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[cainov]

oliviasgreen‌:

“so the thing is, i’m actually a little scared of heights,” olivia said with a sigh, eyeing the ferris wheel wistfully. “but that looks like it’d be such a pretty view, and i’ve had at least three shots already so i think i could be ready for it. think i need to have at least a moment of being away from here, you know, and that seems like just the way to do it.”

“they aren’t t-too bad,” he began, tilting his head as he looked up the ferris wheel, “heights - ferris wheels, both of them - it’s kind of uh, relaxing - i mean i always t-thought they were. probably would handle it better buzzed anyway,” in reality - they had no idea how they’d react to being up on the ride, in an enclosed space with no escape; even for a short amount of time, it seemed daunting now. “it’d be a nice - photo, you know, at the v-very least.”

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ruthromanov‌:

Ruth just stared at him for a moment, fists clenched around the hem of her skirt as if needing something to stabilize her. It was hard not to feel sad talking to Cain these days and she was much more emotional than usual, sniffing and shrugging her shoulders. “Gotta do everything just once, right?” she suggested. “Got any more good jokes for me?”

It was like he realized a mistake a moment too late - internally flinching at his bluntness. He often forgot that his disappearance was a sore subject, not something he could come home from and continue on like nothing had happened. He had hurt people - “I mean - uh - y-yeah, like yolo,” Cain kicked a pebble, awkwardly, hands shoved into his pockets, “Uh - no, nah, nah - never been uh, much of a c-comedian anyway. I think I’d get ... tomatoes thrown at me.”

[cainov]

imessage - cain

leah: are you at the carnivalllll

cain: yes i'm currently teaching the youth how to juggle

cain: why

[cainov]

ruthromanov‌:

“Are you in need of medical assistance?” Ruth questioned, eyes narrowing at Cain before turning her attention back to the man behind the booth. Huffing dramatically, Ruth shook her head. “I’m not a kid,” she replied, her protests sounding exactly like something that would leave the mouth of a child. “A lot of things are against God, Cain. Our names don’t make us saints,” she replied. “I bought ecstasy,” she said after a moment. “You ever done it?”

“No - just cult withdrawals. Gonna soak in an ice b-bath later,” he joked with a flat voice. If things were like normal - if he were like normal - Cain might’ve flicked her nose in response to her protests. Instead, he just scoffed, “Right - yeah, ‘course. Not a k-kid. Full adult. The maturity of a great elder.” eyebrows raised - then furrowed immediately after, “I know. I don’t - believe in God anymore - just, uh, jesting. Joking. Clowning a-around. Should probably return the red nose I’ve bought.” then - after a moment, “Ah - don’t remember. Pr-probably. I mean - at least once. Probably.” He felt as if maybe he should’ve - been more alarmed at the fact she’d bought ecstasy - and yet, nothing.

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ruthromanov‌:

“Leo,” she nodded her head, pealing the wrapper of a lollipop she purchased from a nearby tent. “You got in a fight with him? Uh oh. How bad was it? Will I end up in the trunk of a car?” Rolling her eyes at Cain’s comments, Ruth shrugged. “Maybe… Maybe I’m feeling like a Succubus tonight. Almost like an insect, in a way. Are you on drugs?”

“Yeah, Flower’s Fowlers - f-fuck, Fowler’s Flowers - whatever.” it was a brief, blurry image inside his mind; sunflower petals and blood droplets in a parking lot - Cain made a visible expression of disdain, if only for a moment, “Nah, d-dudes a twerp. Or was. Probably shouldn’t - uh, judge him or whatever. Uh - Christ, right, okay - forgot you weren’t a k-kid for a second there, go crazy, go wild or whatever everybody’s been, uh, saying. Drugs are against God, Ruth - very off-off-fuck’s sake-offended you’d ask. Clean as a whistle, here, a brand new toy whistle.”

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ruthromanov‌:

Ruth approached Cain with all the incentive of an eager teenage girl preparing to ask for parental permission to go away for a weekend, gesturing toward the kissing booth where Leo was positioned behind. “What do you think of him?” she asked. “Sinking my claws in soon.” @cainov

Much too high to process the carnival surrounding him ( he’d somehow manage to win himself a giant stuffed animal - it sat on the ground besides him like a faithful watchdog ) and only brought down back to earth at Ruth’s gesture - his eyes glided towards Leo, “Ah -” Cain began, itching the back of his neck, “ - that’s, uh - f-fuck, Leo-pole or something, right? Think, uh - I’ve gotten into a fight with him, before, act-actually. God - what does that mean? You planning on ripping him to sh-shreds? Eat his head like a preying mantis?”

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savcged‌:

he’d reached that stage of drunkenness that all he can taste is similar to that of burnt rubber on his tongue - he hated cheap whiskey but after finding out the news he had fled to the nearest bar to get himself drunk enough to come to terms with it all. she has no other biological family willing to take her in. strangely enough, the fury he felt toward the situation had set itself aside until now, and now his hand ached and bled after punching in a glass window on his way down the street toward cain’s place. he was notorious for not texting to let people know he was arriving at their house - but he’d texted him earlier. “ cain!” he bangs his non-injured fist against the door, face as pale as a ghost from nothing but clear shock. 

the text was unexpected - they hadn’t spoken much since ... everything that had happened; both preoccupied with their lives. but it felt different - that text - felt rushed and panicked. it set off an alarm in cain, not quite sure what to expect besides the bang against the door. “christ - you’re going to bring the door down with y-you,” he comments as he opens it - eyebrows immediately raising in concern at the sight of his old best friend, “christ,” cain repeats, opening the door wider, “what happened?” eyes skip around outside, looking for bystanders - he’s been taking the app more seriously now since the vote; the poster left him anxious. 

[cainov]

imessage - cain

leah: hellllloooooo are you alive

cain: as alive as i can be

cain: which is very

[cainov]

fvkmaeve‌:

her eyes glanced over the weathered pages, wondering what kind of life the novel had had before ending up int the brick and mortar store. “hangsaman is a book that earns its interesting connotation for sure.” maeve let out a slight laugh as she continued to organize the shelf.  “it’s about this seventeen year old who is unhappy with life and goes to college. however, when she’s at her college, she starts going down a terrifying path and you’re never sure what’s in her head and what’s exactly happening.” eyes glanced over them, making sure her rambling hadn’t bored them. “it’s actually loosely based on the disappearance of a real college sophomore, paula jean welden, in the 1940s.”

“same author as the h-haunting of hill house - shirley jackson, right? and the lottery, now that i th-think about it.” they turned the book in their hands, nodding along as maeve spoke, “ - ah, not sure if i c-could handle that, honestly. too many, uh, disappearances in cu-current time. you know? it sounds - well, still interesting. i’d probably like it - if we were in any other sort of cl-climate.” near reluctantly, cain slotted it into its proper spot on the shelf, resigned smile a ghost on their lips. “you’ve got a favorite story?”

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mvgnolias‌:

Maggie enjoyed spending time in Cain’s bookshop, even though most of the books in there were so old she was afraid to touch them she liked the quiet, the easiness she felt around Cain, as she thumbed through her own copy of a book for an art history class. “Tell me about the weirdest person you’ve ever gotten in here. I’m curious,” she asked, giving them a soft smile, head in her hand. @cainov

“Haven’t been opened for too long,” they admitted, re-shelving a stack of returned books, treating each one with care - the occasionally flick-through when a particular title stood out to them, “but - god, uh - I actually had this cou-couple come in last week, asked if I had any books on medieval BDSM because they wanted to sp-spice up their ... bedroom, life, I s’pose. They bought every one.”

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wickcddreams‌:

Kaeden restrained himself from any further comment. After all, he knew nothing of cat’s feelings but he was pretty sure they’ll be just fine. A dog was more prone to get affect by his owner’s absence or so did the numerous stories about dogs waiting around hospital doors, graves, parks, old homes and so on suggest. On the other hand, there were none related to cats - like cats didn’t really give a damn about their owners as long as they were provided with food and occasional snuggles. However, something else caught Kae’s attention, letting those thoughts slip. “You did?” He sounded surprised but then the guilt hit him harder than he was expecting. To be honest, despite their families relations the deputy harbored no bad feelings towards Cain. But his vote made him look like a complete douche. But the question was - if given the chance to go back, would he do anything differently? Probably not. So maybe he was a douche after all. “If you ask me, everyone has enough on their plate on a daily basis.” His words were followed by a casual shrug. “Either is fine by me. Though, if you’re offering, given the circumstances, something stronger than those might come handy.” It was a joke, though, was it really? Kaeden chuckled but his gaze was serious.

They weren’t expecting the sound of surprise - a slight eyebrow raise in response, “What was I going to do? Vote for my-myself? Like I said - wouldn’t vote for Ariella, and voting for myself is a pity p-party. Didn’t even know what was going to happen, h-honestly, though - but with the whole, uh,” Cain waved a hand, struggling to find the right words as they closed the door behind the darker haired man, “murders - didn’t wanna r-risk it.” They couldn’t blame Kaeden for who he voted for - regardless of if they did vote for Ariella or not - their past was not rainbows and butterflies. Cain had, frankly, left a bad taste in the mouths of most people they ran into. “Yeah but - it’s w-worse here, isn’t it? Like there’s something in the w-water, just making our lives shittier. I’ve got whiskey, if that’s your th-thing. You’re not on duty, right?” They headed towards the kitchen, dull thumps against carpet with every step, “Or - or coffee. Up to you, r-really.”

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oliviasgreen‌:

everything felt fragile around them, their entire world had fallen apart and they were barely starting to pick up the pieces only for this to throw it all down again. she’d seen the headlines lately, the arrests, the app still causing havoc, still no clarity on michael and what had happened and who had done it, and it all just felt like too much for either of them to handle. she felt she should be grateful to have cain back, have at least his hand to hold through this mess, but he was different, things were different with them, and it didn’t bring anything near steady to have him back. “can i do it?” she asked quietly, having followed him to the bathroom. she could tell he didn’t want her to touch him, kept recoiling every time she came near, and it seemed like that alone would make such a difference, if she could just reach out all the time and make sure he was really there, it was really him still. “please, i’ve been patching up wounds since — well, you know my luck with sports, it was more bruised knees and swollen lips than anything,” she said, trying for a smile, hoping to ligthen the mood even if just a little. “i’ll be careful.”

the walk to the bathroom felt farther than it was - as if his vision were zoomed out, as if he was taller than he was - cain froze in the doorway of his bathroom, hand coming to rub the back of his neck sheepishly. “ah -” he began, flicking the light on, “i don’t - i don’t th-think that’s a good idea ... it’s not - god, it’s not y-you or anything, by any means - i just, uh -” there wasn’t any good way to explain why she couldn’t help him, why he couldn’t bare to touch her - or anyone - there wasn’t any good way to explain any of the things he had experienced in his year away. things just happened. they just, were. “it’ll - it’ll do more harm than good, t-trust me.” cain said, finally, standing in front of his sink and opening the medicine cabinet - a quick glimpse of his reflection. a gaunt face, dull eyes - lanky in the wrong places, clothes feeling too big for his frame. “’sides - i’ve been, uh, learning.”

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savcged‌:

        brooks lifts his hands up in a shrug, hand visibly injured from a smashed whiskey bottle earlier among other things. “ to get some fucking work done, that was the idea.” he doesn’t recognise the voice of his old best friend until he looks up and matches the face to the voice, features settling a little bit. “ doesn’t matter, right?” he scoffs and kicks the remnants of the laptop aside, clapping his hand down on cain’s shoulder as he walks past him to retrieve the bottle of vodka he’d been forced to settle for. “ we never met up, huh? things got busy, my bad.” he laughs once, eyes either empty or sad as he catches the gaze of his friend - or ex friend - he didn’t even know anymore.

“christ, yeah - i can see that,” eyes trail towards brooks’ hand, “see you’ve gotten a-a lot d-done,” he feels - awkward? odd? misplaced - he feels misplaced, standing before his old friend. this doesn’t feel like his environment anymore - he’d almost forgotten the anger that could come with brooks. a visible flinch as the other man clamps a hand down on his shoulder - cain moves away after a moment, with a shrug and hands shoved into pockets, “it’s ... all good - i’ve had my own sh-shit to take care of, so ...” it’s been a long time but the look in brooks’ eyes feels different, brows furrowing. “are you ... okay?”

[cainov]

imessage - cain

brooks: dude can we talk?

cain: like, actually this time?

[cainov]

if livingstone was a sinking ship who would you save?

“A-ah … my family, for one … that’s just obvious, th-though, right? Brooks … always, and, uh, Olivia?”

( @savcged @oliviasgreen @lolitvas​ )

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fvkmaeve‌:

to most, stacking books all day would be mindless. for maeve: it was a second home. leave it to her when looking for a job while at college to find one at a little used bookstore nestled away downtown. she swore she could get lost in here for hours. each book had a history, each page had an owner. yes, the girl may have been one of those people who enjoyed the smell of books. as she continued to try and categorize the new donations, her eye couldn’t help but wander over to the person about a foot away from her fingering through one of the books. “interesting choice.” her voice small yet loud enough to be heard. “I mean, good choice. not interesting. well, I mean it’s interesting but interesting has such a negative connotation in this light because english is a weird language.”

it’d been long enough now that the journalists had finally stopped trying to shove their paper and pen, desperate for any sort of insight into cain’s situation, underneath the door of the bookstore; they were grateful for it - but now there were a seemingly never-ending stack of donations from the store being shut for the time that it was. they were meant to be helping - categorizing, but of course - wound up thumbing through a particularly old book; pages practically on the verge of turning to dust. “yeah? n-never read it,” cain’s eyes lifted, briefly, to glance towards their employee, smile small, “interesting’s better than just g-good. rather be called interesting than it, anyhow. despite c-connotations. what’s it about?”

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wickcddreams‌:

No one knew he’s here. Everyone looked so fixated on cracking the app that Kaeden didn’t even know if they’ve seen the news yet or if they even cared about them. There was no official order for the arrest of Cain yet or at least none he’d heard of. Which only brought him back to the question why was he here if there was no reason for it - the question the deputy still didn’t have answer to. Still, he was amused by the words that left Cain’s lips. “You’re more worried about your cats than the lurkers downstairs?” It showed in his tone even, though, it sounded reasonable - the cats Cain had connection with while the crowd downstairs were a bunch of strangers ready to turn him into a sensation. “I voted for you.” The confession slipped just like that. “And I’m not here to arrest you, I’m here to talk.” Not that he had any idea what they might talk about. Perhaps Cain could give him some clearance about the app and all of it but it could also turn out to be a dead end.

Unease weighed heavily ( on top of the previously mentioned avoidance and guilt ) on Cain’s shoulders - posture slumped as such, though they nodded semi-seriously, “Well, y-yeah. Don’t know what kind of t-trauma that’ll leave on them. Dunno if I can afford cat th-therapy.” Really - they were trying not to think about the people downstairs; they’d had enough for one day, had enough for the rest of their days, in fact. “Ah.” Cain paused - just for a moment, nodding their head again, “Yeah, th-that’s reasonable. I didn’t vote. Felt ... unfair. Ariella’s - uh, got enough sh-shit on her plate, yeah?” There was noticeable hesitation before Cain opened the door wide enough to let the sheriff’s deputy in - wary of his words; he could change his mind, right? Even so - they had nothing to hide; at least, they had forgotten the password to the things they were hiding. “Do you want...tea...or something? Or coffee - you seem like a black c-coffee kind of guy.”