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Moving out

I don't know who will see this, I'm just trying to lift a weight off my sholders, sorry for any bad grammer if you find any mistakes.

Tomarow I'm moveing out.

Wich is something I've been planing for about two months by now, but I honestly didn't think I would have to pack my bags and leave my family, leave everything behind and just go to never really come back, not if I can help it that is, and right now I'm geting crushed by the thought of it.I don't really know how to say this, it's just really hard for me to even think of what to say, but I don't know if I can do this.

I never really felt loved never acepted for who I was and always a disapointment, always being the forgoten one, never really being the priority of my mom who was just too busy keeping this family together to ever notice me and my problems even tho I was sent to a therapist many times, or my dad who's usually black out drunk, and very cold and abuseve when not, only spending time with me when his Buddy (my unckle) and my mom force him to, tho he always made it clear he sees me as a disapointment, a failer and just not masculin enouth to be his child, always makeing me feel bad for who I was and always makeing hurtfull comments in my direcion.

Tho it doesn't feel right to just run away from him and leave everything behind, I don't know what to do and I don't want to suffer anymore then I already did, I don't what else to do.