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This post is messy but I think my idea is fun so I decided to share c:

Warning!!!! there are a lot of spoilers ahead if you haven't finished part 1 of the novel

My wonderfull brain made up and au where Cale is in his og body and a butler to Alberu

I've name it Butler of the Royal family and have already written the first two chapters but it takes me ages to write so I will just share my ideas for now . Haven't poster the chapters to ao3 yet

This is inspired by that one part of the God of Despair tests . Where Cale is in the body of some random guy and acts as a butler for small Alberu who is in a bad position as a teen. You know - the one where he turns the palace on its head so he can give Alberu a decent meal and wreaks havoc as usual. Calls him "Your Royal highness" , changes the furniture to better ones in the palace and then almost gets killed by the king . I love it a lot it's super cute and makes me soooft

This but it's the reality

So basically Kim Rock Soo is punted into the Forest of death Choi family style and is a transmigrator not a reincarnator (idk if that's what they're called) so he's not in Cales body and the deal with GoD hasn't happened

The thing is - he's away too early than the setting of The birth of a Hero . Alberu and Cale are only teens and Harris village is still standing

Here's where I take many liberations with the accurate ages and such - mainly I ignore them and just change them so they can fit my silly scenarios

When Rock Soo realises he's earlier than the events in The Birth of a Hero he decides to go make a deal with that glib crown prince . He's trying to scam him to get money for slacker life or smth . But then he sees the sorry state that is Alberus palace and how they mistreat him. And basically hires himself as the head butler to fix things because of course he would. The rationalisation in his mind is that he needs the crown prince in power to ensure that Roan will be ready for the future wars and he can live his slacker life without worrying about that

In the end he takes the reins as commander in the war and is a hero like in canon as is expected of our clown mc

That's about it

I'm mostly thinking about how different Alberu will grow up with Rock Soo as his butler . He has someone he can actually depend on now!!

Kim Rock Soo relationship with everyone will be different which is the fun part for me

He's a dad of one crown prince (even if he won't admit it) and baby Raon .

Raon!! He's still an egg in this but don't worry Rock Soo won't ever forget his dragon son so he goes to steal- I mean rescue Raon and a few other valuable things he finds in that cave. So Raon hatches from his egg into Rock Soos warm hands and is coddled and loved as he should be. Only the best thing for the dragon baby

And!! Rock Soo is about the same age as Ron in this cuz I said so - around 36 I think. And so! They're best friends. Of course Rock Soo is terrified but still

Ron finds him funny and decides to keep him around just cuz

Haven't thought everything out but yeah

I will share the many memes I've made for this and hopefully they flesh out my concept more and how the interactions change between the characters and sometimes doesn't really

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How Kim Rock Soo became Butler!Rock Soo:

Rock Soo going to meet the Crown Prince: Gonna strike a deal to help him with the future wars and secure slacker life. Planning only of course I don't wanna fight

(He's delusional your Honour.)

teen!Alberu in an unkept office, clearly malnourished: And may I ask for what reason you seek my help? ಠ⁠���⁠ಠ

Butler!Rock Soo: ... for the butler position.

teen!Alberu: Pardon?

(Butler!Rock Soo was won over by teen!Alberu spectacular sad boy energy. If no one was going to take care of Roan future king then goddamn Rock Soo will do so himself. No child should starve especially the kingdoms future ruler. Besides he's securing his comfy slacker life. The crowns prince head butlers salary is sure to get him enough funds for a long cushy retirement. And if he gotta give the lil prince power to give him that salary himself well you gotta do what you gotta do for slacker life / this is how Rock Soo convinced himself to come out of his retirement and become a butler)

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Butler!Roksu doing the parent™ thing and casually dropping the most fucked up backstory in the middle of a conversation: I don't really have food preferences since I was so used to starving as a kid and teen. As long as it's made by the royal kitchen it's tasty.

teen!Alberu who asked what his favourite food was: (⁠@⁠_⁠@⁠)

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teen!Alberu: *complaining about some annoying noble:

Butler!Roksu: I suggest scamming

teen!Alberu: You always suggest scamming

Butler!Roksu: Hasn't failed us so far

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teen!Alberu: *in the middle of a hormonal angst*

Butler!Roksu: I don't remember being like this when I was younger (he was worse)

/Not the isolated lonely teen roksu angst what will we dooooo

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teen!Alberu: I know your secret identity don't even try to deny it

Butler!Roksu - a transmigrator: "shit how to explain this"

teen!Alberu: You're a noble in hiding!! Probably from a foreign country

Butler!Roksu: Your royal highness your brilliance is unmeasurable and intellect beyond our understanding. The future of our Roan is in capable hands

Butler!Roksu: "I mean I needed an alibi so might as well accept this"

(Slacker life waves at Roksu goodbye as they fade into nothingness)

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teen!Alberu and teen!Cale - proud members of the neglected by their father after the traumatic death of their mother and raised by their sketchy (vicious) butler club

(It do be like that sometimes)

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teen!Alberu: Roksu is saying to get to know Cale... Probably so he can be my future ally . He seems rude and a drinks a lot idk how he will be of any help but if Roksu thinks he's useful there must be something

Butler!Roksu setting up play dates with Ron: My kid needs more friends. All he does is brood and study.

(Roksu is a concerned parent for his shut in kid)

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Ron about og!Cale: I do have a fatherly role in his life but I must still maintain my distance as his survent

Roksu about Alberu: That's my prince son. I love him very much but will never admit it.

(Ron tries to maintain his distance and keep their relationship somewhat servant/master. He's failing but that's another question.

Roksu tho? He saw a lost teen with trust issues, asked "Is anyone gonna adopt that?" and didn't wait for an answer.)

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Choi Han who hasn't seen other Koreans or even heard the language in literal decades vs Kim Rock Soo casualty strolling into the village asking how he's doing in korean (the only language he knows)

FIGHT

Choi Han loses. He doesn't know what's going on. He's very happy tho.

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Kim Rock Soo: Choi Han probably thinks it's very annoying having to translate back and forth between me and the villagers. Better learn this roan language soon so as not to bother him

Meanwhile Choi Han who follows him like the lost puppy he is just so so happy to hear his mother language and to help his huyng

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Rock Soo spawning from the Forest of Darkness: (◉_◉)

Harris village folks: oh my god there's another one

Rock Soo: tries to communicate with them and is respectable

Harris village folks: AND this one is not feral!!!

(Thus began the rumor that strong people with black eyes and hair come out from the Forest of Darkness like some kind of mythical creatures)

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Harris village hearing banging on the door separating them from the Forest of Darkness: No monster has tried to come here in thousand of year we ARE DEATH AAAA

Choi Han taking out his sword: Don't worry I will kill it before it makes a single sound (⁠•⁠‿⁠•⁠)

Rock Soo outside the doors: My legs are tired :⁠-⁠\ . I hope they come soon

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Buff scarred 36 years old Kim Rock Soo in a maid dress

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Raon to his fellow dragons and honestly every human and non-human he gets to talk to: This is my human (dad) and he's very weak !! You have to be careful with him ಠ⁠ᴥ⁠ಠ

Teen!Alberu introducing his new butler to his fellow nobles: This is my frail butler. He's very old and ready for retirement so please be mindful with him (⁠•⁠‿⁠•⁠)

Enter Butler!Rock Soo - a shredded middle aged man with scar tissue more than clear skin: I will be in your care

(Teen!Alberu knows exactly what he's doing with this. Rock Soo and Raon are 100% genuine xd. // Rock Soo is delusional in every form)

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Butler!Rock Soo realising Ron is the same age as him: Fuck you what do you mean "an old man assassin"?!? Do I look old man age to you. If you think 30s is old age then this was written by a toddler smh

Choi Jung Gun feeling offended: This is all your fault

GoD: you're so mean to me (⁠｡⁠•́⁠︿⁠•̀⁠｡⁠)

(Rock Soo seeing Ron for the first time and thinking he's being called old/ teen!Alberu will later confirm that claim)

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Rock Soo and Ron should be besties change my mind

Butler!Rock Soo: scared shitless of Ron most times. Shares relatable™ moments with him cuz they're both raising- I mean working for kids

Ron: Rock Soo amuses him and he likes actually having friends that have seen some shit and he can talk semi-normally to

Lots of taunting in their interactions courtesy of Ron who is entertained to no end at the taller and buffer man flinching at him sharpening knifes and alluding to murder

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Ohmygod. Ron finds a new hobbie - he picks up woodworking - he makes lil wooden figures specifically cuz it dullens the knife he's using. He holds onto the knives and wait until Rock Soo is around to sharpen them so he can watch him freak out in minimal twitches and constipated faces

He enjoys it more than he should but c'mon

Ron pulling out a knife to sharpen for the first time in front of Rock Soo:

Rock Soo's bear fighting looking ass: *does a lil twitch

Ron: ಠಿ◡ಠ

Rock Soo: *actually shivers

C'mon who wouldn't wanna do that again. Rock Soo on his clown behaviour smh

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Butler!Rock Soo and og!Cale still understand eachother the best !

Butler!Rock Soo: I'm gonna retire and live a slacker life in peace

Og!Cale: Okay that sounds nice hope you get it soon...wanna hear about how I lost my mom

Butler!Rock Soo: sure kid lay it on me

Like Rock Soo still takes the time to sit and listen to Cale tell him about what he's going through even though he finds this annoying. And Cale truly believes and hopes Rock Soo achieves his dream

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Tcf doodles part 3!!

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What’s your fantasy?

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i read the recent chapter where cale bleeding so hard he cant even breath properly and that makes me want to read all moment of him bleed and faint from the beginning

does anyone know the chapters? 😭😭😭

pls helppp

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i REALLY LOURVEEEE TO SEE MORE OF CALE SCAMMING FACE LIKE HOW DOES THIS WORK??? IF HE CAME TO ME WITH THAT FACE IMMA GIVE HIM EVERYTHING I HAVE AND EVERYTHING HE WANTEDD

I EVEN WILLINGLY ROB A BANK FOR HIM OHMYGAWDDD

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and then come team leader LSH who observe him for a while and noticed something wrong

"roksoo, are you really okay? hmm?"

"nothing much team leader, maybe you should worry about yourself more now that you are a child"

"hey, im still your hyung no matter what"

"haahhh.. its nothing but.. i thought maybe i should help them yk" " what if i suddenly gone so I--"

"you little punk, you re dying ?!"

"not like potentially dying is not common here--"

"thats not the issue!"

idk if this make sense or act related but dis is what i thought

I want a fic where Cale is terminally ill, but doesn't tell anyone.... He tells them he wants to be a slacker, but in reality he's using the rest of his time to set it up so the people he loves can be slackers like how he wants to be

Like it's so much work... But Cale complaining and marching on with his bleeding heart... Maybe he's real stuck in the idea that he's a piece of garbage and doesn't understand how much they love him as well??

Does this exist 😭😭

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I was gonna post this as a reply for this post by @he4d-banger but it got too long so I’m making it a separate post.

I have talked about this before but I’ll talk again because I love talking about Cale’s complex emotional state.

More than pushing them away, Cale completely ignored his grief which has made him completely emotional constipated. This has lead to many side affects which get glossed over most of the time since we read the novel from Cale’s pov.

Some that I can remember from the top of my head right now are: dissociation, selective memory, depression, anxiety, stress and tons of physical problems like eating disorder, etc. which I’ll get into more another time. His self destructive tendencies based on the decisions he makes are all because of his emotional constipation.

Cale’s denial over his own symptoms has become chronic over the years even tho it’s fairly visible from other peoples perspective. Some instances I can remember where we see Cale’s condition from other peoples pov are: moments when Alberu tells him he’ll definitely get his slacker life, everyone’s reaction to him smiling after crying, Choi Han meeting younger Cale, the villains’ reaction when Cale gets angry, everyone telling him he’s too weak and skinny, Ron and Choi Han’s pov during side story 7 after Cale dreamed about CJS and LSH first death anniversary, etc. Everyone can recognize that he’s not well.

And about the venting on destroying stuff, that’s exactly correct. Many times when we see the fight from the other pov of the villain, most of the dialogue is about how angry and terrifying Cale looks. Of course part of that could be due to the effect of Dominating Aura, but they specifically mention Cale’s expression and the look in his eyes a lot. That’s what truly terrifies them. Cale doesn’t recognize this but he’s really expressive, everyone says that he’s very expressive and lets his emotions slip through his face.

Another case when he couldn’t control his emotions anymore was when he cried. An interesting fact is that people who aren’t used to crying and/or hold themselves back from crying, once they do actually cry they can’t stop the flow of tears and are motionless and/or rather calm and quiet. It’s that silent unstoppable crying that Cale displayed. His grief finally exploded after meeting LSH and he couldn’t understand the sadness he was feeling at that moment because the meeting ended with consolidation and relief. All the pain over the deaths of his best friends finally released.

That is a complete contrast to his reaction in side story 7 after the first anniversary of his team’s death. When he arrived home he just collapsed on the floor expressionless. Not once did he cry. But the way he collapsed at that moment said a lot about his state at the time. All the stress accumulated in his body from holding back his emotions all day today affected his physical health to total exhaustion

Actually in my opinion SS7 is one of the best chapters about examining Cale’s emotional state. There are multiple visible of him suppressing his emotions like: keeping a neutral expression all day around, refusing to mention what day it was tomorrow even though everyone knew, not closing his eyes in front of the grave because the memories would resurface, the small panic attack shown by his shortage of breath, background silence and feeling of heaviness, and you can see how burned out emotionally and physically he feels. The only way he wouldn’t feel these things was by working, as it is noted multiple times throughout the story that he never took days off.

And my favorite moment was when we see Cale waking up from the dream and very clearly experiencing signs of ptsd and a panic attack. He was feeling cold despite the entire house being heated with magic, cold sweat running down his face, shortage of breath as soon as he woke up and a distressed expression as shown from Ron and Choi Han’s pov He also felt the need to hear noises and pet the kids to make him feel a sense of attachment with reality since the silence in his memories made him feel suffocated. Tho Cale himself couldn’t recognize these symptoms.

That side story also shows how he has grown emotionally throughout the novel now becoming more emotionally open with others.

I can also go on about his selective memory, anxiety, get more into his self destructive lifestyle and about his obvious signs of depression during his team leader days and early part of the novel while touching on his childhood trauma, but this post is already long enough so I’ll leave those for another day.

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im just reading for my class but why does this remind me of cale and cheapskate

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I'm existing and my brain is trying to nerf me w these thoughts

What if Cale is just.. fated to die early no matter what but he somehow becomes a reincarnator as well

And the first time he dies, it's in the middle of the battle field, bleeding out with Raon sobbing against him. The night sky is as beautiful as the first one Cale showed Raon. His paws gentle as he wracks his brain for any spell that could save his human.

They both know its too late.

Cale is getting colder and colder, and it's getting harder to keep his eyes open, but Raon's heat against him is so soothing.

"human! You can't die!" The little dragon sobs, his eyes glistening like the stars in the sky above them.

Cale feels oddly at peace. Their group had dispersed to handle their individual roles in this fight, leaving only him and Raon in the rear. Before he or Raon could even react, numerous spikes shot up through the ground where he stood. They disappear as quickly as they came, leaving him staggering with blood gushing from his mouth. Raon had helped him down to the ground instead of collapsing.

Cale opens his mouth to offer any kind of reassurance to the dragon, but the devastation that danced in those azure eyes stopped him. They both knew what was coming and there was nothing they could do to stop it.

"come find me next time, Raon"

His voice comes out as a whisper as his lungs strain to take in air, his breathing laboured and wet. He's sure that there must be some sort of puncture in his lungs with the way it's getting harder to breathe with every passing second.

Raon shakes his head in denial, unwilling to believe that only one of them would make it back to their home to greet the others.

"raon miru.. promise you'll find me?" He wheezed painfully, "think.. 'll be.... L'nly.."

"no no no... Human... Cale, you'll be fine, smart Rosalyn and Goldie gramps will come find us soon," Raon's words come out desperate and hurried, "I called them over... They'll know what to do!!"

It's getting hard for Cale to see clearly now, his little dragon becoming a blurry blob with blue eyes. They won't make it in time.

"..please?" Cale whimpers, weakly reaching up to place his trembling hand on Raon's head.

Something seems to click in the little dragon's mind as hot tears continued to stream down his face.

"Promise. I'll find you, Cale Henituse," Raon's voice is small, smaller than Cale has ever heard, "I'll find you.. like how you found me... I swear."

With those words, Cale feels like the invisible weight on his chest lighten and he closes his eyes with a smile

"b' goo'.. ohn, h'ng too.." his words come out slurred against his heavy tongue, "luh you."

Raon's haunting cries echo around the battleground, ringing out around the clashing of metal and thudding of boots against the dirt.

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The first time Raon finds his human again, he's grown to be a few meters long, definitely too big for his weak human to hold now.

(Raon aches to be held in those safe arms again. He wishes that he could be small again with his human's arms wrapped securely around him. If he were in Cale's hold, he would always be safe).

A familiar wave length invades his senses and his wings flutter in excitement. There's no way that this wasn't his human.

Raon changes to his human form with a jump, easily landing on two legs, and then breaking into a sprint towards where he sensed his human.

A small child with blond hair sits at the base of a willow tree, his small hands plucking at the grass as he waits. Familiar reddish brown eyes snap up to meet Raon's unblinking gaze, genuine happiness dancing in them like how the sunspots danced on the ground of the forest. Raon's face is damp with tears as a sob tears it's way out of his throat.

"my dragon's such a crybaby, huh?" The unfamiliar childish voice reaches the dragon's ears.

Raon's feet move on their own, bringing him in front of the boy before his knees began to wobble. His now little human opens his arms in a quiet invitation for comfort as tears begin to cling to his own lashline.

His human is so small now... So, so achingly small. Their places seemed to have reversed. It had once been Raon who snuggled into the warmth of bigger arms. Now, he's bigger and stronger than his human. Raon hopes that he can provide the boy with the same comfort and safety that he had received as a child.

His little human buries his face into Raon's neck and he distantly remembers how he used to do the same thing to Cale. Tiny fingers clutch at his sleeves as the boy shakes with muffled cries.

He found him like he promised.

"I missed you so much."

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Tbc ??

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thinking about khr out of nowhere….

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Yor’s comfort squad.

(Post reveal, of course)

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Semantic Error unseen bloopers....just look how comfortable they are with each other❤️

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This is the last take of the last shooting day!

PARK SEOHAM and PARK JAECHAN SEMANTIC ERROR: THE MOVIE (bloopers)

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Every day I wake up thinking about how Cale's transition from hunk to twink is revolutionary.

Like, in other isekai, you get those plain dudes who turn into cute twinks sure, but it's instant. They transmigrate, and it's a new skin bag for them. They didn't earn that prettiness. They just up and died, and god decided to bless them.

Cale had to be lazy during war time and twinkify himself. He said god is useless, and he had to roll up his own sleeves for it.

I think that's powerful.

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cannot believe i went into orv thinking "okay well i see people shipping the two male protags of this but its probably just classic two dudes who are friends being shipped without any real evidence syndrome." like tbf the last popular korean webnovel i had read was trash count which sorta has that syndrome going on and shipping culture now a days is just kinda like that. but ohhhh boy. from the minute ldj snapped yjh out of mind control for a second in the movie cinema dungeon i was gone. these bitches are gay. and then you get to the dark castle arc where its basically a silent declaration of love??? damn these bitches are gay for real holy shit

and now i sit with 12k of orv content and 3 different au ideas mostly centering around them. ive gone through the entire ao3 tag for them. the character arc is real and im living it

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I love de-aged Cale and I will NEVER shut up about it !!!

What if he gets deaged as a result of the group finding some beat up spell books and randomly trying them out one by one?

The smoke clears and they're faced with a tiny red headed boy with a piercing stare who doesn't respond to the name Cale.

Immediately, Choi Han comes to the realization and softly calls out a "Roksoo?" Which switches the boys attention to him instead.

"...how do you know my name?" His voice is barely above a whisper, and the group is holding their breaths in fear of drowning out their friend's voice.

Choi Han crouches down and tries to lie, spewing out some bs about how they know his parents ! But it all comes out so badly and they all have to refrain from smacking the back of his head or face palming. He thought it would make the kid feel better... But all he did was sound like some pervert trying to kidnap kids.

The look on the boys face gets colder, "don't lie to me. I'm not stupid. Now, who are you?"

Rosalyn bends down to his eye level and explains that he had been hit by a spell, and how it's probably hard to believe, but this was the "future" for him.

Roksoo pauses, deep in thought, before giving her a curt nod. There's literally a dragon flying around him... Time traveling or being wisked away to a parallel universe couldn't be too far off.

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They spend the day trying to fill him in on who everyone is and how they know him. His eyes sparkle at the fairytale-like adventures they tell him about. If this is fake... At least it's interesting.

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Eventually the kids all get bored of the formalities of getting him up to date, filling in the henituse family, calling the crown prince, and so on.

Hong jumps up with a sparkle in his eyes, "let's go show Hyung around our home!!" Now's the chance! They can play with him all they want because he has no responsibilities to do!!

They show him their rooms, pulling out heavy piggy banks and all their treasures and toys. Roksoo feels a pang of jealousy that he immediately brushes away, a whisper of "how nice" in the back of his head.

Raon drags him along to Rosalyn's lab, proudly displaying the mage's discoveries and current studies. There's vials of luminescent liquids surrounded by pages upon pages full of loopy writing. He can't read it for some reason. How weird. Plants he's never seen fill a corner of the room, their leaves billowing out towards a massive arching window. Everything he's seen so far is just so beautiful, so colourful. Life back home is just... Bleak. Nothing at home was ever this warm.

By the end of the tour they make it to the courtyard where everyone had been waiting. The three kids turn towards him with a glimmer in their eyes, before reaching out to take his hands.

"now we can play!!" They cheer, excited to show roksoo all their favourite games and toys.

"you want me to play?" He's never been allowed to play with the other kids before.

"do you wanna play dragon says?"

Roksoo scuffs his feet against the dirt, his eyes glued to the ground. He feels dumb.

"I don't know.." His voice soft and his eyes still turned downwards. He's scared to look back at them. Truthfully, he doesn't know how to play. He knows how to work, how to keep quiet, how to drink enough water so the hunger stops hurting for a bit... but he doesn't know how to play. The adults didn't like it when he played. Only good kids got to play.

The three share worried glances before asking if he's alright.

"I haven't been good though" he meets their eyes for a split second before ripping his gaze away, "only good kids get to play."

In seconds, they burst out in reassurances, demanding to know who said he wasn't good. Raon firmly and loudly tells him that he is the goodest human there ever can be. That no one else will ever beat him in goodness. Something crumbles inside him and roksoo finds his eyes feeling warm. He doesn't like crying. It's hard to be quiet when he's crying and holding his breath to muffle the sounds only makes him dizzy and feel worse.

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Tbc??? Idk