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feeling nostalgic

Growing up sure is crazy, isn’t it?

I’m 24 now, and I have a feeling most of my followers are inactive, just like I am on here, so I’m probably talking to no one, but all of a sudden, the other day, I decided to watch old buttercream videos, and I’ve fallen down a bit of a rabbit hole. Then I decided to revisit this old blog.

(I reorganized my masterlists, just for funsies.)

Now that I have a full, adult job and an apartment and health insurance and a retirement plan, I’m finding joy in old obsessions like this one. Things that make me feel like a teenager again. I still write fanfiction (because why not?) but obviously writing for the buttercreams isn’t what I do anymore. So revisiting this and thinking about how much I loved these boys and this blog makes my heart feel warm.

I sure miss the community we had on here. I miss the friends I made and the way people interacted with me and my stories. Sometimes I think about you guys and how important you were to me. And how important you still are. How you helped me grow as a writer and how you supported me through the wild happenings of college.

I’m still learning to accept how things change as you get older and people fade. People who once meant the world to you are merely memories. Even the buttercreams don’t hang out like they used to, and that’s weird for me to process. They used to be roommates or at least down-the-street-mates and now life has happened and they grew up and and they're not as close. And obviously that’s how life is. The same thing happened to me with friends and roommates. That’s life. It’s just weird to process it all sometimes.

Am I the only one? The only one who sometimes thinks about things like this? The only one who revisits things like this? I think I do it to escape reality. To pretend like I don’t have responsibilities and my life is going exactly the way I planned. This isn’t to say I’m unhappy. I’m honestly really happy. I have the job of my dreams and a lot of good friends, but it’s still not perfect. But then again, what really is?

Anyway, I truly from the very bottom of my heart hope you’re all doing wonderfully. I hope life has been treating you well. If anyone wants to message me a little life update, I would LOVE to hear how you’re doing. I’ll probably log on here again soon. I’m enjoying revisiting this old phase.

(Off topic, but I used to think the boys were so much older than me, but now I’m realizing I match with guys on dating apps who are just as old as them, which has been a weird thing to process too.)

Sending you all so much love.

Dani

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Jack: Dude. How long have you been standing there?

Caspar: An hour

Jack: An hour?

Joe: Are you serious?

Caspar: I've mastered the ability of standing so incredibly still, that I become invisible to the eye. Watch. [slowly starts moving his hand]

Jack: You're eating a piece of pizza

Caspar: But my movement ... is so slow ... that it's imperceptible

Jack: Mmm, no

Caspar: I'm sure I'm invisible

Josh: [enters the room] Hi, Caspar

Caspar: [pauses] Dammit

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[the boys come across an injured Byron]

Josh: How the hell is this dude still alive?

Joe: He is not a dude. You're a dude. This ... this is a man. A handsome, muscular man

Josh: I'm muscular

Jack: Who are you kidding, Pieters? You're one sandwich away from fat

Josh: Yeah, right

Joe: It's true. You have put on weight

Josh: What? Caspar, do you think I'm-

Joe: It's like a pirate had a baby with an angel

Josh: Wow. This is a real wake-up call for me. Okay, I'm gonna get a Bowflex. I'm gonna commit. I'm gonna get some dumbbells

Jack: You know you can't eat dumbbells, right?

Caspar: [touching Byron's arms] It's like his muscles are made of metal fibers

Josh: Stop massaging his muscles

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Josh: Oh my God, introduce us!

Joe: [with Zoe] This is Josh. And you know Caspar and Oli. And that's Conor, and that's Jack

Jack: Hey, how you doin'?

Joe: Don't!

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Byron: We were just wondering if Jack's girlfriend is a girl

Mikey: Oh, well, just ask her how long she's gonna live. Women live longer than men

Jack: How do you not fall down more?

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Byron: Do you want me to ask where you're going?

Josh: No

Byron: Great

Josh: Caspar will be driving me deep into the wilderness, where he will then leave me to either die, or to survive. The choice is yours

Jack: No. The choice is actually yours

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Jack: Great, they stole my laptop

Conor: Yeah, well they stole my surge protector

Jack: How does that even compare?

Conor: Jack, now I'm going to be prone to surges!

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Sometimes I feel like everyone I work with is an idiot. And by sometimes, I mean all times. All the time. Every of the time

Caspar, probably

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If I had a gun with two bullets and I was in a room with Hitler, Bin Laden, and Mikey, I would shoot Mikey twice

Jack, probably

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Mikey: Hey, why can't we use the same toothbrush, but we can use the same soap?

Jack: Because soap is soap. It's self-cleansing!

Mikey: Alright, well next time you take a shower, think about the last thing I wash and the first thing you wash

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Joe: Hey Jack, what would you do if you were omnipotent?

Jack: Probably kill myself

Joe: Excuse me?

Jack: Hey, if little Jack's dead, then I got no reason to live

Oli: Jack, OMnipotent

Jack: You are? Oli, I'm so sorry. I had no idea. I thought it was like a theoretical question

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Jack: What the hell happened? How are you locked in there? Where the hell's all of our stuff?

Mikey: Well, this guy came by to look at the unit, and he said he didn't think it was big enough to fit a grown man

Jack: So, you got in voluntarily?

Mikey: I was trying to make a sale! You know, if I ever run into that guy again, you know what I'm going to do?

Jack: Bend over?

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Joe: Exactly, unisex!

Jack: Maybe you need sex. I had sex a couple of days ago

Joe: No, no Jack! U-N-I sex

Jack: Well, I ain't gonna say no to that

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*locked in Caspar's bedroom*

Conor: Candy bars, crossword puzzles

Joe: Ooh, Mad Libs. Mine!

Josh: Condoms?

Caspar: Well, you don't know how long we're gonna be in here. We may have to repopulate the earth

Josh: And condoms are the way to do that

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ISSUES SPOILERS!!! So I went on this road trip today and I was literally reading issues the whole time IT GAVE ME THE FEELS SO BAD I can’t stop thinking about it,,, lowkey sad that jack and Addie didn’t end up together though :((

Fun (?) fact! The end of Jack and Adeline’s relationship was partially inspired by the end of my high school relationship. A long time ago I wrote out that whole shit show of a story on here so I won’t go into that again. Summary, me and my high school boyfriend dated once while we were juniors in high school and once while we were seniors. I broke up with him junior year for (somewhat) the same reason as Adeline broke up with Jack: I had to sort out the anxiety and depression I was battling before I could be ready to be in a relationship.

For me, that break-up was only temporary, as we did get back together again when my mind was a little clearer and I was a little happier. So, all hope isn’t lost for Adeline and Jack. If it makes you happier, give them a little hope for a future in your head. Some things just need time apart before they can be good together again.

It warms my heart that you enjoyed Issues as much as you did. It’s because of people like you that I wrote it! xx

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Issues

I’m currently sitting on the floor in my bedroom, crying.

I haven’t been a dedicated fan of the buttercream boys for a while now. It’s been months since I’ve watched all of their videos and I find myself on Netflix or watching Marvel films more often than anything else. Yet, here I am, crying that this is over.

It’s been over a year since I started this journey, and what a journey it’s been. I’m speechless right now. I’m trying to come up with some wonderful thing to say to wrap this all up, but I’m just coming up short.

It’s funny. I was at work today (I’m a nanny for those of you who don’t know/remember) and I opened Wattpad and was like “Hey let’s look at this fic you haven’t looked at in a while” and I just started reading the comments that were left on it and I was... I was just floored. I guess my dumb ass had somehow never seen most of the comments. I don’t know if I missed the notifications or if Wattpad never sent them, but the kind words I read were ones I had never seen before.

And then I started writing.

I just wrote and wrote while sitting on the floor of this kid’s bedroom and it just all came out exactly how I wanted it to. Plot points wrapped up how I had hoped and, I don’t know about you, but I think Adeline got a happy ending. She realized that she, after all this time, was the place she was searching for to call hers. With or without Jack.

For those of you who have stuck with me all this time, thank you. I’m sorry I left you for so long, but I hope you’re content with the ending I have given you. If not, write your own! Finish the story the way you would’ve wanted me to. Tag me in it! I’d love to read the journey you take Adeline on. She’s as much yours as she is mine.

I think it’s safe to say that this is goodbye.

The buttercreams, while an amazing part of my past, are no longer really a part of my present. I will always be so grateful for the friends they gave me and the memories I made and the lessons I learned. This blog will forever hold a very very special place in my heart. I grew a lot as a writer here and I won’t ever forget that. I may come on to chat from time to time, but I don’t think you’ll be seeing any more fics or imagines out of me.

But then again, who knows. For a while I thought I’d never finish Issues, but here we are.

Again, I feel like I have so many things I have to say. I just hope I did you all proud. If it wasn’t for your kind words of encouragement and understanding, Adeline never would’ve gotten an ending. You all wanted to see this through, which meant that I did too.

I just love you all so much. So much more than you could possibly know.

Thank you, and goodbye.

Dani x

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