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(25/12/2021) 10/01/2022 - 16 days after last time hugged her

To think that the one that hurts you being happy, sleep well at night and chasing the guy she wants after ditching me while i suffers the most really wakes me up telling that she doesn’t love and care about me. I’ve only slept 2-4 hours a day. Cant do a single work. Cant communicate with my friends well. My life has been a messed up since that day. She wouldn’t care at all what happened to me after what she did and said. She only thinks about what she wants and not what i had sacrificed for her. All that excuses she made are all lies. Just to get away from all the problems. She’s the one that starts to lie first. She even starts to cheat first. And all of that happened all those years and still she only saw that one ws i had with a girl when we both are single. What i mean single is she is the that asked for break up. She would throw me away every time we fight. Obviously every time we fight is about other guys that she talks to. Damn…. That’s the only thing we always fight about. Her crush, her flings, the guy who loves her, the guy who have a crush on her even the guy she almost into a relationship. She talks to all of that guy when she’s with me. Why cant i just be all that ?? Why cant i be the only guy she gives her attention to ?? Why should there be other guys ?? Id been trying so so hard to be the guy you always want. Even after i gave it my all, she still had the audacity to do all that ?? Treats me with that attitude ?? While other guys get the best of you and i only get the bad side of you ?? I should have left you the first time we broke up but weak ass heart telling me to gave you second chance and yet you broke it again and again and again without feeling guilty at all. The best part is she even said iloveyou imissyou after did all those things behind my back. Like a fucking asshole, my weak ass heart always melt at her. Always have a soft spot for her. And i even love her more as time flies by. After 5 years together, she suddenly have a change of heart. She suddenly told me she did not love me anymore and she said she didn’t want to lie to herself. You see right. What she thinks first and said was that SHE DIDNT WANT TO LOE TO HERSELF first. Not about my feelings and not about everything that we had been together all those 5 freaking years. All because one ws with a girl i made when shes the one that throws me out like im a broken doll first. Id been working hard to love her even she did all those things to me. But look at her. One mistake and she gave up. Even told her family what a dick i am and told her friends too. But the fact is im the one that been the good guy and she’s the one that’s bad. She didn’t even tried to clear my name but instead gave up on everything. Funny isn’t how my love life with this one girl had been. It’s rough but i still fight hard till the end. She’s the one that letting it go everything that we had been working hard to build. And she chose to start over with another new guy she met that are just looks like me instead of fixing what we already have. Well, what can i do. If she wants, she will work it out and we can live happily forever. She chose to give up on us on me on everything we have built. Id already told her that we can fix it and even wanted to meet her families to clear up my name. Yet she still throws me away like a rotten meat. I have a lot more to tell but i guess here is enough. Even after all i said here, i still do love her. I hope she is happy with the choices she made. I wish you all the good things and i hope you don’t end up like me. Cause i know you can’t handle this much pain. I hope you don’t suddenly download tumblr and see this pain ive been through. Takecare. Iloveyou imissyou like hell. Nfmk.

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(25/12/2021) 08/01/2022 - 14 days after last time hugged her

It’s been 2 weeks since we met. I saw everything when we met, your eyes aren’t the same as before. Im went kl because i was trying to get you back even im not sure if you really want me back. Im stupid for not realising it early. Im sorry for making you force yourself just to spend time with me. And thank you for that few days, its been awhile since we date huhu. That 3 days were amazing, we went to every place and eat everywhere we want even we both short on money hahaha. I really miss you a lot. I wish i could turn back time and change everything back like we were used to. I miss it a lot when you call me everytime i was sleeping and you always laugh when you suddenly call me to wake me up. I still do remember every little thing about you and not one second i have not ever think about you. You are always on my mind no matter what i do. I hope you are more happy now. I wish your next bf will treat you far more better than i am. This may be the last one from me, i hope so huhu. Takecare sayang baby ayang cayunk gemok gedempol yunk yang mok pol. Iloveyou nfmk. *cries fr

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Why did you do this to me 😭😭😭

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(25/12/2021) 05/01/2022 - 11 days after last time hugged her

What should i do ?? Why you always on my mind ?? Why is it so hard ??

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(25/12/2021) 04/01/2022 - 10 days after last time hugged her

Still can’t stop thinking about you… i miss you….

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(25/12/2021) 03/01/2022 - 9 days after last time hugged her

Im still can’t stop thinking about you.

Iloveyou 😢😢😢

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This new year sucks. Knowing that you will be out with another guy. I know he’s a lot like me, muka dia cara dia type style dia even course degree pun sama. I hope you will be happy with him. Ofcourse i feel jealous that he gets your full attention even he treats you bare minimum. There’s nothing i can do, you like him you want him and not me anymore. Im sorry, ive done everything i could to make you stay even begging you to stay. But all you ever said, we will never made it, you don’t love me anymore, you don’t want me anymore. It hurts that you made up excuses to push me away, to break my spirit down for loving you but you know no matter what i always forgive and love you back hard. You didn’t see how much i love you. You didn’t know how much i fall for you everytime we meet. But all that are just me. It’s one sided love. Im sorry i had to block you. I had to. Because you know i will always stalk you everytime i hold my phone. It’s already new year now. But still im the same me that crave for your love and attention. I love you so much. Ive been missing to hear your voice, your laugh, your smile, your annoyed face, your touch, your warm hug and everything about you i miss it. I hope you are fine, happy and always get what you want. Takecare nfmk…

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(25/12/2021) 31/12/2021 - 6 days after last time hugged her

Im missing you like crazy. No words could describe how much you mean to me.

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How i wish i can spend my new year with her 😭😭😭