Hey, Ashley here, just post things that I love and be myself on here. Totally random person and love anime and nerdy things, furry creatures, sex, dragons, and anime. Class of 2019 in applied science for veterinary technicians. My ask and messages are open if you wanna know more 💜
Anger
Is something I’ve become too familiar with
Everyday
I look in the mirror
I see someone that I can’t recognize
Like my mirrors were switched with televisions on shows
That I can’t stand to watch
And of course the remote
Is nowhere to be found
I also find the channels I do love
Watching my children play in the living room
Embracing in hugs warm enough to melt my cold heart
Why can’t those channels stay on reruns
Why does my cable T.V. service provider always taunt me with shows I hate the most
Maybe he is just as bitter as I am
Maybe he doesn’t pay enough to get the good channels
I think he should invest in making the ones he’s got better
Or
Maybe find his remote and stay on the channels he loves
But
I know my problems are hard on my kids
That thin line between discipline and uncontrollable anger
Steady
Trying to find the switch to turn the lights off
In a room that’s already dark
And it’s through my anger that
I now know why children need night lights
To keep the monsters under their bed
From taking over the empty space in their closets
As kids it’s not a big problem
But
As an adult
There are more monsters under your bed than you can count
And your closet is already full of the skeletons you’ve shed like skin
And they are utterly terrifying
All of the people you once were animate
And start chasing you down
Trying to take over the you that is now
And all you want to do is to get under your blanket
And hide
But I’ve been hiding under my blanket for too long
I poked my head out to see
That this whole time I’ve had the two brightest night lights I could ever ask for
I just couldn’t see them because I was hiding
They make even the darkest situations brighter
Even when the sun in my life is eclipsed
And the moon isn’t out tonight
It’s pitch black
And there are no stars
Except two
I know that
Those two stars are the only ones I will ever need
Because
They’re the ones
That shine the brightest
-WOD