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Strong Together

I might be the blessed one, the epitome of perfection and yet I find myself weak and powerless in front of your twisted hate.

How did it come to this, how did I come to be this addicted to your lack of humanity. It’s true I guess, maybe I have just one weakness.

So let us curse each other to our heart’s content, let us prove to the world how love is the most dangerous curse there is.

I don’t know what to do, stop you from leaving or stab you in the back ?

My weakness ? I did neither. I hate you too much to stop you and love you enough to not stab you in the back.

- The Purple to your Twister.

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Uzumaki

My hate is like a hurricane, twisted and vile. Few are deserving of the blessing that is my hate.

The world did not turn its back on me, I took the world by its throat and forced it to acknowledge me.

I am your curse brought to life, your fears made flesh and blood, I am your reckoning.

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Hollow Purple

My absolution lies in my ability to not give a crap, In being absolutely indifferent to your suffering once you scorn me.

I’m the emergence, the blessed one. I’m the one to shake the very foundations of existence, I am eternity. Like a paradox, I attract and repel.

I’m better off broken because when put together, I will erase everything in my path. Like red and blue, the purple of your nightmare, hollow and divine.

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Facts that make me happy:

I always survive, through moments, memories and situations. I always come out alive, albeit scarred.

Probability has put a hit out on me, things always seem to even out for me. Better things show up the instant something bad happens. I am a human karma stamp.

I am Proud of the fact that my happiness is only mine to control. I don’t let anyone have the power over affecting my happiness and peace.

Let’s face it, I’ll always survive no matter what. I’m far from perfect but I am always competing.

A life of distrust has made me able to predict all situations where I might possibly be at a loss and if there exists such a situation, I have already lived it and learnt from it.

I revel in burning bridges and letting people go. I know eventually I’ll attract the right ones and lately I feel I have. So hear me out, the door is always open.

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Things that confuse me:

Why would you want someone that you don’t like around you as a backup. What kind of manipulative bullshit is that and how creatively obnoxious must one be put someone through that.

What’s the point of muting and hiding stories and posts and Instagram ? If you don’t want someone seeing what you been doing or see what others have been doing, you can always unfollow them. Why put someone through an emotional rollercoaster ?

I am lazy, but that does not make me unaware of how people who claim to be close to me manipulate me. I just try to not spend too much energy on things outside my control. But again, why make things complicated ?

Morale of the story: let people go, it’s easier.

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People I’m thankful for this year:

All the people at my alma mater for giving me an insane amount of self confidence. I feel that I can stand toe to toe with anyone on any subject and come out on top.

My closest friend this year, you moved an hour away but helping you and whining with you have been my favourite pastime this year. You know who you are.

Thanks for being a genuine happy soul, I don’t remember the last time you were around and I was not smiling like an idiot.

Thanks for being absolute ambitious juggernauts. I can’t believe you are an entire continent away and I can’t put into words how much I miss y’all. My inspirations for life.

A very heartfelt thanks to the new friends I made this year, y’all made this dark and gloomy year feel very tolerable and I can’t believe I had the absolute honour of meeting you beautiful people.

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People I’m thankful for this year:

All my friends with excellent taste in footwear.

My folks for letting me take a drop year and figure out where I’m going in life. I know I have been a handful and then some more but I know I’ll make you proud sooner than later.

Thank you for exploring cafes and sushi places with me this year. I will cherish these memories till I live and breathe.

Thank you for being a ray of hope and happiness when either was rare to be found around me. You make me feel that I still have much more to explore and accomplish. I don’t like the term best friend, so I guess you are the closest I have to family.

Gratitude to all my minions for helping in my nefarious schemes.

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Thing I wish I said to certain people:

Hey, I know you say we are good friends and all, but somehow I feel like I’m the only one rowing this boat. I’m not gonna lie, lately I feel very exhausted.

I know I promise to burn bridges with you every 3 months but somehow I end up giving up at the very last moment. I hate this hold you have over me, I just want to let you go.

I am not giving up becoming a good person, I’m just done pretending to be a good person to you.

How can you preach self-respect and boundaries when you have gone out of your way to sabotage not only your own life but that of those around you.

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Lessons I learnt in 2022:

It’s okay if certain things/situations/friendships/relationships don’t work out.

Closure is a rare commodity, I have to learn to live without it.

It’s essential that you let people know how you feel about them. The gap between knowing and not knowing creates unprecedented anxiety on both sides.

Avoid people who use phrases like “leave it”, “forget it” or to put it more colloquially, “jaane de” and “don’t think too much about it” after saying something hurtful or doing something intrusive.

Compartmentalise your time, spend time with people who make you happy and make you want to live in the moment and not with people who leave you socially, mentally and emotionally exhausted.

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Guilt is a direct consequence of action. Those who did no wrong feel no guilt.

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The night is young, the darkness juvenile and the heartbreak fresh.

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There are no saints or sinners, just hypocrites and cowards.

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Hades has bought too many souls from husks claiming to know what they want when they sold theirs.

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Suffering and Anguish become kindred when you get used to speaking your mind.

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Kings and crowns wail at figures riding in the mist.

The wild hunt searches for the end of the world.

The world ends itself out of loneliness. Cold and desolate.

And then there is me, laughing in the face of entropy.

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Everyone blames you for being the monster.

Where were these saviour angels when you were so cruelly made a joke out of.

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I see the patterns for what they are, mishaps disguised as logic.

I see through them, I see them for what they are.

Excuses.