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CATE DUNLAP gen v : sick

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      𝐂𝐀𝐄𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐀.   (n.)   longing  for  a  home  that  no  longer  exists .

selective  &  potentially  triggering  original  character .   exploring  themes  of companionship  as  salvation,   a  desire  to  escape,   self - destructive  coping,   disillusionment  and  dreams,   empowerment,   &  loneliness  as  destructive  force .

   brought to salvation by becca.   ( 24,  she\they )   affiliated  with  @innocentsbled.                                                   𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐃

other  blogs:

@amarycan​​,   mary  mason  from  “american  mary” @caerolina​​,   mallory  barnes  a  fandomless  original  character @ductaped​​,   ashley  jones  from  “better  watch  out” @endfght​​,   multi-fandom  multimuse @jpoole​​,   jeyne  poole  from  “a  song  of  ice  and  fire” @leftlimp​​,   jeff  grimes  from  “the  walking  dead” @oneknot​​​,   amy  harrison  from  “the  walking  dead” @sevynhells​,   multimuse  for  “a  song  of  ice  and  fire” / “house of the dragon” @sunruin​,   fandomless  vampire  original  character

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𝐂𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐄𝐃  𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄,   𝘱𝘰𝘪𝘴𝘰𝘯  𝘪𝘯  𝘵𝘩𝘦  𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘳.   w/  @hrtached​​​‘s  christa  marsh .

      mallory  &  her  husband,   bill  denbrough   ( @gruvies​ ),   had  both  been  through  a  lot   「  .  .  .  」   all  of  which  only  brought  them  closer  to  the  people  they’d  needed  most ;   friends   ⸺   their  chosen  family .   it  was  then  that  beverly  marsh  entered  their  lives,   and  it  felt  like  mallory  had  met  a  long  lost  friend :   they  clicked  immediately .   and  in  the  blink  of  an  eye,   their  families  became  one,   spending  holiday’s  and  more  together   ⸻   &  mallory  found  herself  getting  particularly  close  to  beverly’s  younger  cousin,   christa  marsh .   a  fashion  student  that  had  been,   at  that  point,   desperately  searching  for  a  new  model  to  fixate  on,   a  position  that  mal  agreed  to  with  excitement .   not  long  after  they  became  close  friends,   they  shared  their  stories .   their  individual  traumas  only  tied  them  together  further,   &  in  a  way  mallory's  views  on  her  had  changed  from  sisterly,   to  maternal .

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the day i decide to actually write these,,,,,, its over for everyone

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GOOD FOR HER.

Suspiria (2018) dir. Luca Guadagnino Hereditary (2018) dir. Ari Aster Jennifer’s Body (2009) dir. Karyn Kusama Mother! (2017) dir. Darren Aronofsky Black Swan (2010) dir. Darren Aronofsky Gone Girl (2014) dir. David Fincher The Witch (2015) dir. Robert Eggers

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Never Goin’ Back dir. Augustine Frizzell (2018)

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You’ve really missed a trick when it comes to love Always seeking what you don’t have like what you do ain’t enough You’d like a light to shine on you

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👫   pick  a  relationship,   any  relationship !   (  kinsey   &   mallory  )

meme   ↷   accepting   ↷   @hallowburnt​      send  👫 and  i’ll  write  four  headcanons  i  have  about  our  muse’s  relationship .

001.   from  the  minute  they  met,   mallory  knew  that  she  and  kinsey  were  going  to  be   good  friends .   they  pair  with  one  another  perfectly ;   where  mallory  is  chaos  kinsey  is  calm   and  vice  versa .   they  balance  one  another  out  perfectly,   something  that’s  been  commented  on   multiple  times   by  others .   their  bond  is  so  strong  they  can  communicate   wordlessly,   knowing  one  another  by  their   looks   and   mannerisms .

002.   after  they  got  home,   kinsey  was  the  only  person  that  mallory  felt  genuinely  safe  and  comfortable  around  for  months .   though  she  began  attending  therapy,   kins  was  the  only  one  that  knew  what  she’d  been  though,   that  had  been  there   and  could  relate  to  the  storm  of  emotions  constantly  brewing  in  her  skull .   she’s  beyond  grateful  that  she  was  there  for  her,   and  hopes  that  she  was  there   equally  enough   for  kinsey  in  return .

003.   mallory  feels  closer  to  kinsey  as  a  sister  than  she  does  her  own  blood  sister .   that’s  not  to  say  that  she  doesn’t  love  juliet !!   she   would  die  for  her  sister,   but  she  truly  feels  that  kinsey  is  one  of  her  soulmates  in  life,   that  they’re  connected  in  ways  that  she’s  never  felt  with  another  human  being .   their  whole  lives  they’ve  shared  clothes  and  secrets   everything   and  mallory  wouldn’t  have  it  any  other  way .

004.   when  they  were  in  middle  school  and  mallory  was  figuring  herself  out  as  a  person,   she  developed  a  crush  on  kinsey .   it’s  the  only  secret  that  she’s  ever  kept  from  her,   not  because  she  thinks  that  she’ll   judge  her,   but  out  of  fear  that  she  would   look  at  her  differently   (  that,   and  the  fact  that  it’s  been   so  long,  bringing  it  up  seems  like  a   moot  point  ) .   the  feelings  faded  after  a  month,   when  she  realized  that   love  can  be  platonic .   regardless,   mallory  is  in  love  with  kinsey  and  tells  her  that  daily,   and  would  do  absolutely  anything  for  her .

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for  years,   they've  said  that  i  was  guilty  as  sin .              independent  and  selective  blog  for  a  fandomless  original  character .   affiliated  with  @graecland .  saved  by  becca .   est. nov. ‘20.

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day number ??? of makin gifs for absolutely No Reason

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endless  mallory  barnes .

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PHOEBE BRIDGERS LYRIC PROMPTS.

inspired from phoebe’s albums: punisher and stranger in the alps. as always, some triggering content may be present! change any pronouns to better suit your muse(s) needs!

why would somebody do this on purpose?

i wanted to go, but i didn’t.

we talk until we think we might just kill ourselves.

you were screamin’ at the evangelicals.

swore i could feel you through the walls.

i had to carry you.

i’m hungry for blood.

somebody better be dying.

now i can’t breathe, and i can’t sleep.

i feel something when i see you now.

anyway, don’t be a stranger.

i hate living by the hospital.

you must’ve been looking for me.

if it meant i would see you when i die.

all the skeletons you hide��

it must be something in the water.

will you have me, or watch me fall?

remember getting the truck fixed?

i know there’s something waiting for us.

i don’t know what i want.

baby, you’re a vampire.

i can’t open my mouth and forget how to talk.

always surprised by what i do for love.

we can be anything.

please don’t hold me to it.

i only went one time.

the end is here.

and what about the band?

show me yours, i’ll show you mine.

i know he needs you, you’re all that he sees.

be whatever you want.

i scared you in your house.

i want to live at the holiday inn.

i guess it’s too late to change it now.

i’m thinking out loud.

tell me what you’ll do, please.

one of your eyes is always half-shut.

i’m singing at a funeral tomorrow.

i’ve been talking to his dad, it makes me so sad…

somebody roll the windows down.

i’ve got a good feeling.

i would do anything for you.

i’ll be whatever you want.

i don’t need you to tell me what that means.

i asked him nicely once to pack his things and go.

something happened when you were a kid.

there’s a last time for everything.

i couldn’t take it any longer, and i lost control.

it’s amazing to me how much you can say.

i didn’t know you then and i’ll never understand.

do you feel ashamed?

i went with you up to the place you grew up in.

there’s something i’m supposed to say.

i swear i’m not angry, that’s just my face.

you, you must’ve been looking for me.

no, i’m not afraid of hard work.

you got me good; i knew you would.

you know the killer doesn’t understand.

man, i wish that i could say the same.

if i fix you, will you hate me?

i miss you like a little kid.

i could scream to drown you out.

next time i see you, you’ll show me.

he is a fine new addition, so young and so clean.

always have and i always will.

i’m at the movies, i don’t remember what i’m seeing.

i’m tired of trying to get in the house.

wouldn’t know where to start.

i want to believe.

i’m losing all my hair.

it’s a government drone or an alien spaceship.

everyone knows you’re the way to my heart.

i even scared myself by talking.

i’m on the outside looking through.

i’m standing too close.

sorry that it all went down like it did.

last night, i blacked out in my car.

i’m gonna kill you.

he came up through the water without a sound.

you get a few points for tryin’.

i can count on you to tell me the truth.

i’ve never seen you smiling so big.

he got me good, i knew he would.

i’m always pushing you away from me.

he missed my heart.

i grew up here, ‘til it all went up in flames.

i want to go home.

they dragged me off to jail, set a million dollar bail.

i will always be right here.

there’s no place like my room.

i don’t wanna be alone.

i wanted to see the world.

but i asked him one more time, this time pulled out my shiv.

was hoping you would let it go, and you did.

the drug stores are open all night.

no, it’s not important, they’re just pretty words, my dear.

that’s quite a list, but there’s one thing you missed.

it’s gonna be just like my recurring dream.

i’m a liar.

i get this feeling whenever i feel good.

i’ll stay out of my own hell.

for generations, they’ll romance us, make us more.

that’s just how i feel.

i buried a hatchet, it’s coming up lavender.

i turned around, there was nothing there.

from the window, it’s not a bad show.

not even the burnouts are out here anymore.

i hardly feel anything at all.

so i gotta go, i know, i know, i know.

you were still in the ambulance.

you always say that you’d prefer to drown.

i’m amazed that you’re alright.

when i’m lonely, that’s when i’ll burn it.

if you find me, will you know me?

they were screamin’ right back from what i remember.

i’ve been running around in circles.

i've been playing dead.

i’m sleeping in my bed again, and getting in my head.

they make you live in the past.

i can hardly feel anything.

i woke up in my childhood bed.

a feeling of relief came over my soul.

i want to know what would happen.

you’re gonna drown in your sleep for sure.

he never lies or picks up his phone.

you’re holding me like water in your hands.

baby, it’s halloween.

after a while you went quiet.

no, i’m not afraid to disappear.

you must’ve been looking for me.

i would give you the moon.

i have this dream where i’m screaming underwater.

they killed a fan down by the stadium.

i want to be wrong.

when i think too much about it i can’t breathe.

i can’t sleep and i miss your face.

they strapped me in the gurney, took me off to the infirmary.

i’ll find a new place to be from.

i hate you for what you did.

that makes me feel old.

he got me in the shins, and he got me in the arms.

i’m gonna chase it, i know, i know, i know.

all of our problems? i’m gonna solve 'em.

i’m stupid in love.

yeah, i guess the end is here.

i won’t be home with you tonight.

underneath her whimpering, i could hear the sirens sound.

fell on hard times a year ago.

sometimes i think i’m a killer.

we can be anything.

there is no distraction that can make me disappear.

i dreamt that he drowned.

when he gets older, he might be the one.

she can do anything she wants to.

plus, i’m pretty sure i’d miss you…

either way, we’re not alone.

you don’t have to know that it’s haunted.

you know i hate to be alone.

guess i lied.

wouldn’t know when to stop.

i think when you’re gone, it’s forever.

i’ll be glad that i made it out.

either i’m careless or i wanna get caught.

i hope you kiss my rotten head.

it’s 4 a.m. again.

we found our way out.

he missed my heart.

we have the same face.

hear so many stories of you at the bar…

all the bad dreams that you hide…

he’s half the man and you’re twice as tall.

i gotta go now, i know, i know, i know.

i don’t forgive you.

if i breathe you, will it kill me?

man, i hate this part of texas.

you know i’m never gonna let you have it.

and i changed my mind.

he might be the one.

it’s for the best.

you had to go, i know, i know, i know.

i’m too tired.

tell me what you wanna do to me.

i faked it every time.

you missed my heart.

oh, come on, man!

you were in a band when i was born.

i have everything i wanted.

i’m not gonna go down with my hometown in a tornado.

i don’t believe in that stuff anymore.

jesus christ, i’m so blue all the time.

saw him in the kitchen, hanging up the phone.

i feel something when i see you.

there’s nothing i can do.

i am sick of the chase.

you are somebody’s baby.

i hate your mom.

i got mean.

so long, prison boy!

it’ll be the last time.

i would do anything you want me to.

but right now, it feels good not to stand.

i love a good place to hide in plain sight.

i will try to drown you out.

take a dirty picture, babe.

it’s sad that his baby died.

i’m doing nothing.

hey, why do you sing with an english accent?

i get everything i want.

i look at the sky and i feel nothing.

when you touch down, i’ll be waving.

now i’m too tired to go to sleep.

i feel like i know you?

i hate it when she opens her mouth.

it’s just a matter of time before i’m hearing things.

call me when you land.

would you fuck this and let us fall?

they still got payphones…

you might be dying.

i’m a bad liar.

you wrote me a letter…

i’ve given all my love.

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