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Hindi pala ganon.

Noong nasa teenage to early 20's pa ako, akala ko ganon ang "Love". Yung sapat na yung mahal niyo ang isa't-isa para patakbuhin ang relasyon niyong dalawa. Hindi pala ganon, na habang patagal kayo ng patagal nawawala na yung kilig, excitement at spark higit sa lahat hindi niyo mahal ang bawat isa araw- araw kung baga totoo nga yung kanta ng Ben & Ben na "pipiliin ka sa araw-araw". Na isip ko lang hindi rin sapat yung pipiliin mo lang siya para sayo dapat piliin mo rin siya para sa magiging anak.

Ang dami kasing tumatakbo sa isip ko ngayon, basta alam ko lang na ayoko isipin ng magiging anak ko na okay lang kapag hindi kayo nag usap at nag pansinan kapag may tampuhan. Na okay lang na mag pataasan ng pride at walang mag papatawad. Ayokong tularan ang makikita niya kasi hindi niya deserve ang ganong klaseng relasyon.

I grew up in the house hold na bangayan malala ang parents ko kapag nag aaway, It really affects me but at the end of that my father will do anything para maging okay sila ng mother ko.

Ayoko mag build ng house hold na puros bangayan lalo na't ayokong mag build ng household na doesn't even know how to communicate, na panay pataasan ng pride at mag hihintay kung sinong unang mag papatawad.

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"Napapansin namin nag bago ka na, di ka na tulad ng dati."

Do you know what is the scariest thing? It is not death or losing someone but CHANGE.

It is unpredictable magugulat ka na lang ay nag nag bago na pala, ay kailangan palang baguhin, ay kailangan pa lang mag bago.

Tinanong ako ngayon ng tatay ko kung bakit hindi na ako tulad ng dati hindi ko siya sinagot kahit sinabi niyang pwede akong mag sabi. Hindi ako sanay at hindi ako lumaki sa pamilya na bukas kayo sa isa't-isa basta ang alam ko lang kapag nag labas ka ng saloobin mo "Sumasagot ka" or wala Invalidated lang yung feelings mo, kaya mas pinili ko na lang manahimik. Nakakapagod na lagi ka na lang invalidated napupuno at nag sasawa din pala ako. Kaya ko pala maging matigas sa kanila.

Gusto ko sana siyang sagutin na, wag niyo na ako alalahanin, hindi ko kailangan ng advice niyo kasi pag sa labas hindi ako ganito dito lang sa bahay na 'to ako nag-iba...

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Hope we are not expecting something from someone when special occasions happen. Tama na sana yung batiin at na alala tayo lalo na parents out there if you know your children have baggage wag ng dumagdag pa. We are thankful to you but It's not our responsibility to feed your egos. Alam naman namin na tumatanda kayo pero sana isipin niyo rin na tumatanda kami and we are worrying about our future. Yung tipong gusto mong mag anak pero wag na lang kasi ngayon pa lang iniisip mo na almost 30% palang ng sahod mo napupunta sa rent ng buong pamilya niyo wala pa yung ibang gastos hays ano na lang mangyayari sa atin ayoko maranasan ng anak ko yung ganito 😶‍🌫️😪

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I think I love our dogs the most more than anyone in this household....

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“You often feel tired, not because you’ve done too much, but because you’ve done too little of what sparks a light in you.”

— Unknown

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He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he know you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.

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“The woman who doesn’t require validation from anyone is the most feared individual on the planet.”

— Mohadesa Najumi

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Some pretty, black, earth backgrounds 🖤

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She is not the sunrise. She is the fucking sun.

-poetryintheyes

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Marry a man who didn't ignore you if you tell him how beautiful the moon is.

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“Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.”‬‬

1 Peter 4:8

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My point is, every now and then, check in on your friends and family and if you notice something isn’t right, do what you can to raise their spirits. Sometimes all we need is a little reassurance. Friendships aren’t designed for good times only!

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