KNOW...I’m not that good at free styling. I’m definitely gonna practice that more. (at Maximum Fitness 24/7)

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Another beautiful night of choreography. (Last night) New one! 👍🏽 (at Maximum Fitness 24/7)