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desc is the funniest shit i’ve ever read

obsessed with harvey at the y2 luau. absolutely busting ass with this quirked up jpeg shuffle. hes such a shut-in i bet this was like a magical girl transformation for him. the townsfolk see him walk onto the dance floor and are like ohhhh shit peepaws about to bust it down narsty style. fuck it UP white boy. the last ditch effort of a swagless migratory bird throwing back his ENTIRE pussy to attract a mate. im so obsessed with him you dont understa

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I wanna see my ribbsssss 😩 like why are they hidinggggg they look so pretty 😞

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fasting is fucking hard and no one can tell me otherwise

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i’m low on gas and you need a jacket = best ptv song in existence

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when i eat 600+ c4ls of a safe food but its ok cos its a safe food (this is why im still f4t)

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"You need to relax"

Best I can do is dissociate

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Nobody apologized for how they treated me they just blamed me for how I reacted

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I used to cvt myself as a punishment. But now I like doing it… wtf

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All fun and games till i remember when i was 11 i was crying my eyes out and begging god to take my life when i fall asleep so i could finally rest in peace.

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hey guys, got t3rm3d by tmblr gods >:/

I was @h0ll0wvamp

obvi too cool for tmblr but too bad cuz I'm gonna stay

please rb to let me have my moots back

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Life is shit and being skinny wouldn't make it less shitty but at least I'd be skinny

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exam season + driving myself insane over a boy who hates me + 3d relapse + stress about height (increasing 3d stress because need food to grow) + lack of revision + depressive episode + trying to ignore $h urges + family stress + stress induced insomnia so tired in exams —> att3mpt looming in the not so distant future

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⭐️ving is no problem for me. It’s declining food. If my someone makes dinner for me or just give me food in general i literally can’t throw it out. Like if somebody asks me if I want a bite of their food or anything like that I just polity decline. But if they specifically give me food I can’t say no. I hate feeling guilty over this

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Longgg rant before I get into the shower

More men have €Ds than you think

I think a lot of us can say that we do this-in part- to be beautiful, but the male beauty standard is not to be hyper thin. I’ve been around gym bros, where some even admit to “giving themselves 4n4” for a few months during cutting season. Then in ‘bulking’ binging,and working it all off. Have you seen those cringy TikToks where guys rant ab if they had a better body she wouldn’t have hurt him and he’ll turn his pain into muscle, that sounds the way it feels to me to starve

Just like an a-typical 4n4 it’s not seen as a disorder because it dosent fit the body type of 4n4

I am a boy 4n4, and would be a gym rat would it not be for my physical disability. I have moderate to severe erhlos danlos syndrome which I was diagnosed with at 5. I end up in the hospital every year with a threatening injury/am in and out of PT like every couple months. Part of EDS is muscular atrophy, I can’t build muscle. I was a really really active little boy (soccer, basketball, street hockey, fencing, skateboarding, fucking around in the woods with my friends) because I had no muscle to build or burn, I was skin and bones. I didn’t break 90lbs until 8th grade, but because I was active I was pretty healthy. 8th grade I started a medication that made me gain weight, I’d never had fat on my body before and it disgusted me, I felt out of control I wanted my body back, I remember thinking “if I get to 120 I’m ⭐️ving myself”

And I never looked back.

To prove my point, when I’m told I’m “very skinny” or “easy to throw around” or weak, it’s not a positive, they’re making fun of me. Because I am a little boy, skinny men are not looked at like we are attractive, men can be slim fit.

Being queer I think dose give me some room, as I fit into a ‘twink’ stereotype (I think it’s gross that body’s are only seen as a mode to have sex but maybe that’s my trans nudist gf brainwashing me w her agenda lol)

Even being a male with textbook looking 4n4, I still get away with dodging doctors. So when people will come on here and be like “oh it’s so easy 2 recover here have this hotline” it ignores so much nuance. I’ve been in €D res. I was the only male. Ive failed weigh ins, had a history of €D, had blood tests everything all of which I’m allowed to avoid treatment on “I didn’t mean to lose”

If I was a girl I would have been in a hospital a long time ago.