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Anyone else ever get the thing where people either conceive of you as a woman -> incapable of using it/its pronouns, or they see that you use it/its pronouns -> incapable of conceiving of you as a woman

That sucks. I'm a woman who uses it/its. People respect nonbinary transfems and it/its users even a little challenge

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YOUR CURL IS SO CUTE !! but also uhhhmmm can i kiss that spot right under your ear in that video pleeeease....!!! like between your shirt collar and your curls can i press some kisses right there !!!

THANKIESSSS !!!! 🫶😁🥰🥰🥰🥰

and. umm. 😳🫣😖🤭😍🥰

yeag,,, if u want to,,,,,,, i wouldn’t mind,……. kiss away >w< (<-normal about it) (<-lyinggg)

giggling blushing twirling my hair (obviously) teeheeee 🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈

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i do think that twirling that ringlet at the back of my head is making my neck sore cuz of the weird position i’m in when i do it….. but i can’t stop,,,,,,

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ughhh i should get off my phone and do the things i’ve been meaning to do today. but. i love talking to people and making posts… what if someone tries to talk to me or makes a really good post and i don’t even see it becuz i’m not online… 😰💔

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I LOVE MY THIS #MYTHIS

sooo glad i decided not to cut the back short cuz this ringlet is my favorite fidget toy. it usually curls on its own but since i’ve been obsessively twirling it this past week it’s definitely keeping shape as a tighter curl lol. it’s sick as hellllll #myringlet

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when i got my id card (right before my 21st bday) (so i could go to bars) (no one say anything abt the fact that i got it so late who give a shit) they asked for all my information and i don’t keep track of my weight so i didn’t know off the top of my head and not like i could check at the dmv. so i made smth up and put 222 cuz that was my best guess and also i heart repeating numberssss

anyway at the doctor today they took my weight and it was 223. hashtag accurate id card 😎

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um guys, I think we need to stop waiting for ‘the right time’ and just start doing the things we want whenever because the right time’s never gonna come, and if we keep waiting it’s just gonna turn into an endless cycle

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I'm like if a missing person was literally right there

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Lupe Velez, Mexican actress (1908-1944)

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The Silence of the Lambs (1991)

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*on my stomach with my legs swinging in the air* whatcha dooooin?~

hehe twirling my hairrr (actually tho. weird habit i can’t stop) at the dooooctorrrssss~ ^_^

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eating berries straight off the bush to remind myself I’m an animal

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i know i’m huge on mutual addiction obsessive love whatever souls are made of yours and mine are the same but i will be so honest i am not monogamous enough to actually go thru with any kind of exclusive relationship in that sense. i need to be obsessed with various ppl who are each obsessed with me and we maintain vague and unspecified relationships that blur the lines of any type of attraction so they can’t be easily labeled. don’t say polyamory this is some other shit…

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okay BEFORE I LOG OFF. am i forgetting anything ? is there anything else i was gonna do ? hmm…

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@owllover2319 i don’t even have anything to add this is such an awesome analysis abt want at the heart of this musical. REAL AS FUCK ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

also i started listening to the guy who didn’t like musicals soundtrack obsessively a week ago cuz i got high and was thinking about desire and want and remembered the song what do you want, paul? “i want you to want to want” is just a sick as hell lyric to me. like yeah i want to want. a lot of the depression apathy stops me from doing shit, i want to want things, i want to know what things i want. and for like interpersonal relationships i want them to want and to know what they want. every one who has clear wants and communicates them to me directly just makes it so much easier. i know what is expected of me i know how to fulfill their wants. i want you to want to want. anyway i’ve been thinking on want a lot lately. desire is kinda the root of everything huh? or at least the root of all movement. the drive. id like to get my drive back. figure out what i want

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