This is Choi Seung Hyun (T.O.P’s real name).
First of all, I want to apologize with all my heart for disappointing many and causing a controversy through my fault.
I am too embarassed of myself even to apologize in person… I do not have an excuses and I have many regrets. I am now cautiously writing while I am afraid of everything…
I believe I should be rightly punished for hurting the members, the label, the public, the fans who cherished me, and my family in a way that cannot be fixed. My heart hurts, and I am very disappointed in myself.
I will look back on myself thousands of times and reflect and reflect and think on my actions…
I will not make the same irresponsible mistakes again.
I apologize once again for not being able to go apologize personally one on one to everyone, and I will reflect more deeply.
all i want is lemony snicket to narrate my life but honestly it would just be like ‘today she laid in bed all day. here the phrase ‘all day’ means all goddamn week’