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I used to be imtherealspidermanactually but I made a new account. (Also changed my name and pronouns I now go by madalyn/mady (my birth name) and they/she ANYWAYS)

Im so sorry that that person ditched you. They obviously weren't a good person or cared about you if they can ditch you that easily. Please don't harm yourself. I don't know if you are clean or not but if you are you are doing an amazing job and shouldn't relapse just because of that person's shifty actions. You do have other people that care for you, that TRUELY care.

thank you so much mady 😭😭 you don't owe anybody an apology, so please don't waste it on me <3 I've been clean ever since I met him, he got me out of a shithole. He put me back into one. I wish I could say I didn't do it, but it's just become hard to control lately. Aside from that, I'm doing pretty good. Again, please take care of yourself <3 you're a wonderful person.

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reee it won't let me send images but *hugs you*

AAGJSHSG THANK YOU 😭😭 I need that <3

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anyways hi fellas how are you

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i hate my first post in a while being a vent but it's still on my mind and I genuinely don't know why it happened.

SH mention, aside from that nothing triggering, just a small rant

I won't @ him purely for safety but he was my online brother for quite a while and then I introduced him to who is now his partner and he's never said a single word to me since.

I don't need an explanation but one would make me happy. He met the new love of his life, and his love of his life was my friend, but all of a sudden they hate me and apparently tell him not to talk to me. I guess that explains it and I might be overreacting but I don't know.

It makes me want to SH again, knowing that I messed up and lost the best person I've ever met. Again. Because of my personality. It's my fault.

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ITS OAY

I FORGOR TO VISIOT YOU AUDUFB BASICALLY IM BACK ASIN I DIDNT DIE ARE YOU PRORUD 😭

THIS IS FROM THE 14TH- I DIDN'T SEE THIS, I'M SO SORRY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

BUT YES I'M VERY PROUD OF YOU!

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Keep the flame going for those we have lost to suicide. 

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urgrrrg I'm so tired rn

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I FUCKING LOVE RIO ROMEOOOOOOOO

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i am so tired omg I literally did nothing all day

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wondering if I should chop more hair

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IM SCREAMING MY GRANDMA JUST ATE A FOOD THING AND SHE SAID

" [ name ] THIS IS THE BOMB."

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I AM OFFICIALLY THE RANBOO OF EVERYTHING EVER

ALSO I GOT A DINOSAUR THING OFF AMAZON AND I CUT MY HAIR AND AND AND AND eheuehwudh ILL SHOW YOU I THINK AT SOME POINT

HEY HEY HEY HEY IM TALLLER THAN YOU NOW I THINK

(5'5)

:3 ALSO I MISSED YOU PAL

WHAT THE FUCK HOW WERENY YOU JUST LIKE 4’7

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I CAN GROW IN A YEAR PAL !!!!!!

HEY HEY HEY HEY IM TALLLER THAN YOU NOW I THINK

(5'5)

:3 ALSO I MISSED YOU PAL

WHAT THE FUCK HOW WERENY YOU JUST LIKE 4’7

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YIPPIE

HOLY SHITBALLS IM CRYINF YIPPEEEE 😭😭

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I'd care if the person I reblogged this from committed suicide.

Reblog this from anybody. literally. ANYBODY. even if you dont like them or even know them that well. YOU COULD SAVE THEIR LIFE.

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I often wonder how my main account is

like it's probably all dusty and dirty bc I haven't been able to log back in

IMAGINE THE FUCKING MESSAGES

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THINGS I CANT RESPOND TO

I am still devastated