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BTS IMAGINES YOU CUT AND HE FINDS OUT

JIN IMAGINE:

This is my first time writing a blog so it might not be that good,this is a pretty long one but before that Remember that you are worth it and cutting isn't the way to go,You are beautiful and you deserve everything

warning: mentions of self harm, cutting,blood,anxiety please do not read if it's a sensitive subject for you,

Alright so here it is:

You were really nervous and fidgety for the past few days and jin had been noticing how you lost your appetite and how you always had a reason to not hang out with him, he shrugged it off assuming that it was Your work stress and he didn't want to make you uncomfortable as it had just been a few months since you both started dating and you knew what you were getting yourself into, but it was all worth it because you liked jin very much and he did too and it was proven by the way he treated you,took you out on dinner dates,watched movies with you made you your favourite food and just being his goofy cute self.

One night as you guys were laying on the couch together, you on one end as usual and jin on the other, watching a random show on the Tv, he couldn't help but wonder why you wouldn't cuddle up to him or hug him, you would shy away when he did and he didn't want to force you into anything so he let you take your time but tonight you just looked very cute with your large hoodie and your disheveled messy bun and the way you were smiling looking at the Tv he got up and scooted closer towards you, you were too engrossed in the show to notice it,but only when jin but his arm around Your shoulder were you startled,you were nervous but you liked it for some reason then slowly you started warming up to him and rested your head on his chest and he was quick enough to pull you on his lap, jin was blushing and his ears and neck had turned red,but he was enjoying the moment, before you knew it your eyes started feeling heavy and went to sleep, jin didn't notice it and he was playing with your fingers and hands, that's when he noticed your wrist, he felt like he saw something but couldn't really point out it out then he slowly moved your hoodie's sleeve and there were a few thin lines engraved on your skin as he slowly started to take a close look at them and move the sleeve upto your arm, there were two long pink gashes on your forearm, he didn't want to jump to conclusions so he woke you up to ask You how did you get them, he was afraid that it would be his worst nightmare come to life but then he started putting the pieces together,You refusing to remove your hoodie even when it was burning hot,not wearing sleevless shirts, you got up and looked up at jin who was already crying as tears started pouring down his cheeks, You looked at jin panicking as to why he was crying and that's when you realized that your sleeve was pulled up and he had seen your secret which you had tried very hard to hide from him,you quickly got up with your own eyes filling with tears as the mere thought of jin leaving you caused you to cry, jin was now crying w-why j-jagi? Was all he could say you were on the floor now ad your legs gave out as soon as you feel jin sat down slowly beside you, he hugged you tight shh shh I'm here ,It'll be alright tell me what's hurting you, you wiped your tears and started telling him I've had a problem with self harm for 4 years now, it started with me hating myself, I had an eating disorder,I was stressed out ,my relationship with my Mom wasn't that great then and this was the only way of letting my emotions out and I started cutting,I've tried to stop doing it but I can't, I'm sorry, I know It's nasty and you would probably want to leave m- don't you dare complete that sentence,I would never leave you I love you and I promise that we will get through this,I-I can't lose you..ever he said he pulled you into his arms again and he sat with you the whole night listening to you talk about it and how you were feeling, whispering sweet nothings in your ear from time to time..