burningtowntales

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Dreams… 🥰 this feels like where I stayed in Costa Rica. Clouds, peace, flowers, the song of water. ❤️

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Don't give in

Don't you dare quit so easy

Give all that you got on the sword

Don't say that you won't live forever

I know, I know

It's in your blood

And it's in your making

So don't hold your tongue

'Cause it's, it's no longer working

Don't fall on your sword

Just follow your instinct

Like an old lesson learned

Only you know what it, what it is to see through

See through the eyes that are trained on me now

I can, I can only tell you how it, how it looks from here

I think you've made up your mind

Don't give in

Don't you dare quit so easy

Give all that you got on the sword

Don't say that you won't live forever

I know, I know

Don't give in

Don't you dare quit so easy

Give all that you got on the sword

Don't say that you won't live forever

I know, I know

Yes there's a lot we can

We can learn from this loss

Learn not to let it fall around our ears

Don't fall in love with the, with the way things were

It'll fuck up your mind, it'll fuck up your mind

But this is all on the wings of others

But I loved you more

More in your own flight

So it ain't the same

It won't be lost forever

It won't be lost forever

Don't give in

Don't you dare quit so easy

Give all that you got on the sword

Don't say that you won't live forever

I know, I know

Don't give in

Don't you dare quit so easy

Give all that you got on the sword

Don't say that you won't live forever

I know, I know

This is your grace

And I don't know why, and I don't know why

This is your grace

And I don't know why, and I don't know why

Don't give in

Don't you dare quit so easy

Give all that you got on the sword

Don't say that you won't live forever

I know, I know

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Working on it… ☺️

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Come take my hand

You should know me

I've always been in your mind

You know I will be kind

I'll be guiding you

Building your dream has to start now

There's no other road to take

You won't make a mistake

I'll be guiding you

You have to believe we are magic

Nothin' can stand in our way

You have to believe we are magic

Don't let your aim ever stray

And if all your hopes survive, destiny will arrive

I'll bring all your dreams alive for you

I'll bring all your dreams alive for you

From where I stand, you are home free

The planets align, so rare

There's promise in the air

And I'm guiding you

Through every turn, I'll be near you

I'll come anytime you call

I'll catch you when you fall

I'll be guiding you

You have to believe we are magic

Nothin' can stand in our way

You have to believe we are magic

Don't let your aim ever stray

And if all your hopes survive, destiny will arrive

I'll bring all your dreams alive for you

I'll bring all your dreams alive for you

You have to believe we are magic

Nothin' can stand in our way

You have to believe we are magic

Don't let your aim ever stray

And if all your hopes survive, destiny will arrive

I'll bring all your dreams alive for you

I'll bring all your dreams alive for you

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There's a voice in your mind

It's spreading doubt

Spreading out

While the song in your heart

Is slowly fading out

Give it some time now

Cause you're afraid

O let fear subside now

We'll find a way

When you're out there, feeling lost

And you're so close to giving up

I know my love don't always show

But it's more than you'll ever know

Just look in my eyes

In the shade of the night

You and I

We'll entwine

Know the battles we've fought

Are only in your mind

So give it some time now

Cause you're afraid

O let your fear subside now

I know we'll find a way

When you're out there, feeling lost

And you're so close to giving up

I know my love don't always show

But it's more than you'll ever know

Just look in my eyes

Just look in my eyes

I know my love don't always show

But it's more than you'll ever know

I know my love don't always show

But it's more than you'll ever know

Just look in my eyes

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With all that conspired to allow us to meet, the life changes and world changes that were part of our shared journey, is there any doubt that there are more lifetimes ahead where we might meet again? ☺️

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Landslide… it definitely felt like the earth slid out from under my feet when I couldn’t reconcile the man that I loved with the actions I was living through.

I wanted you to be my forever. And I will love the man that I fell in love with forever. And when you see my reflection in the sunrises on the lake, I hope you know you were truly loved.

"Landslide"

I took my love, I took it down

I climbed a mountain and I turned around

And I saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills

'Till the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?

Can the child within my heart rise above?

Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?

Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Well, I've been afraid of changing

'Cause I've built my life around you

But time makes you bolder

Even children get older

And I'm getting older too

Oh, take my love, take it down

Oh, climb a mountain and turn around

And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills

Well the landslide will bring it down

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❤️

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I don’t actually agree with this at ALL. This would actually be a mental health condition called disassociation, not stoicism. 🙁

Stoicism would be staying present and aware, without letting circumstances you can’t change control YOU or cause you to disappear. Intentional acceptance of the conditions as they are, and then awareness of who you are and what you can or can’t do in that moment. If you can’t change the condition or the person causing it, and it’s hurting you, make a conscious decision on the next action you can take and how you are going to feel about it.

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❤️

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This November is for flipping the script…

Promises kept

Protection provided

Respect earned

Integrity maintained

Humanity and heart honored ❤️

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Me

Thinking

Overthinking

Taking a chance

Darting back to base

Licking my wounds clean

At least I took a leap of faith 🙄

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October

Making friends with my Monster

She’s not very sweet

But she’s worked so hard to keep me safe

I hope she makes friends with my Angels

Who like to dance in the moonlight

And take chances and believe in luck

And that Love is real

Perhaps they will collaborate

And then create

The space where dreams are possible again…

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September

After months of deep diving

It’s time to sail the surface of life

With stronger wings and a willing heart

The winds of change are taking me back to sea, where new adventures await…

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August

Retrenching inside while the temperature soars outside. 🔥😁💦

Focused on developing a better understanding of my current needs and dreams for the future while unlearning lessons from the past.

Freedom comes from knowing what doesn’t serve me and moving forward without the weight of expectations and responsibilities that were never meant to be mine. As those assumed burdens lift, I am creating space for lightness and joy and replenishing the deep well of love inside me so I can feel alive again.

There is ongoing regret, loneliness, and guilt and still more grieving to be done to truly heal, but there is a path forward, and I’m grateful for the wisdom that is being shared and growing inside my heart and soul.

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Independence, liberty, and freedom…

As I think of these words this Independence Day, my feelings are evolving. I hope is that in the future my independence is less about how I’ve learned to survive, and more about creating possibilities for space for me to thrive and where dependency is enabled through trust and collaboration.

I don’t want my intense sense of responsibility to continue to limit my freedom to deeply live and experience this world. In the future the responsibilities that I take on must be balanced with role clarity, grace and gratitude.

I am deeply appreciative of the Liberty and liberties I have as an American citizen and grateful for the leaders and people who had a vision for a democracy where people have a chance to bring their dreams to life.

July ‘24 musings

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The long goodbye…

While grace was sought

And the pull of deep love remained

The pain I caused exceeded the threshold

Where understanding was possible

And I am left

With compassion and memories

Where once there was the warmth

Of His arms

The reasons for all of this heartbreak on both sides are real and now I will give grace to MY heart and spirit in lieu of the future of which I dreamed.

I hope the emptiness I feel now is one day transmuted

Into the space where new love and hope can grow.