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CHRIS  CHAMBERS  WAS  TWELVE  WHEN  HE  SAID  ALL  THAT  TO  ME. but  while  he  was  saying  it  his  face  crumpled  &  folded  into  something  𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐞𝐫,  𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐭,  𝒂𝒈𝒆𝒍𝒆𝒔𝒔.  he  spoke  tonelessly,  colourlessly,  but  nevertheless,  what  he  said  struck  terror  into  my  bowels.  it  was  as  if  he  had  lived  that  whole  life  already  -  that  life  where  they  tell  you  to  step  right  up  &  spin  the  wheel  of  fortune,  &  it  spins  so  pretty  &  the  guy  steps  on  a  pedal  &  it  comes  up  double  zeros,  house  number,  everybody  loses.  they  give  you  a  free pass  &  then  turn  on  the  rain  machine,  pretty  funny,  huh,  ᴀ  ᴊᴏᴋᴇ  ᴇᴠᴇɴ  ᴠᴇʀɴ  ᴛᴇssɪᴏ  ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅ  ᴀᴘᴘʀᴇᴄɪᴀᴛᴇ.

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so  i  uh  ,  genuinely  momentarily  forgot  the  log  in  for  this  blog.  anyway  !  hi.  i’m  just  trying  to  gauge  who  is  still  interested  in  interacting  w  me  bc  i’m  considering  either  archiving  &  remaking,  or  just  like  .  continuing  on  like  normal.  ik  a  lot  of  my  followers  are  probs  supes  old  bc  this  blog  is  going  on  5  years  now,  so  ,,,  yeah.  just  wanna  know  who  is  still  interested  in  interacting  :)

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so  i  uh  ,  genuinely  momentarily  forgot  the  log  in  for  this  blog.  anyway  !  hi.  i’m  just  trying  to  gauge  who  is  still  interested  in  interacting  w  me  bc  i’m  considering  either  archiving  &  remaking,  or  just  like  .  continuing  on  like  normal.  ik  a  lot  of  my  followers  are  probs  supes  old  bc  this  blog  is  going  on  5  years  now,  so  ,,,  yeah.  just  wanna  know  who  is  still  interested  in  interacting  :)

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Brendon Burton

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That’s bad. Why? Because I could fall in love with you.

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*coughs up blood* i mean im pretty chill you know nothing really gets to me and

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i  think  a  lot  about  how  chris  came  from  this  horrifically  abusive  family  where  his  father  was  an  abusive  drunk,  his  eldest  brother  was  in  jail  for  attempted  r*pe,  his  elder  brother  abused  him,  &  his  mother  frequently  abandoned  her  kids  to  save  herself  ——–  but  despite  all  that,  he’s  constantly  said  to  be  the  group’s  peacemaker,  &  the  embodiment  of  sunshine,  &  warm  &  bright  &  magnetic,  &  wholly  selfless,  even  to  the  point  of  anger  if  he  thinks  you’re  wasting  your  potential.  for  someone  to  flourish  like  that  &  keep  that  gentleness  &  that  kindness  despite  growing  in  such  tainted  soil  .  .  .  idk  i  just  think  about  this  a  lot

#like no matter the family he grew up in  #he'd be warm and loving  #but to be that way even when your family AND THE ENTIRE TOWN is telling you you CAN'T be that way ....  #idk it just Says Something about the strength of his character u know ??  #he never even had a go at teddy for romanticising the man who nearly killed [ teddy ]  #nor did he ever have a go at teddy romanticising the very thing that gave [ teddy's dad ] ptsd  #he just let teddy .... love his father and the *rmy ... and the only time chris said anything bad about it  #was a warning about teddy not being able to get into the army if  #he had a criminal record  #idk i just think a lot about how much he cares for other people  #and how no one IN SK CANON shows him that back  #NO ONE  #not even GORDON

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i  deleted  all  my  0-note  posts  bc  i  realised  how  annoying  i  am  lmao

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i think i’m going to become an unreliable narrator. if you see me obscuring the full truth or saying things that directly contradict each other, don’t worry about it.

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Strawberry Shortcakes 2006 ‘ストロベリーショートケイクス’ Directed by Hitoshi Yazaki

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𝐜𝐚𝐦 𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐨𝐰𝐢𝐜𝐳

❛   you   want   me   to   convince   you   i’m   not   a   what?   ❜  

@bulltrue·   ⇾   christopher   chambers .  

❛     a  werewolf.     ❜  absolute  sincerity  in  his  tone,  a  hold-over  from  younger  days,  or  perhaps  he’s  just  too  burned  out  to  consider  the  ridiculousness  of  the  query.  if  ghosts  can  be  real,  why  not  werewolves  ?  he  shrugs,  unabashed.  ❛     you’ve  been  actin’  a  little  different  &  i  thought  maybe  could  be  a  possibility.  y’know,  full  moon  soon  an’  all.     ❜  she’s  seemed  more  tired,  &  every  pop  culture  reference  he’s  heard  about  lycanthropy  point  out  a  sluggishness  leading  up  to  &  after  the  changing  period.  IT’S  NOT  THAT  FAR-FETCHED  A  HYPOTHESIS,  REALLY.  ❛     just  figured  i’d  ask  the  blunt  question  in  case  it  was  the  right  one.     ❜

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Three Billboards Outside Ebbing, Missouri (2017, dir. Martin McDonagh)

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musingmemes​:

a historical / fantasy / period / medieval friendly character survey.

reblog and bold your muses preference.

roses / cherry blossoms / orchids / tulips

winter / summer / autumn / spring

thunderstorms / sunshine / snow 

indoors / outdoors

meat / fruit / sweets

extravagance / traditionalism / minimalism

god fearing / non god fearing

cats / dogs / horses / birds

sunrise / sunset

day time / night time

fire / earth / water / wind 

reading / writing

rising early / sleeping late 

wine / ale / neither

fur  (  faux  ) / silk / satin / lace 

rubies / pearls / sapphires 

horse back / walking / carriages 

love / power

having company / being alone 

lakes / rivers / oceans 

knife / sword / bow / poison 

gold / silver 

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River Phoenix and Martha Plimpton in Running on Empty (1988)

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she spins   ,    startled by the sudden touch ,  swallowing the scream she threatened to let loose   ,   mouth gaping open like a fish out of water  .   disgusted by her own first thoughts   ,    god  ,   in public  ?   looking back she waves to her waiting friends  ,   who both looked entertained with the situation and with the questions they were sure to ask          they started off  ,   informing her they’d be waiting at the diner down the road and added   ,   to hurry  .(  but the loud laughter that erupted from them made her ears burn  .  ) 

     ‘   thanks … ’   chris  ,  just call him chris  !  she told herself .  but more and more people were walking from school …  looking at them  ,    she took the book quickly from him  ,  holding it to her chest           she doesn’t look at him  ,   ‘   thanks  ,  chambers  .  ’  

cheeks  burn,  pink  spots  bright.  why  did  it  have  to  be  her  ?  unbidden  memories  of  a  long-ago  summer  resurface,  &  he  pushes  them  down  with  great  effort.  CATHY  HAS  MADE  HER  STANCE  ON  THEM  CLEAR  :  THEY  ARE  NOT,  NOR  WILL  THEY  EVER,  BE  ANYTHING.  not  friends,  not  anything.  dropped  him  like  a  disease,  &  sometimes,  he  doesn’t  really  blame  her.  (  doesn’t  mean  it  hurts  any  less  ).  a  barb  through  his  heart  every  time  she  says  his  name  -  he’d  been  chris  to  her,  once.  when  they’d  been  friends.  hard  to  believe  that  had  been  anything  more  than  a fever  dream,  these  days  ;  not  with  the  venom  with  which  she  imbues  his  surname.  chambers.  it  says  so  much  without  really  saying  anything  at  all. 

❛     (  .  .  .  )  yeah.  welcome.     ❜  he  replies,  cigarette  newly  clamped  between  his  teeth.  composure  regained,  a  good  deed  accomplished.  let  her  fuck  off  back  to  her  friends  &  giggle  over  the  audacity  of  him  being  a  GOOD  SAMARITAN.  fine.  whatever.   ❛     just  didn’t  want  anyone  gettin’  in  trouble  with  mister  burchill.     ❜  maybe  next  time  he’ll  let  her  get  in  trouble.  (  but  he  won’t.  he  could  never.  not  on  purpose  ).