burnerthoughts

[burnerthoughts]

i can’t escape you

we know we’re no good for each other so why do we keep finding our way back

sometimes we do well.

sometimes we’re strangers for weeks, months, our best was a year or two

but god i just can’t escape you

and you can’t escape me too

[burnerthoughts]

i keep comparing him to you

tonight he told me he loves me

he’s everything i wish you were

he says everything i wish you said and he does everything i wish you did

but he’s not you. he’ll never be you.

and i don’t think i can ever love someone if that someone isn’t you

i want to want him but god i need you

i wish you needed me too

[burnerthoughts]

my favourite memory of ours is a short one. it’s a handful of words you said to me the very first day we met

“i feel like i’ve known you my whole life.”

i didn’t say it then, but i felt the same way

you probably don’t remember saying those words to me

and we don’t know each other anymore

but if one day you and i reconnect, i think it’ll feel like our last conversation was only yesterday

u are definitely a forever type of thing

and i’ll search for you in every person i meet

whether i like it or not

[burnerthoughts]

we couldn’t remember what life was like before we found each other

all the times i told you i don’t know what i’d do without you here

you were so thankful for me

and i’m so good at adapting

back then i’d not be able to go a day w/out you

now, present day, i’m doing it just fine

or maybe i’m not. maybe i’m horrible at this

i wonder what you’re doing

are you thinking of me?

do i linger? does it haunt you?

[burnerthoughts]

i’m excited for all my experiences leading up to my demise

but nothing excites me more than my final moment of this life

i cannot wait for eternal peace

to me, death is like a supernova

a beautiful end