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I’m halfway through “Recovery” and I swear if all 911 were to have given us this week was just the one scene at the Eddie’s with Buck falling asleep pretty much instantly because he’s comfortable and safe there with Eddie, if this was all they gave us and said see ya next week I’d have been 100 percent okay with it. Haha. This show makes me deranged!

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So I’m watching the latest episode now and I’ve been rewinding and rewatching this door scene/interchange between Buck and Eddie and well it’s intense but that for another time. As I rewound and listened to Maddie and Chim’s conversation I took notice of chimney using the phrase “On the Lam” while referencing Buck not being at his apartment. That phrase meaning to be on the run from typically law enforcement but also can mean trying to escape or hide from other things as well. Which is why I find it interesting that we then cut to Eddie opening the door and smirking. I mean we heard the knock, we didn’t see Buck knock they wanted to show us Eddie first in direct response to chimney’s line about being on the lam. He’s been hiding, he and Eddie both have been hiding. and been on the lam from their feelings about each other, which are now clearer than ever before. I also would like to mention Maddie reacts to Chimney’s line, but with a look of knowing exactly where he is. Maddie Knows™️. This got long but I had to get these thoughts out. Now back to the episode. This madness! And this photo is the best I was able to do to catch Eddie’s reaction. Blink and you’ll miss it because they cut away from him so quickly. This show makes bold choices!

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This is brilliant analysis!

Ok but...

We know that the people inside Buck's coma dream are projections of what he knows of them, what he thinks of them...

But in truth, they're all HIM.

Chim is the Buck who is down for anything. The crazier it sounds the more interesting it is. He's up for learning, for helping, for joking. Chim is the happy go lucky Buck is most of the time.

Hen is the Buck who is skeptical, harsh even. Hen is the he who thinks that to accept his worth is somehow synonymous with making things about himself and being self-absorbed. When in truth, he discovers at the end, it's not an exaggeration to say he DOES impact the lives of the people he loves as much as they impact him. Of course the world (their world) revolves around Buck--because his world revolves around all of THEM. They're family. Their world revolves around each other, some of them more than others at any given time depending on the situation.

Maddie is the Buck who settles. Who can't see his worth enough to see he deserves better.

Eddie is the Buck who's angry. The same anger he constantly suppresses. Who we almost never SEE! The angry Buck that lost people in his life and represses it. Let's not forget he left Pensylvannia ANGRY. He's here now because anger forged him. Think of it this way. Anger is the emotion of action, sadness is the emotion of contempt. If he was built on sadness alone, he might have never even left Pensylvannia.

Bobby is the Buck who is lost and addicted. Addicted to sex, to validation, to love, to loneliness, to adrenaline, to recklessness, to passive unnaliving tendencies, to giving, to changing himself to mold into someone he isn't for the sake of a little attention.

Daniel is the Buck who could've been if he had lived, if he had existed. Daniel is the Buck he could have grown to had Buck known of Daniel and his death sooner, had he had the information to even know why he's coping the way that he is in response to his parents attitude and neglect. But Daniel is the Buck that lives. It is because of Daniel's illness that Buck is even alive. And it's because of Daniel's death that his entire childhood molded silently around.

In a similar note: Christopher is who Buck was as a child, but also who his inner child is now. Lost and still looking for his parents presence and love. Because, by consequence of Daniel's death, he lost his parents and his parents were ill equiped and lost sight of him.

And last, but not least, Buck is his own shadow. He cannot be whole if he does not confront it, acknowledge it, and moves past it. He cannot pretend to ignore his traumas, insecurities, childhood, and expect a different result. He cannot accept his own self worth without looking into himself and finding validation by himself despite, in spite, of his shadow.

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How did I miss that we weren’t getting 911 tonight? I’m devastated that I have to wait until next week.

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Random thoughts on 6x04

So yeah, I watched the episode by now. A lot of interesting stuff going on there. Though it will take some time for my heart to mend about the fact that I did not get rewarded with even a wee bit of whump from the car chase for Buck! I wanted it! So bad! :D

Anyway, here's my not at all coherent ramblings for now:

Buck and Hen parallels my beloved

I am really intrigued by the writers paralleling Buck and Hen in their arcs of self-realization (and realizing what they want out of their lives). Buck wanting to say “yes” to possibility, whereas Hen struggles to say “no” to responsibility. And I have a feeling that's gonna come bite them both on the ass.

With Karen and Denny potentially in danger in the near future... I guess Hen's path will be the realization that she may want to be a doctor, but that she wants and needs her family (and the firefighter job) more than she'd ever want the white coat.

And I think Buck's in for some (bad) surprises about his saying "yes" as well. I'm not entirely sure about what route they are going to take with the sperm donation (more of that later), but this is not finished yet.

I loved the two hanging out. We haven't seen that in such a long time. And they are the most adorable drunk people. I won't ever be over how cute Buck is when he leans his head down to pour the drinks. 💖

What we got to see were two people following their instincts, and believing it to be the right choice. Hen decides that her instinct was right to pursue a career as a doctor. And she's going for it with the second chance at the exam. Buck decides that his instinct is right to want to help people who know what they want, even though he may not at this point.

What struck me was the lack of conversation with their significant others regarding those life-changing decisions they made that very episode. For Hen, that's Karen, and I think that's a fight about to come. And for Buck... yup, Eddie. Even if I don't put the Buddie goggles on, Buck normally talks to Eddie about those things. So I found it almost glaring that he came to the conclusion without consulting him first. While I think it will be different from Karen's reaction regarding Hen's decision, I can see that the parallels will continue to be strong. And telling. Coz yeah, I got the Buddie goggles and I ain't taking them off for long.

Fatherhood in the Diaz household

I love where they are going with this. And KUDOS for following up on Ramon trying to be more there in Eddie's life, standing by his promise to build a better relationship with his son. I loved to see Eddie genuinely seeking advice and Roman opening up more, being a father for him, and taking the time. Which in turn enabled Eddie to be a better father to Christopher.

It's great to see how breaking vicious cycles in a family structure may not fix the past, but still enables everyone to move forward. It's great to see Ramon owning up to the mistakes he made in his parenting, and showing genuine regret of having forced Eddie to grow up faster than he maybe had to. I think it will help Eddie a great deal, not just as a father himself, but as a son, as a person.

Also, I loved Ramon pointing out the cold shoulder thing to Eddie, and how he perfected it. Because it hints at Ramon, despite being away that much and having made mistakes in being Eddie's father, still always looked at Eddie and seemed to know (or at least seems to now understand) where that was coming from.

I really hope we see more of that. It seems to have such a healing power on Eddie (and boi deserves it). But yeah, that means Eddie will have to figure out what to do with his free time now. Which could prove… very interesting.

Having to let go and embracing change

The episode had a large focus on people having to let go. Athena having to let go of her son and her parents to return to an “empty nest”. Bobby also realizing how empty the house feels without the usual buzz of life in it.

Eddie has to learn to let go of Christopher to enable him to become his own person and let him trust his instincts, instead of only relying on his own parental instincts.

Hen struggles with deciding on what to let go, juggling firefighting, her family, and becoming a doctor.

Buck potentially having to let go of a life he'd help create, Buck embracing changes to happen in an effort to follow the book and say “yes” to opportunity.

It's interesting to me how each of them took a different approach to deal with that:

Bobby lets go of the feeling of an empty house, embracing his wife again. And by adopting a dog. Which is to say that he embraces something new to take responsibility for, and step into a different role than that of a father figure. So I'm interested to see how that's going to go in the future.

Eddie learns that he has to let Christopher go, but he sets boundaries for it and has an honest conversation with Christopher about it. What I think remains the open question is how he will decide to fill that “void”. Because Eddie has largely defined himself as a firefighter and single dad exclusively. So he will have to take a hard look at himself and realize what his hobbies are, what his wishes are, who he is without those two defining factors of his personality. What he is outside the functions he serves (and yeah, Buck parallels much).

Hen decides not to let go of either and still believes herself capable of occupying all three spaces. And I do believe that is very likely to come crashing down. Because no, it's not just the year of hell. Working as a doctor will put her through that all the time. And while she feels like her life is incomplete without this, I also believe that the upshot of her season's arc is going to be about setting priorities and finding better ways. Which is to say: I think she will decide for her family (including the firefam). And I think she'll have to let go of becoming a doctor. But I also believe that she will discover something else (and potentially better) in the future. What that is… I'm not sure about. But I can see it going this direction. That Hen will find that she needs to make a difference not in a hospital but out in the field, and then go home to be with her family – and be content with that.

Buck's arc remains somewhat mysterious to me at this point. I'm very indecisive on what the outcome is going to be of the sperm donor arc. It might be that we will come to the conclusion that he will go through with it, and that it will be good. But I also believe it's not the end just yet. Because that whole scene felt way too much like Buck telling Taylor to move in with him. Because Buck wants to do what's right (he wants to live by what Connor chose him for, being a good person, hmmmmm). What stands is that I think this is not over and dealt with. Buck maybe having considered the repercussions of being a donor vs. being a dad doesn't necessitate that it will turn out to be the final decision. But again, more of that later. What I will say in that regard: Buck wants to embrace change, but he has no clue what to change (about himself). He keeps misunderstanding the assignment, I believe.

Buck and fear

Buck's brought it up repeatedly that he is afraid this season, when it comes to his personal life. He talked to Hen about the AA book and how he believes acting accordingly can have you not be afraid anymore. He talks about being afraid of picking the wrong couch (metaphor for making what he believes is the next mistake after his relationship with Taylor went down the drain). Now he talked to Maddie about what he read in the book, about how we do the same things over and over, the things that don't scare us. Buck's takeaway from that is his “say yes” mentality. To overcome that fear and discover something greater (the path to happiness).

What keeps striking me is how often he openly admits to being afraid. Maybe it's a warning sign (because yeah, this fangirl still believes in Buck Breakdown Era Incoming). Buck is saying this whole time “I am scared”, and he tries to find ways on his own to not be afraid anymore.

We see him modeling his behavior after other people a lot, and now he's also going for those self-help books. But we also see him a lot in his own head this season. Most prominently this episode, he completely zoned out. He sat as far away from Chim, Hen, and Eddie, as he possibly could. Sure, it was also to highlight just how caught off-guard he was by Connor's request. But again, I can't shake the feeling that Buck is getting way too much into his head in an effort to find his answers, which results in him closing off to his friends. Despite Chim insisting that Buck always overshares.

Which is to say: It's good that he does some introspection. Because yes, he has to take a good look at what he wants out of his life that is outside doing his job. Buck gained a clearer view last season of what he doesn't want out of a relationship. Now he wants to figure out how to be happy (because, deep down, he feels like his life is not complete as it is – as he said to Maddie in season 4, he doesn't just want to be good, he wants to be better). Again, which is good.

BUT. Last time we saw him zoning out like that was when Chim went after Maddie. When he thought the whole team hated his guts for Chim leaving. And last time, he got immediately snapped out of it by his family (particularly Eddie looking like the proudest husband to tell him he was not going anywhere).

But now it feels like Buck is swallowing down whatever fears it might give him, considering the consequences of a sperm donation to Connor and his wife. Because he wants to be a good person. He genuinely wants to help those people. And while Hen cautioned him towards the consequences it might have on him, it seems to override any sense of self-preservation for Buck as things currently stand. He doesn't want to be afraid of this. Because it could turn out to be a great thing. You know, embrace change.

But. It might just as well not. For him, at least. And that could be very devastating for him.

Buck saying yes and winning – for now

As I said, I still feel a bit robbed that we didn't even get a scrape on that pretty face during the car chase. Be it as it may, I'm actually still very intrigued by that. Because Buck has been very daring in his pursuit to save Chimney. The car stopped mere inches from him. And it may not have. Buck said “yes” to the possibility of saving Chimney by intercepting the car. And he “won”. He got the car to stop. And you can see how happy he is.

But. It was dumb luck. The guy may have run him over. That could have happened all the same. Buck said “yes” to helping Chimney, to trying to save a life, while putting his on the line. Arguably unnecessarily. Because there may have been other ways by the police to stop the car. It didn't take Buck on the bike. It wasn't a last ditch effort.

Which has me think that this is still gonna bite him on the ass. Buck was reckless, and he was “rewarded” with having saved Chimney. He was proven right to be unafraid (for his own person) and just chance it. Which can save a best friend's life, yes, but it could have been a massive disaster, should the driver have hit him.

So, I don't think that Buck's gonna be hit by another car, but I do believe that we might see this behavior coming back in full swing. Because Buck feels validated right now, to take those chances. And that may not amount to anything good. Except for me, because that means I shall be fed the whump. :3

The little swimmers that keep on swimming

Now, let's talk about sperm (and let's not think about all those cumslut!Buck jokes that are in TIMEOUT right now).

First things first: Until proven otherwise, Connor and Buck definitely fucked.

Second of all… oh my. As I said, I'm seriously unsure on the road they wanna head with this narrative, but… It has me concerned. A lot.

While Connor later on apologized and owned up to it being… not the best way of going about such a request… it was jarring that this was how Buck's first jump on opportunity turned out. Because Connor turned to him not to reconnect with Buck because he wanted to spend time with Buck. He reconnected with him with a very specific purpose in mind.

Again, I am not saying that is something unkind of him and he later on clarifies that, for him, Buck as a donor is the thing because he believes in the good of Buck's character (and not just his physicality as a potential donor).

But. It's jarring that Buck's first encounter with an old friend comes back to him serving a function that is outside himself. Connor didn't want to meet with Buck because of Buck. But because of his and his wife's wish to have a child. They wanted to meet Buck for themselves.

And I guess you can see where I'm going with this. For Buck, that might have felt a lot like it was with his parents. Because they wanted him for another purpose than himself, too. Buck, yet again (although vastly different in its premise, and I'm not putting Connor and his wife on the same level as the Buckley parents because they leave Buck the choice), is wanted not for himself but for the purpose he can serve to others. To save lives. To help people have the life they wanted.

While Connor makes it clear that they went to him because he believes in Buck's innate goodness and is genuine in his appreciation for him as a person, I think this might inspire some potentially harmful behaviors in Buck. And no, the donation doesn't necessarily have to be one of them. It can turn out to be the right thing. But right now, I believe Buck is doing it for the wrong reasons.

Because he does it to help them live their dream, because they have it all figured out and “earned it”, whereas Buck feels like fatherhood is something unattainable for him because he hasn't figured himself out yet.

Which is not to say that I think the right conclusion for him would be to go find himself someone to have a baby with. But what I see is Buck seeking validation and wanting to partake in something "greater" (Connor's future with all the things Buck still idealizes as the things you'd want out of life). Even if that means he won't actually take part in it. And Buck goes for it. Because Connor told him that he is a good person. And Buck feels honored and validated by that. A good person would do that for two people in need, right? Right? This could turn out to be great. Right?

Right.

Again, it might. But I feel like Buck is just trying to convince himself that helping them is what he wants. Or rather, no, he is sure that he wants to help them (because that is who Buck inherently is), but I think he remains blindsided to the fact that there might be other ways to help them than with a donation. And that might be just the twist.

Now. Where will this conclude? I am honestly not sure. Right now, I can see 3 options for how this may play out.

Option 1: Buck sticks by the decision, and it turns out to be the right choice once he does it for the right reasons

Again, I can see this happening. The show makes a huge deal out of unconventional family constellations. And that might be just one of those things they want to address.

The conclusion could well be that Buck comes to the realization that he is indeed not the father to that child and is fine with it, having realized that he has a family (not by blood aside from Maddie) that makes him fully content.

In this case, I still think we will see Buck struggle more with the decision. And I firmly believe he still needs to talk to Eddie about that. Because there is still that thing about the will that I believe is closely interlinked with this arc and its conclusion.

Further down the road, we might see that bittersweet moment of Buck hanging a picture of the family on his fridge and being content with what he got. Bonus points if that involves him looking at Eddie and Christopher on his new couch. ;)

Option 2: Buck wants to want this, only for circumstance preventing him from it, fueling his feelings of inadequacy

Maybe Buck's family medical history will come back here, with Daniel having had juvenile leukemia. And that this might disqualify him from donation.

If that's the road they are going to take, that would definitely be material for Buck Breakdown Era. It brings us right back to “defective parts”, “spare parts”, and “design flaws”. Buck would feel immensely guilty for having gotten Connor's and his wife's hopes up, only to let them down. For his body to let them down. For his body being defective, not good enough.

There is a whole lot to be said about Buck and bodily autonomy, and I guess that would be a long-ass post of its own, but suffice to say: That would fit right into that ongoing issue of Buck's complicated relationship with his own body and taking ownership of it.

Buck feeling like he finally found a good answer as to what he wants to do with his life (helping others), only for his body to prevent him from living up to what Connor said, namely that he is a good person... oh, the angst, the drama.

In that scenario, I find it very likely we would see him more self-deprecating, putting himself in danger (like he did as a kid, getting hurt, just that this time, he is punishing the body that is betraying what he believes his true purpose to be).

In that case, that would be ample opportunity to bring in the will as well. And maybe I'd get fed at long last in this scenario, with Eddie fussing over Buck having pulled something reckless. Only to remind him that he already has a family, that he has Christopher and him, so he doesn't get to do that anymore. *angrily worried husband mode activated*

Followed by: Buddie Nation for the Win. :) Because that scenario would have Buck realize that he has a family, and that he doesn't need to prove his worth to them in any capacity. That for people like Eddie, he is enough as is, body and soul.

Option 3: Buck changes his mind and decides against the donation, though he will find some other means to help Connor and his wife

That would be more on the narrative level of “Buck finally understands the assignment in that saying 'no' too often never was the issue”. Which is to say: I genuinely believe Buck's problem has never been saying “no” to opportunities. He said “yes” to a relationship that didn't work for him, too. I think Buck says “no” not nearly as often as he maybe even should. And that might just be the upshot.

Buck said “no” to rekindling a loveless relationship last season (parallel to Eddie much). That gave him a clearer understanding of what he wants out of a relationship. Right now, he just strikes me as unsure of what to do with that knowledge and how to fit that into the larger question of what he wants out of his life entirely, and not just a relationship. So a next organic step for his character progression would be to say “no” to a kind of “parenthood” that isn't suited for him, even though it suits his character (i.e. he is helpful and kind and a genuinely good person).

The upshot could be that Buck has to say “no” to something that is inherently good. With Taylor, he took his time to say “no” to something that had them both stuck and wasn't good for either one. This time, it'd be about him saying “no” to something that would maybe even be morally good, but would go against what he wants.

So that again would mean he'd gain a clearer understanding of what he wants out of his life, and that this runs contrary to being a sperm donor, no matter how much he wants to help them have that baby.

Yet again, none of those scenarios can do without a discussion with Eddie and about the will, in my humble opinion. Because Buck is now confronted with the question of what he wants his “parenthood” to look like in the future. And maybe the realization is not just going to be that he doesn't want to be a sperm donor for a child whose life he won't be a part of. But that he doesn't *just* want to be Christopher's legal guardian either, in the event that something should happen to Eddie. That Buck wants more. And that he is good enough for asking for that more.

Maybe, the grand realization Buck is about to have is that he wants more of what he already got. That he doesn't need a biological child for that, but that he needs to be part of Eddie's and Christopher's life to truly find happiness. But that it isn't just as “Uncle Buck”, not just “not a guest”, but as that significant person to both Eddie and Christopher.

In conclusion

So yeah, I am absolutely unsure where they are headed with all this. But all of it could be a wonderful opening for Buck and Eddie realizing what they want out of their lives – and that having a lot to do with who they want to spend most time with in their lives.

Eddie has to realize who he is outside being a father and a firefighter. He has to figure out and reconnect with himself, very likely, which feeds into the primary question of “what do you want for yourself?”. And that is the same question that's on the plate for Buck.

And I remain convinced that the answer for them is basically the same thing: They want each other. They want more of each other in their shared lives. Buck wants to be more than a sperm donor/legal guardian and finds it with Eddie and Chris. And Eddie wants something for himself (a relationship that is fulfilling and not just surface level), and you guess who's that for him, right?

Anyway. I guess there's more to say, more to think. But those are my ramblings for the moment.

*rides away*

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Listen, I know they only played Bicycle by Queen because Buck was chasing after a drunk driver who kidnapped Chimney on a bike. HOWEVER! I am taking it as confirmation of bi!Buck

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I’m being just nuts now but go with me for two seconds…..Chimney tells the drunk, injured driver that everyone is driven by 4 basic animal instincts and he lists: fight, flight, feed, and fornicate. How interesting that we have seen he and Maddie go through all of these twice now, and we’ve seen Buck and Eddie go through this before and are still going through just bouncing between fight, flight, and feed but have just not completed the final task. Season sex is upon us I feel it! 🤡 I’ll just be here going insane as always over this show.

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Just a thought but what if Buck is infertile just like the old roommate but what I’m thinking is it parallels Karen not being able to have any kids. Am I just clowning? Yes. But also what if? Buck feels like he was asked to be spare parts. This time,at least, he’s able to give consent, which by the way, something about his parents using him like that in a way that possibly could’ve put him at risk even before he could remember anything really has never sat well with me and will be the reason I never forgive them, because medical procedures are dangerous and there are always risks! So back to my point before I waffled on, and trust I will continue to waffle on, very sorry, but for buck to once again have those spare parts be defective now has me spiraling. Maybe Buck gets a scene with Karen after the upcoming lab explosion and imparts what she learned about what it means to be a parent with all of your heart and it “be enough” to fulfill and sustain you even if that child isn’t biologically yours. Buck is smart but he’s also extremely dense, like the general audience, and he, like the general audience, will need multiple reasons and viewpoints to awaken to what is right in front of him, them, and us. I hope this is coherent enough. I had one of those moments where I had to just vomit this out so I didn’t forget what I was thinking/obsessing about. Maybe in a day or two I’ll write a more detailed and thought out version of this. I’m trying to be more present here because I’ve been lurking for too long just being an observer and I love this community and the wild and amazing discussion we get to have about our favorite first responders in 911 and especially those Firefighting Husbands™️. Lol.

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This show got me rolling hysterically right now! They about to overfeed but keep the courses coming! Haha.

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Okay so I’m just now about to begin “Animal Instincts”. And the thumbnail of the episode on Hulu is of EXASPERATED EDDIE! I already can tell I’m not going to be able to handle this episode. 🤡. 

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I tell ya I’m in agony waiting for Monday nights 911 episode. I’m also having difficulty deciding on which episode to watch before absolutely trying to get some sleep and I just can’t decide. I just want Buddie!!!!!!!

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I feel this absolutely!

EDDIE SHOUTING AFTER BUCK AND HE LOOKED PANICKED HELP ME I HAVE FALLEN I CAN'T WAIT A WHOLE WEEK

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9-1-1 6x02 review - If you haven’t watched don’t read.

This episode as Hen and Buck heavy, and I will focus on the firehouse, the calls, what it could mean for our couples, henren and buddie.

Keep reading

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Coworker Linda Update 6.02

So Linda literally could not stop talking about Oliver’s comment on Ryan’s sexy photo. She apparently follows them on IG now and is very interested in what’s going on with them 😂 She texted me this morning, “What does 4 exclamation points mean??? They fucked??” Hahaha I love her I do!!

Her thoughts on the episode!!

“Ok that tunnel cheating scandal was a little suspicious to me. Now I’m no smart cookie, but I’m thinking, isn’t it weird that they were using a tunnel that was in a closet to have an affair? Something about it being IN A CLOSET??? Almost as if it’s foreshadowing someone coming out of a closet perhaps??? Idk the way the camera kept zooming in on Eddie the entire scene made me think it’ll be him coming out of the closet. If not Eddie then why bring up being buried AND being shot in the shoulder? His wife asked for a divorce too so he also had a marriage that ended. Yeah no I’m so convinced it’s all a set up to Eddie coming out or something. If I’m wrong you all can tell me to shut up. But now that I’m thinking about this, it makes sense!!! Oh this is going to be magnificent!!!”

“Buckster helps the shot guy who’s been buried?? Now where have we seen this before hmmm? Do they think I’m stupid? Clearly I’m not because it’s all fucking right there. They’re making it so obvious!!”

“Don’t think I didn’t notice the quick look they shared in the beginning. That’s married shit. No other words.”

“Awwww them standing with their arms crossed!!! They look so cute. They actually look like a couple. Also so beefy and muscular! I’m torn about wanting them to pick me up or pick each other up. Gosh it was getting so hot for me watching their arms in that scene.”

“The cute popcorn scene. Poor Hen she really is going through a lot. But did you see how cute they were in the background?? I kinda just wanna see them kiss already. The sexual tension is killing me.”—LINDA IT’S KILLING ALL OF USSSS.

“Oh Buckster. Oh my baby, he is going to crack like a glow stick isn’t he. I will say I’m not that emotional but his acting made me weep. Buckster is going to breakdown HARD. Now idk about you but I’m willing to bet anything that Eddie is going to be there for him exactly how he was there for Eddie. They’re going to slowly but surely fall in love. I’m almost certain of that!!! This is how we get, what do you all call them? Buddie?? Yes we’re getting Buddie. I’m with the cool kids now!”

“ OK did you see the way Eddie nodded his head towards Buck. You cannot tell me he’s not worried sick about his husband. Even the way he said ‘Fair enough’. That was his little heart breaking because he wanted to comfort Buck but didn’t know how to do that with the others there! Ouch my heart hurts. I hope he gets to hold him tightly later on this season.”

“That Buck and Hen scene made me cry. He’s struggling to find true happiness because I don’t think he’s ever known it? And of course that scares him. I wanna shake him and tell him that he has people who love him. People who are his family. But I guess he needs to figure this out himself. Oh it’ll be sweet victory when he finds out he’s the most happy and at ease with Eddie and Chris.” 🥹

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I just have to say that 911 makes me nuts. It’s all I think about. I literally am constantly thinking about those not married yet firefighting husbands! 

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anybody else munching over that ‘there is a drought’ at the very beginning of the episode and buck’s convictions about life steps being turned upside down? something something the water is retreating. something something a tsunami is coming.

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So I have a lot of thoughts on the 6x02 promo and I wanted to get all my speculations out of my system before tomorrow. 👀

In the promo we can decipher 2 victims, the older man and the kid.

From what I could gather Hen will be working on the kid, I'm assuming with Chimney, because we can see and match the older man's shirt color to the one Buck is doing compressions on.

This took me back to Buck Actually (2x08) when he tried to save Thomas but couldn't, back then Bobby and Eddie were with him, I'm guessing Eddie will be with him here now and maybe Captain Hen will be the one to stop the compressions, maybe Eddie himself.

But here we see Buck's hands with the gloves and a black gloved hand checking for pulse. This is imo Eddie. If only because both Hen and Chimney being paramedics and will probably be wearing blue gloves too.

And as the promo shows, Buck loses a victim, we can see it on his face and it's indicated by Hen's talk with him later.

I believe that Eddie’s crossing, is either because they lose the kid, or more likely in response to Buck’s own grief over the older man. (I'm working on a post talking about Eddie and the crossing, because it showed on different occasions, I'm intrigued.)

I wonder if Hen's talk comes before Chimney's abduction or after. If before then, while appreciated it will not have the desired impact. Because we see this,

And Buck is standing right there and it sounds like he's going to be hit by the car, and yet we get this still, where I wonder if someone stopped the car, if it swerved around him? Or are the police cars so close that we see the blue reflected on Buck’s face right as he braces for impact.

I will say this though, if Eddie witnesses all of this, he will be pissed, and he has learned to express his emotions better, I do hope we're in for another heart wrenching/tender buddie moment 🥺❤️🙏