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Can it be possible to lose 30 pounds in 6 - 7 weeks?

Wk 1: 5lbs Wk 2: 10lbs Wk 3: 15lbs Wk 4: 20lbs Wk 5: 25lbs Wk 6: 30lbs

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2.22.2018

I woke up and felt like giving up, felt like I've lost all of my motivation. Why do we live? I don't understand. It's so hard. It's an endless cycle of constant pain and loneliness. At one moment, you're okay, but then before it hits you, you realize you're actually really not. I blame others when I'm the one to blame. I'm so weak. I don't care anymore. I don't know. I don't want to impress anybody. Let's not fool ourselves.

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JHOPE: JIN JHOPE SAW OMG JHOPE GLANCED AT MY SIGN AND KEPT ON GETTING BACK I FEEL BAD FOR JIN. JHOPE MADE OUR PLACE WET WHEN HE DRANK HIS WATER DURING CYPHER. SINCE HE KNEW THAT I WAS A JHOPE STAN, HE KEPT ON FANSERVICING US. BUT OFC, I COULDNT RECORD HIM SINCE I'M PUTTING UP THIS SIGN. YOONGI: YOONGI AND V SAW. RAPMON: I FELT BAD FOR RAPMON SINCE HE SAW YOONGI LED SCROLL. SO I KEYED IN RAPMON AFTER. HE DIDNT REACT MUCH AFTER. JUNGKOOK SAW AND HE STARTED BEING PLAYFUL. BABY V: V SAW BUT LOOKED AWAY AFTER. I THINK HE FELT EMBARRASSED. KOOKIE: BUT HE DIDN'T SEE MUCH. HE KEPT ON GOING TO THE LEFT SIDE. 3RD AND LAST CONCERT: I PUT UP YOONGI AGAIN DURING THEIR TALK. THIS MESSAGE WAS INTENDED FOR YOONGI BUT V WAS ON THE LEFT SIDE AS WELL SO MAYBE HE NOTICED. NOT SURE IF THEY UNDERSTOOD. YOONGI KEPT ON STARING AT THIS SIDE. I WASNT SURE SINCE I HAVE POOR  EYESIGHT AND MY GLASSES ISN'T AS CLEAR. THANK YOU :(: MEMBERS LOOKED BUT I DONT THINK IT MEANT ANYTHING. IDK FELT NOTHING WITH NAMJOON HUHU SORRY. STARTED OFF AS A JIMIN STAN, LEFT THE CONCERT STANNING YOONGI. WHYYY HAHA AND V WAS INDEED A CGV. ANG GWAPO NIYA SHEET. HUHU NAIIYAK AKO SA VISUALS NIYA. MAS GWAPO SILA PERSONAL. KOOKIE WAS OK. HE WAS PLAYFUL WHEN HE FOUND OUT THAT I WAS STANNING OTHER MEMBERS THAN HIM. HE COMPETED WITH THE MEMBERS AFTER THAT. DI KO NAPANSIN MASYADO SI JIN ESPECIALLY JIMIN HAHA. HE DIDNT OFFERED FANSERVICE THAT MUCH, I RECALL. JIN KEPT ON GOIING TO OUR SIDE, MAYBE WAITING FOR HIS NAME TO APPEAR ON THE LED SCROLL? IDK. JHOPE AND YOONGI TODAY IN TERMS OF INTERACTION. V IN VISUALS. YOONGI IS POGI ALSO. ANG KINIS NG MUKHA NIYA. NAMJOON PARANG WALA SIYA MAKE UP MASYADO. KOOKIE WAS KOOKIE. JIMIN IS JIMIN. JIN IS DOUBLE JIN HEHE JOKE. GWAPO NI JIN HAHA LALO NA SA SOUNDCHECK PALANG. OH DID I MENTION JUNGKOOK ON SOUNDCHECK? HE WAS SO CLOSE AND POGI EVEN WIGHOUT MAKEUP ON. V TALAGA, THO. THE EYEBROWS AAND THE MASK. JIMIN WAS SUCH A TEASE. ANG CHARMING AND SEXY NIYA. UGH. THE MAKNAE LINE. THE HYUNG LINE DIDNT GO TO OUR SIDE MUCH. SO I WAS MAKNAE LINE ALL THE WAY. I WAS IN 2ND ROW FROM THE STAGE. IDK FELT NOTHING WITH NAMJOON DURING THE CONCERT HUHU SORRY. STARTED OFF AS A JIMIN STAN, LEFT THE CONCERT STANNING YOONGI. WHYYY HAHA AND V WAS INDEED A CGV. ANG GWAPO NIYA SHEET. HUHU NAIIYAK AKO SA VISUALS NIYA. MAS GWAPO SILA PERSONAL. OMG habang naghintay for grab sa arena. Madami pa nagaabang na lumabas yung van nila. Turns out mga 1030, legit nakasakay yung bts member dun hahahaha. Nasa likod ng driver sila yoongi at rapmon. Tapos tulog na si yoongi pagod na pagod ata. Si namjoon gising. Tapos si jimin nasa side ng bus, tho natakpan lahat na windows ng curtain, sumilip si jimin! AHAHHA tapos nagsitakbuhan na yung mga tao patu hanggang sa gitna ng kalsada para habulin bus.

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I just enrolled in yoga class again after not being able to practice it for 4 months apparently. I was having trouble breathing or the yoga teacher was just strict. It's always the case when she teaches class. Anyways😏 I'm not the type who can juggle things simultaneously. Work vs exercise vs study so that's my concern. I'm leaning towards exercising now. Btw did I mention that I gained weight? 3 kilos since January? Ugh. I gain weight easily since I eat a lot. If I dont do proper exercises, I get fat and it's noticeable. I cant close my slacks, the leg parts are too tight etc. Last week I was so engrossed with work, and now I feel like I'm gonna be engrossed to yoga. When I was stil DLing, I was engrossed intk reading. I read on my spare time. Idk but I started to choose gimmicks over studies hence, the person I am now. Ugh. I have to have a change of heart. 😑 (lol persona reference)

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I just enrolled in yoga class again after not being able to practice it for 4 months apparently. I was having trouble breathing or the yoga teacher was just strict. It's always the case when she teaches class. Anyways😏 I'm not the type who can juggle things simultaneously. Work vs exercise vs study so that's my concern. I'm leaning towards exercising now. Btw did I mention that I gained weight? 3 kilos since January? Ugh. I gain weight easily since I eat a lot. If I dont do proper exercises, I get fat and it's noticeable. I cant close my slacks, the leg parts are too tight etc. Last week I was so engrossed with work, and now I feel like I'm gonna be engrossed to yoga. When I was stil DLing, I was engrossed intk reading. I read on my spare time. Idk but I started to choose gimmicks over studies hence, the person I am now. Ugh. I have to have a change of heart. 😑 (lol persona reference)

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I think I should find myself a competitor/ someone who can inspire me/ motivate me to do my best. When I was in college, there was this guy who was a consistent Dean's Lister. He was an accounting major and I think he was taking minor in literature too. He acted as our leader and he would lead each and everyone of us effortlessly. He thought that I was a dl too but with that I strove to become one also. I also have this coursemate, she was topping one of our prerequisite to our majors, while I was topping mine. Not to brag but, we both got excempted into taking the finals since we both were assured to get a 4.0 based on our quizzes. Lel I think this friendly competition allows me to bring the best out of myself. Now she's holding the title of a cert. mgt accountant. We both work on the same advisory field and we both construct models but I guess she's too far for me to reach. My senior associate in the office - there's no way in hell that I could surpass her skills. But I'm benchmarking my footsteps to my coursemate. Tho both of them are the best, not to mention I deem them as both of my idols when it comes into straighting their path out into their careers. The problem is my parents dont support me in taking up the CMA exam. How do I start from here? I dont have acredit card which could pay off the P60k enrollment fee. Sucks I wonder how I'll manage

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Time to go to work. I'm almost late. Ha! Please I dont wanna meet with my boss today. Well I guess the reason why I always feel like this whenever I get called into his office is that I lack preparation. What do I submit to him? What do I update him? The construction of the model's for one of our client's been long since due. Idk how to proceed. 😢 I feel lost. And there's also a minute that I need to submit. It should have been done over the long weekend but I decided to procrastinate. And look what it did to me? I'm cramming! I used to hate cramming! I do all my homeworks in advance but I think I'm going downhill...

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I think now is really the time that I rebrand myself. I want to be tagged as someone's who's devoted yet workaholic, sleep-deprived but knows her limits, responsible, integrous, curious, and has a thirst for knowledge. It's time to get back to my old self, where I once felt like a winner. That was 5 years ago. That was 2012. I was in college. I did everything for Him, for my parents and last but not the least, me. I got perfect 4.0s in my gpa. And that I wanted learning. It was at that moment that I felt accomplished. But look at where my life is headed to now. It's dreadful. All those times where I was appointed the group leader, where I constantly become the top 1 student in class, I don't see myself as accomplishing anything from the moment I stepped out of college. That's around 2.5 years now. My classmates who weren't really into studying have already titles beside their name. Mba, CMA, CFA. Ugh where am I now? Super disappointed. I hope a twist happens. Gambare! I'll just fighting! Ugh which reminds me kpop is such a drag. I blame Bangtan for this. Ever since I became an ARMY, it's gotten impossible for me to leave the kpop world. Ugh hate this. I hope I can restrict myself and discipline myself too because I can't help but always be hard on myself.

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Hi. It’s my first time joining here. Please be nice ^^ Uhm let’s just say that things have not been working out as I planned them to be. That’s why I’m here - writing out to you. I don’t even know if you could read this. I may be sounding a bit desperate and crazy for expecting that you guys will be able to read this especially since I’m an international fan and I don’t think you guys could understand and there’s only 0.1% you could read this since you’re busy with promotions. Well, I felt like I needed to write, just like I normally would when I’ve to let go off of some of my negative thoughts. To be honest, I’ve been feeling pretty uneasy, anxious, disappointed and constantly battling with myself lately. I think we all went through that phase at one point in life wherein we seriously doubt ourselves, even Bangtan members right?

To be honest, I found Bangtan 2 years ago when I was down and instantly felt the genuineness in their songs. Felt like that there was a connection between the songs they tell and since then I always relied on BTS’ music and listened to it whenever I’m feeling down in order to keep my spirits high. (I remember doing so after a breakup around that time). I fell in love with Bangtan and your music has inspired me to likewise do the same and better myself, like how you guys gradually rose and made it to the top, despite your humble beginnings, I also wanted to taste a bit of success as I, too, pursue my own dreams. I’ve been with Bangtan for 2 years but I see you guys progress and mature and become more diverse with your musicality. Meanwhile, as I’m starting out with my career, I’m stuck in the same phase again when 5 years ago, long before Bangtan even debuted, I actually found myself breaking down because I felt like a huge disappointment to the many people around me who showed their support and believed in me. I doubt myself and ask whether this path is really where I want to go and see myself in the future. Bangtan's music has really left an impression to me. But as of the moment, I think the best way is to shut myself out from the real world, go places alone and hope to discover many things about myself. As I cut myself off, this is not a farewell but please understand that. Let’s mature at the same time and I hope that 5 years from now, I will no longer see myself crying. I hope that one day, I could proudly tell myself that I've grown as much as you guys have, like I promised myself I would.

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Interviews just isn’t my forte...

Ohmyg. Had another phone interview. Myg. Iwas stuttering the whole time and was so nervous.I wasn’t prepared with the questions! It was usual. WHat did you do on your last job? Credit assessment duh. 

I have another interview later and I’m so nervous!! Shit.

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Sudden Job Interview?!

Ohmyglob. Job interview tomorrow! Apparently, BDO called me just a moment ago. Tho as soon as I heard “BDO", I thought, “No! Not a local bank again!”. I kinda felt a bit discouraged. Guess I’m not as hyped up as I used to be. Landing a career in the banking industry in the country used to be my dream as soon as I graduated from college. But right now, I don’t think banks do me. I mean, it has been a pretty hectic/ rough year for me when I started working in this particular bank: the amount of workloads, the low compensation, and not to mention, we’re totally understaff. I’m young and underpaid. I want to try other ventures, probably land a career in corporate finance, or other financial institutions or any of the ff.: 

financial analyst investment “ research    “ equity        “ technical    “ securites    “ quantitative analyst trader

Don’t get me wrong BDO is such a huge bank, one of the largest local banks in the Philippines, and one of the best too. And I might have to reconsider, depending on the line of work, if hired, and also if the compensation is just right. I applied for trade processor and judging from its job description, I don’t know what to expect since its generally abstract. Like it’s not specified enough, yeah?

Job description Responsibilities: Prompt processing/negotiation of foreign/domestic letters of credit booking to import bills/trust receipts, customer liability acceptance, bills received for collection, inventory financing TR, shipside bank guarantee ensuring compliance with the approved internal/external policies of ICC provisions. Checks completeness of submitted documents. Prepares and generates required reports. Performs other tasks as required by the department.

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D-25

Holy fuck. Shit’s getting real. It’s only less than a month before I take this licensure exam. Right now, I’m being preoccupied by fear of failure. You know naman if you’re going to pass and you know if you're gonna fail, too. And I suppose that the latter is more likely to happen. I’ve been thinking how I ended up choosing this road and how many times I’ve wanted to quit. I suppose at the end of this road, it’s either I succeed or not. I’m feeling like this because I’m not confident. I haven’t been bringing my A game even tho I said a couple of times before that I would. I just wanted my old college life back- determined, motivated, integrous, and responsible. Now, I’m just a slacker, procrastrinator, and ingrate. 

Whenever someone asks me if I’m ready I just nervously laugh. FML, I’m not.

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Goals to realize.

Damn! I’ve only got a couple more weeks before I take that exam in June! I’ve gradually progressed and covered most of the topics over the past 2 months but as soon as I got back here in Manila last weekend, I’ve done nothing but procrastinate. Sucks. I knew it would turn out like this after I completely went hiatus on life.  Right now, my schedule is pretty much booked for the week. Dinner in Uptown Place Mall in BGC, lunch out with ex-office mates yesterday, dinner on Thursday, pa-last day of my ex-boss and Marvel Civil War on Friday, and overnight in Pansol, Laguna over the weekend. 

Focus. Focus.

I gotta get back on track because I’m definitely falling behind schedule.

I'm going to cram this shit like I've never crammed before. Go hard or go home, b*tch. Damnit! Huhuhu. Last night I dreamt of taking it without even being to answer half ot them, not knowing anything especially on the analysis topic. Gotta need to take the topic tests and mock exams too. I haven’t taken them yet. HUHU. I don’t wanna fail like I’ve failed before. I hate the feeling of failure. Damnit. 

Annyeong! Peace! Hahahuhuhhueue

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ZZZ

This day went better than expected. It didn't really end up as unpleasant as I thought it would. Monday mornings are usually bland for me because after all the fun of the weekends, I know that it's going to be the start of a work week again. People around me generally do have the same kind of vibe every first day of work. The I’m-tired-and-I’m-in-a-bad-mood-so-I-don’t-wanna-be-bothered-today kind of vibe. I mean, who wouldn't dread Mondays? It’s the first day of work and stress so people at work, including me, are almost always not in their usual cheerful mood. Fortunately, the guys at work were pretty sweet so my bad mood completely melted away. I wondered and reckoned that maybe it’s the effect of the long weekend. I hope that we get to have days off often. When I was in college, we only have classes from Mondays to Thursdays. Then we can party as much as we want, have sleep overs and whatnot. In our school, it’s called “Happy Thursdays” or “Happy-T”.  Pfft college kids. KKKK.

...

The heat in this room is starting to be unbearable and I can feel a bead of sweat on the side of my forehead. I need to change back into my casual clothes. My bro’s going to pick up my sisters tonight and I need to go with ‘em cuz the car’s need some refilling and I have to go cuz I need to sign even though I want to sleep so badly now, you know? 

zzz

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02.09.15;

I don't have time to fall in love... Again.

Just some random thought. 

Idk falling in love and investing too much time and effort on it, I think it just wouldn't suit my present self. Like I'm too focused and so delved with my work right now, and things like falling in love would just jeopardize my "already mediocre performance". Like some guy, whom I've grown to like, leaving work shouldn't bother me. At all. I say STAHP. And stop with the topic. I know it was a stupid decision to let him know of my feelings. And the rest of the 5th peeps. I'm too popular now with the IBG people on the 5th in combank1 & 2 and the IBG-facto. Huhu. I'm Known as the fugly nerdy credit girl who likes the hottie perfect facto guy. I guess they're judging me right now. Now, I regret everything. Nothing's going to happen between us anyway. 02.09.15 ends it all. He left his last good bye on spark this 8 in the morning, when I wasn't even at work. So okay... This is it then...

AHH! What am I saying?

Focus. Focus.

Tomorrow, it's Tuesday again, and of course, I'm to lunch with the 5th peeps. I'm 100% sure that IT will be the topic all over again. Please, don't remind me of him. Past is past. And I don't plan on pursuing and making any connection with him anymore. He's too perfect while I'm just too plain, and fat, and unattractive. Trust me, just seeing his FB, IG, and twitter, I guess he's too focused on his would be-career too. 

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My feelings don't even hurt the same anymore, I just be like "damn"

When I get hurt the first time, it would be very difficult for me to recover and act like nothing happened. Sure, I can fake it, but deep inside, I'm not the one to trust you with anything anymore. Okay?

So I guess, she saw my latest blogpost. Saw how it was all too emo, so she PMed me on FB. I mean don't talk to me right after you broke our friendship and insisted that we won't ever get to cross paths again. So yup, I wasn't referring to you if that's what you think. It's my colleagues and office friends. How I long to be close with them but the next, I don't. Like two magnets, the more you try to stick them together, the more they resist. And I'm the one who likes to push them away. Like there's always this invisible wall? I love them to bits but one day, I know that they'll disappear and leave me, so why continue to make an effort in befriending them? In the end, it'll just be you...

Annyeong! I guess I'm getting kinda too chatty and active here lately again. Idk. Writing in my diary just takes way more time than typing all these things that come into my mind right now. And, I've been meaning to write all over again and put my emotions with everything I write. Ahh. I guess after reading Sputnik Sweetheart by Murakami, made me feel like this. I just want to write and write and read and read. And Murakami has just made me feel that way all over again. After a long time that fire within me burned off a long time ago. But I feel it coming back to life again. Hehe. Want to reread the whole thing again, this time, feeling everything I read, and try to engrave everything into my mind as much as possible. 

Btw, today, I had a lunch out with CLU analysts and Ginny. I had a really good time. However, while there, I kept on thinking like the main chara, K, on the book. How for one thing, you have all these people around you, but still we feel empty and lonely. Idk, I couldn't explain it. But I just felt happy at that time but something has just kept on tugging on my chest. I knew that these things just wouldn't remain permanent and someday, they would disappear from my daily round abouts, and I will be left alone again.

You get what I mean? 

Like for one thing, I want to know more about them. Know how their minds work, what they're thinking. What keeps them so alive. How they make decisions and all. And talk about things. And try to reach into them as they would to me. 

Is this too deep? I've been thinking like K. Ohno. Ok this has got to stop. 

Annyeong, will be eating dinner now. Bye :-)

End.

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02.06.15.

I.T. and I met a little over three months ago. It was during our last day in our new employees orientation course. I never really noticed him that much before as he sat at the back row. Back then, I was seated at the middlest row with my batchmates from school. My first impression of him was that he was charming, tall, silent, a bit of a loner and a cool guy. Girls even swoon over him even after seeing him for the first time. 

So going back, my classmate, Alyssa,introduced him to us cuz they rode the same car going to Taft. We got introduced... I didn't pay much attention. I just knew that he was okay.

First day of work. I recognized him when he was following me at the back. I went inside 7-eleven to buy a chocolate drink, Chuckie. And then I noticed that he followed me inside the convenience store and bought something. A candy, I guess. I ignored him.

The next week, I found out that he was also working in the same floor as me. When I got out of the comfort room as I pampered myself, he tapped me on my shoulder and said hi. He was smiling. At that time, I realized that he was really handsome. The eyes, the smile, everything. But I was surprised and just smiled and went inside my office immediately.

I kept on seeing him alone in the canteen, buying alone. He was sort of a loner, I thought.

I confessed to my friend, YS, in IBG that I liked him. Then the news spread with two of my other friends in an instant. They started teasing me during our lunch outs in the canteen. But I just kept my cool, and remained relax because I knew that we don't look good together as a pair. They never even told me that we look good together.

YS in IBG told me to add him in Spark, a chat messenger in our office. I asked for my friends' help on how to start a conversation. The conversation was like one question one answer. Like, I started with "You're the Bibo Kid in Neoc Right? You're from 7th before? There's a neoc bar hopping. I'm from 7th as well, friend of Alyzza." When I told him that, he said that he remembered my name. And then, the worst thing happened. I stopped talking to him for a while. 

So YS sparked me that IT was on their floor as they are on the same department. This time IT's department left our floor and went to another building. So, I went down. I was so shy at that time. It was like reliving the first time I was going to be introduced to a crush by a friend. AL told me to act casual but I just hid in the bathroom and took a peak. AL told her co-officemate how I had a thing with IT while we were in the bathroom. Her officemate knew his name. Then, after I went out in the bathroom, I just took a peak at IT and stormed out. I sparked him that I saw him and told him that I just went down because I needed the AO's signature. Some senior colleague of Ian saw me that I was seeing him in a different way. That senior colleague chatted AL's friend. And then IT told his senior that I was annoying. :(

My friends told me to stop talking to him in spark. And I did. He sparked me that afternoon, but just ignored him. The next time I talked to him was 2 weeks after? When I needed someone from factoring and asked for his local and spark. 

The next time was just this week when I learned that he was already leaving the company. I asked how he's doing. And he told me that he was resigning already and that he was leaving this Friday. It made me so sad. Actually, it was just two days ago as I'm writing this. It's like the weight of the whole world was on my shoulders and my heart sank. Why so soon? I just told him goodluck! The following day, we didn't talk. And today, I thought that he was going to be absent since it was already 9am, but he still wasn't online! I was so sad because I haven't got the chance to say goodbye to him. I even researched on the net on how to make goodbye letters to friends/ colleague/ boyfriend. Not to mention, I found out his fb and his mom's. Hehe. And the night before that, I actually dreamed of DI, IT's senior that he called my local and asked me to go to their department. The first dream was when he was following me inside the mall with my mom, and he was blocking our way out. 

And then IT actually told me to go to their department since YS told him the truth on how I actually have a thing for him. He asked how I was going. I told him that I was busy and I asked him the same thing. He told me that he and his colleague are gonna have a despedida party for him and a party later. I asked him for food, and he told me that I should come to them, and I told him to deliver it only. Then he didn't reply. I guess he was already celebrating with his boss. But if YS haven't told him, I think DI thought that my other friend ST, has a crush on him. Since ST added him on FB what a friend!  So, IT asked YS about ST in spark. And YS was desperately including me on the topic. Huhu. All along, he thought that ST has a thing for him when it was me. Because I mentioned to them that about ST and AL the first time we chat so maybe he thought that I was only the messenger. AND DI thought that ST was me, the one from credit. Haay. ST and IT are friends on FB now! And ST even pmed me that. I think she also has a thing for IT tho she's just quiet about it. Huhuhu T3T. Ohwell, they are both chinese and ST is pretty and nice. And I think they'll get along really well and will learn a lot from one another. They even bumped into each other on the bus station and IT just ignored ST. And when he was already leaving, ST told me that IT doesn't even remember her name. I think he was just so shy that he couldn't talk to her properly last wed. :"> I think they're even my OTP. :< But she doesn't mind boys who has a secret crush on her anyway. She just isn't interested in things like that so I guess she doesn't have any bad intention in adding him. :)

So yep, not gonna add him tho. I'm just not like that.

I need to save cuz I'm gonna treat YS for telling IT on the last day.

Last wednesday, IT told me that he was going to play basketball, he's really popular? While I'm not. TT TT So all the more that I won't add hiiiiiim. Cuz my FB profile is lame. And I am lame. And it will only be a one sided love. An unrequited one. So yep. Move on....

Bye IT! Enjoy :()

Last Tues, Ms Ella, my senior told me that she was officially leaving. And I was tearing up inside, this time, I wasn't aware of the whole IT leaving the company. Hearing Ms Ella leave, got me teary eyed. And I was walking in Ayala Tri to go home, and I think I saw him on the bus stop. But I held my gaze on the floor, I wasn't in the cheery mood to talk to him or say hi. I was so depressed, I was crying. :(

Today, Ms Ella and 10, and I went to have our lunch out in Banapple. It was my first time and it was so yummy. :) And I only paid P168, when I was expecting 200+. Ohwell. I hope that they find what they want and be happy for whatever decisions and choices they choose. :) Gambarre!

PS, I've never told any guy that I like him so this confessing this feeling to a guy is def a new thing for me *n*

I think I'm also popular in the 5th floor as the girl who has a thing for IT so I'm really embarrassed when I pass by their to meet my friends during lunchbreak. Huhu. A while ago, I passed by Janina, and we locked eyes and she said hi to me, as I waved my hand. At the jeep also, Maan and I rode the same jeep together. I just called to her and texted my friend. It was so awkward that I had to reply to a friend in a very long text. I think she was staring at me, and I think she knew about me and IT cuz she was the one DI told about me and IT. But  when I got off the jeep, she told me to take care. I think she's nice. :) And a good friend as well. :)

I have so many dues on the third week of Feb! I dont think I can leave next week to renew my passports. :(