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It's impossible to see the world the same after this.

Auschwitz Birkenau, January 2023

#Poland #racism #nikon #nikonphotography #fisheyelens

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Amsterdam, January 2023

#amsterdam #netherlands #nikon #photography #fisheye10mm #fisheyelens #nikonphotographg

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None of this is going to plan.

Krakow, January 2023

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St. Louis, Missouri (2023)

It was 21C today, so I went to the botanical garden.

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Giant Sequoia, California (2022)

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Canyonlands, Utah (2022)

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I picked up a book at the library about 'things to see along route 66.'

It turned out to be one of the greatest decisions of my life.

Dwight, Illinois (2023)

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I went on a trip recently and it's what my soul needed to re charge and feel better again. I had been so caught up in my own sadness, ego, and shame. I had to get away from my routine, my four walls, and breath new air.

It's odd how distance can help to put things into perspective, or atleast to be able to let things go.

Hopefully this can be the start of a new chapter where I've let go of my past and look towards my future.

Ghost Ranch, New Mexico (2023)

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Today, I woke up thinking about the past and it's so heartbreaking. It was a relief when my alarm went off.

A part of me can't believe the choices they made. How could they treat each other this way? What was the point.

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Ciudad Perdida, 2021

Colombia

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Colombia, 2021

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As I type this I find myself exhausted. I'm exhausted of dealing with myself, my thoughts, my moods, and emotions.

Every week I'm learning something new about myself, my family, and the world. It feel like I'll be fighting myself my whole life. It's tiresome, but I want to be a better person.

I do feel better than I felt 3 weeks ago. I've been working a lot on acceptance and forgiving. Acceptance for what has happened and forgiving myself for my feelings, but others for their actions.

It's after therapy and I'm exhausted.

Market, St. Louis, 2022

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Colombia, 2021

I'm thankful for the photos and the memories.

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Colombia, 2021

The cow on the right is for chocolate milk.

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Colombia, 2021

Looking for the best machete.

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San Pedro, 2021

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This is the beginning of my new experience on Tumblr. I hope to make this a place where I can go to enjoy art, be away from toxic behavior, and be inspired again.

My goal is to only post pictures I take with my Nikon's. I have a D500, and an FM2. My favorite lenses are my 35mm and 10mm fisheye.

- C

Colombia, 2021