c0b-webz

[c0b-webz]

put ur favorite post hardcore bands in the comments babes

[c0b-webz]

I love emos vampires come and bite meeeee ^_____^

[c0b-webz]

[c0b-webz]

rickyxhorror:

1. I have always been a freak about music ever since i was little, and ever since i picked up the guitar at age 10, it has been the only thing i could ever picture myself doing. 8 years later, it has become something almost of an obsession. I’ve been in and out of bands since i started high school but haven’t found anything solid yet. Now that I’m about to start college, I’m beginning to doubt myself. 

Through the years i have always been told it was an unrealistic dream by my parents and peers, i’ve even been kicked out of bands because i was a girl and they didn’t think i would be serious about going to practices or playing shows. All of this has driven me to become the best that i can be and then some. Im a very social person but i can recall many times in the past 4 years that i have gone home from parties and friends houses because i wanted to go practice. 

Despite the previous statements, theres still a part of me that doubts that it can even happen. My mother has always told me i can do what i want as long as i get a college degree first and I’ve applied to a great art school so that i can go into sound design, but she just doesn’t understand why i need to actually be in a band. Coming from a relevantly small town on the south-side of Chicago, that kind of mentality is not uncommon. Everyone around here has blue collar jobs and its a rarity if you see anyone make it out of the 1 mile radius of where they grew up. None of my family or friends understand my need to get out of here and do the things i want to do. Even my boyfriend of 2 years does not support the lifestyle i want to have and even makes fun of me for dressing the way i do or sounding so “cliche” about wanting to make it in the music business. (Needless to say, that relationship is on its way out) I feel like i have no support from anyone and if they do support it, its more of a “Well you can try but i really don’t think its going to happen.” On top of that, I may not even be able to go to the school i want to because of financial issues. 90% of the reason I’m even going to school anyway is so that i can meet people to start a band with and without that i feel like its all hopeless. I realize 18 is still very young, and ill have a lot of time to figure things out but its getting harder and harder to remember that every day.

Your situation actually sounds a lot like mine. My parents told me ALL the time that I needed to get my life together and get a “real” job. I quit numerous jobs and actually quit school halfway through my degree because I didn’t want to do anything other than music. I had to move across the country, away from friends and loved ones, to be able to do what I wanted. That was the sacrifice I made to get where I wanted to be. The only thing you can really do is believe in yourself. Don’t let anyone tell you who or what to be, and never take no for an answer. People don’t live their dreams because they either are a. too scared to go out of the box to do something new, or b. they get discouraged and give up. You don’t want to be stuck in a position where you’re 40 years old, hate your job, and regret never finding out “what if”. If this is the only life we have, don’t waste it being a puppet for those around you. Do what YOU want to do. Follow your heart, follow your dreams. I know it’s hard, believe me, I do. Work through the bullshit, because in the end, all the tears you’ve shed, and all the effort you put into it will pay off. And best of all, you can stick a big middle finger up and say “fuck you” to all the people that said you couldn’t do it.

2. Do you have a girlfriend? If so how does it feel being committed to a band and a relationship? 

I don’t have a girlfriend. I don’t know if I ever could while I’m in a band, to be honest. I’m very involved when it comes to having a relationship, and I want to be able to give 110%. Unfortunately, I’m giving about 150% to the band, and it would just be lopsided. I don’t think that would be fair for a girlfriend to have to deal with, and I wouldn’t want someone to have to go through that. Now, on the other hand, if I had a girlfriend that was just as busy as me, it might not be a problem. Who knows!

3. How do you guys figure out where you all play? Like does the label pick the venues, do you guys or both?

When we accept tour offers, our booking agent sends us an email with an itinerary of all the dates and venues. It’s pre-set up for us.

4. How do you stay so positive? You went through a shitty situation, and have a constant reminder of it on your body, but you don’t seem to let that bring you down.

You said that you live in the now, and you focus on the present. Is it hard to live to that when some of the lyrics to your band are about living in the past? The lyrics to “Cobwebs” pretty much are the opposite of how you live your life. Is it hard to be around that negativity sometimes?

Being positive is extremely hard, especially when something ridiculous and unexpected happens that you weren’t ready for. For the most part, I think of everything that comes along as cycles in my life. Things change for a reason. Most of the time it doesn’t matter what that reason is to me, because things always have a way of working out for the better. A lot of the time something will happen that will slap me in the face as a way of saying “you’re rubbing against the grain. Just go with the flow”. I’m extremely thankful when that happens because then I’m mentally aware that I’m off track a bit and can refocus myself to now. The scar I have now reminds me of, yes a darker time in my life, but also a good moment. When you can help other people with similar problems because of something you went through, it makes the scars a good thing. 

It can be very difficult being positive with so much negativity around me. When we’re on tour, I’m around constant arguing and complaining. When I’m intently present, however, I’m calm inside no matter what the circumstances are around me. The only thing to watch out for is getting sucked into negativity and joining in.

5. Where do you get your jewelry?

A lot of my necklaces and rings I own came from a shop in Seattle called “Gargoyle Statuary”. Most of the time I just find little random shops on tour that have the sort of stuff I like. One of my favorite places to go is “Necromance” in Hollywood off Melrose. Look it up and check it out if you’re in that area.

6. What songs do you sing/scream in for the album creatures?

In Immaculate Misconception I scream the line “that I sing” after the heavy breakdown before the last chorus. 

In Cobwebs, I’m in the gang vocals in the line “forever” right before the first chorus, and in the line “we’d have a fucking show” before the break in the second verse.

In Dot Com Pt II I do the lines “but nobody heard me”/”I just couldn’t help it”, right after the first chorus.

In City Lights, I sing in the gang vocals at the end.

They’re just very small parts, and they’re all screaming for the most part.

7. Why did you quit being vegan?

I’m in a band full of meat eaters, and it’s too much of a hassle to go out of the way to find “special” food for one person. Plus, it’s extremely expensive. I’m not complaining about the change.

8. When did you realize that this is music was what you wanted to do?

The first show I ever played in high school was when I realized. The feeling I got when I first stepped onto the stage was life changing. I immediately knew.

9. How do you like your coffee?

If I’m making it myself, I use hazelnut creamer, nothing else.

10. Are there any other goals you have set for yourself that you would like to accomplish?

I’d like to eventually write my own book. That’s definitely up there on my list. I also want to write an acoustic album, and maybe do an electronic side project as well. But I don’t see any of that happening anytime soon with all of the upcoming things we have going on. Motionless In White will always come first before anything else.

11. Did you ever think that your band would ever be as big as it is now? If you didn’t make it this far what do you think you’d be doing?

Well, technically, I joined the band when they were gaining hype. So I knew things would grow from there. It is definitely strange to see so many kids singing the words to our songs at shows now, though. It’s a very surreal feeling. If I wasn’t playing music, I would probably be in LA or New York doing something with film. I went to college for almost two years to get a degree in film production, and seriously considered moving to LA when I got done. And then I completely just dropped out because I knew it wasn’t what I truly wanted. But yeah, I’d probably be doing something in film.

12. Would you ever publish any of the things you write, whether it’s poetry or just a short story and what’s your favorite author or poet?

As I said before, I’d love to get something published. If you know how, please, point me in the right direction! My favorite author is Chuck Palahniuk, and poet would be Edgar Allen Poe.

13. So the problem is I am taking to much for granted right now and I hate myself for it and I am tired of being stuck where I am at and doing nothing…. Well the only solution I can think of is to move somewhere where I know no one really and where I dont know my way around. I wanna do what scares me most and thats being completely alone and conquering my fear and finally growing up and doing something with me life. Now the question is do you think its stupid to do that, to move somewhere far away from everything? Your really good with advice so if you read this and have an opinion I would really love to hear it lol

I’m not sure why you feel that you need to move. The grass always seems greener on the other side. Odds are, when you get to a new location, you’re going to feel the same way. Work on your internal state before making a big decision like that. Once you become solid internally, the external world will shift along with it.

[c0b-webz]

[c0b-webz]

[c0b-webz]

[c0b-webz]

[c0b-webz]

[c0b-webz]

[c0b-webz]

[c0b-webz]

“The light in our hallway makes me feel like I’m in HIM’s "Heartkiller” video.“

[c0b-webz]

[c0b-webz]

[c0b-webz]

[c0b-webz]

This reminds me of a prom photo for some strange reason. Thanks, youdontcarethatithauntsme for submitting it!! :)

[c0b-webz]