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no it’s so fine actually don’t respond to my text or message on other apps or when i walk in the house and say hello it’s soooooo cool actually idec it’s not bothering me at allllllllll

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oh my god i miss being hungry and empty and small i miss being in control i miss being cold i miss it i miss it i miss it

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i love you chew and spit

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i should probably be back on meds. it shouldn’t be this hard. i’m tired. i’m scared. i’m tired.

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sotiredsotiredsotired

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the best parts of me are the parts that are small

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oh god oh no don’t tell me it’s hot when my ribs stick out when i’m laying down i’m gonna make sure you can see them when i’m standing up

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i’m tired

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schrödinger’s panic attack: you know someone’s upset but they haven’t said whether they’re upset at you specifically or not.

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just finished another round of everyone’s favorite game: cry as quietly as you possibly can so you don’t look like the selfish piece of shit you are!!

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i am completely fine in an “i have been mentally unwell for years” kinda way

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Moths.

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Its always "i love you" and never "yes my sweet villain, my darling god"

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do you ever have mornings when you wake up, and you just have... this peculiar feeling. this longing. this state of unrest. you leave your house and the streets are deserted, and you almost feel like you're the only person left. you feel like the world, or your life, is on the cusp of something. something there, yet also not there. something nameless, but on the tip of your tongue. the feeling eventually disappears, but something still lingers, looking for another moment in time to creep back and make you feel like there's more to you and this tiny life

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