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One of the gods is a maid who watches us from the moon. The print is available in my INPRNT page:

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hello . that languages game huh

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not romantic not platonic but a secret third thing [what would happen between earth and the moon if the earth stopped spinning as illustrated by xkcd randall munroe]

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Something something vampires have no reflection so he can't even try to see his brother's face anymore when he looks into the mirror

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The Iliad modern AU but make it Indonesian

Eng ver + explanation

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the cardinals are fighting

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the cardinals are fighting

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Was trying to imagine how Patroclus and Achilles would look like in @baejax-the-great fic Water in the Dawn if Patroclus ended up in Asphodel, and Achilles - in Elysium (go read it!)

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I love him so much you have no idea :’) he sounds so sweet

OG post: Twt

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Since Agamemnon showed up on one of the comics, do you have a design for Menelaus in your modern au

Yep! Idk if I've posted him here but here he is! :D Odysseus gifted him the tie :]

Also a little joke au where Menelaus had a 'drunk' fling with Priam when he was still in a band HAHAHAHA

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The Olympia Twins

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一 by the sea ｡

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husband..

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I am so fascinated by the way the cardinals speak to each other. On the one hand it's primo repression—everything they say has to be coded and danced around. It takes so many steps of formality and apology for Lawrence to ask Tremblay if the accusations are true, and even once he 'speaks freely' they're still doing a tango of subtext.

But on the other hand, all of that drama and symbolism affords them a way to speak really openly with each other, if they choose to. I mean, in what other context could somebody say "search your heart, and then tell me it isn't so" and be completely serious?

To say "I had the temerity to tell you to search your own heart..." as part of an apology to a friend without a hint of irony?

It's so performative, but also strangely sincere on another level. I would need a lot more words to ask even a good friend to sit on my bed and hold my hand while I have a breakdown over my shattered dreams than "Will you pray with me?"

Like yeah they can't say "I like you" or "The new guy's kinda hot, right?" but I can't tell my friends to search their hearts so...

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Toxic stupid catholic men and a liberal cardinal turned into a bald cat.

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PANOPTICON MAGAZINE | my pieces for @mcyt-couture-zine

sooooo delighted to have taken part in this incredible collection of works! find the full zine here, and head below the cut for so so many details about my piece:

TONS of yapping ahead. THIS ZINE PIECE KILLED ME. Literally I'm so sorry to everyone I was friends with who heard me mald about this for six months. Ultimately it had nothing to do with the wonderful modteam or contributors and was mostly me over-committing to a piece... But it turned out pretty cool <3

Very early on I knew I wanted to draw the nosy neighbors (everyone claps) and Limited Life. Pearl and BigB are THEE duo and just felt like the perfect canvas to explore fashion. The goal of my piece at first was transition: using clothing and jewelry to bring the characters through their lives in the Life Series. However, this piece (originally it was a 3-image spread) quickly grew too many limbs and ideas to be contained by one thing. There were animals? And coats? And legs. It was kind of hectic and I ultimately grew to resent the piece's direction soooooooo 1 week before the 3rd check-in I started over BigB's and completely spliced up Pearl's ^_^ (Which was, in hindsight, the right thing to do and I should have done it weeks earlier, but we ball. ANYWAY). Jewelry! I love sparkly things and jewelry and I love gold. It has deep cultural and familial significance to me (and also is just very very pretty). So instead of using the jewelry to express their identity within limlife, I wanted to represent their characters as a whole within the Traffic Series.

PEARL: The Wolf (الذئب) I really love Pearl's post-DL identity as the guardian of her friends, taking a backseat from her lonelier days. I also love coding her as a knight ^_^ As a result, she wears fewer pieces of jewelry which mostly serve as tokens of sentiment.

Clock earrings serve as an homage to the time mechanism in Limited Life

Eye Ring ties her to BigB and his association with the evil eye in my previous works

Claw Nailed-Rings and Wolf Ring to bring some animalism and brutality to everyone's favorite wolfgirl (the wolf ring is worn on her left ring-finger, symbolizing her union with Tilly)

Emerald Mound meant to represent her Mounders from SL

Unicorn Brooch is another symbol of loyalty to BigB (who in the first draft of this piece had a unicorn animal companion... You've seen Thello butterfly-code BigB now get ready for unicorn-coding <333)

Galactic Text: "How to trust after being abandoned by all your loved ones and hunting down your ex only to be spared by him... Exclusive!"

BIGB: THE PRINCE (الأمير) THIS WAS THE PROBLEM CHILD PIECE... As mentioned I completely started over. Checks watch. Around a month before it was due after spending So Long on the original. But it turned out for the better! I love making BigB very princely and regal (and a little strange /pos) in my interpretations of him in other pieces of art, so this magazine-type cover felt like no different of an opportunity. He doesn't get the chance to be glamorous very much, so let's change that, shall we?

Fairy Wings Ring represents the Fairy Fort in Last Life

Heartstabber Ring is an homage to Double Life <3

Lilypad Ring to honor Judge Judy from Limited Life

Wolf Brooch is a symbol of patronage to Pearl, his knight.

Watch is BigB's homage to the time mechanism in Limited Life

Bee Ring is engraved with "The Jester" in Arabic along the side, with an amber-cast bee to symbolize being frozen, stuck in time and older memories.

Evil Eye Jewelry the evil eye has a deep cultural and spiritual history across different regions of the East and ME/NA regions of the world. In my upbringing, the presence of the evil eye was worn on jewelry, woven in to clothes, and hung on tapestries/ doorways to ward off the negative energy of the malevolent gaze.

The name "panopticon" comes from the social theory of surveillance from the 18th century. I'd learned about it years ago in my uni days and the concept of a watchtower-style surveillance system stuck with me: a concept where all participants of the system would be watched at all times, but could not watch back. With how often height, scaffolding, and surveillance were present in metagame play during Limited Life (the Nosy Neighbor tower, Bread Bridge, Skynet/Skynet2), I felt like the term panopticon felt relevant to the unique gameplay style taken on by the players during this season.

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