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ch. 2 – p. 6 - 8.

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when Charles Bukowski said "and when nobody wakes you up in the morning, and when nobody waits for you at night, and when you can do whatever you want. what do you call it, freedom or loneliness?"

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“If only we could see the endless string of consequences that result from our smallest actions. But we can’t know better until knowing better is useless.”

— John Green / Looking for Alaska

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for if the modern mind is whimsical and discursive, the classical mind is narrow, unhesitating, relentless. it is not a quality of intelligence that one encounters frequently these days. but though I can digress with the best of them, i am nothing in my soul if not obsessive.

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Reblog only if you miss Mr. Misha Collins already and think he deserved better

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how supernatural should have ended

DISCLAIMER: i have never seen supernatural. i will never watch supernatural because i have the horror tolerance of a wet breadcrumb. all that i know about this show and its finale i have gleaned via osmosis from tumblr, reposted tumblr posts, and my friend @barbarianbillyhargrove ranting about the terrible ending to me. ten bucks says it’s still better than the actual ending. here we go boys saddle up 

after castiel’s confession to a wooden dean and subsequent drag down to super mega uber hell or wherever he went, sam yeets dean into the passenger seat and they go on a drive bc he knows his brother needs to Process what just happened. they drive around aimlessly for a while and stop in the middle of nowhere. maybe a nice field 

sam: are you okay? 

dean: … he really loved me, didn’t he sammy?

sam: i think he did yeah

dean: i didn’t know he could do that 

sam: me either, man. shit’s weird.

dean: … 

sam: dean?

dean: we have some work to do

the next few episodes look like typical monster-of-the-week shenanigans, except you keep getting glimpses of little side quests and shit, like dean and sam randomly acquiring and researching a ton of arcane magical nonsense and not mentioning what it’s for at all

the dawn of the final episode: dean and sam open a portal to super uber mega hell. sam stays on earth to defend the portal and keep it open while dean heads in to find castiel, break him out, and drag him towards the entrance. whatever deity is lording over castiel tries to stop them. dean shoots it point-blank in the face with a winchester handgun loaded with an extra deadly bullet. he takes out its eye and drags castiel out of hell (nice throwback to castiel saving dean at some point i believe).

in the process of saving castiel from super mega uber hell, he loses his grace/angelic nature. by the time dean and castiel make back to sam, castiel uses up the last of his grace to seal off the portal permanently. 

dean: shit, cas, i - i’m sorry. you lost your grace, you - you lost it all. 

castiel: dean, it’s okay.

dean: how is it okay?! we went through all this trouble to save you and we couldn’t even do it right! you lost everything!

castiel: not everything, dean

castiel steps forward and puts a hand on dean’s face. dean closes his eyes and subconsciously leans into the touch

castiel: i may be human now, but my mind - my heart - are still the same as they ever were. i still know you. i still -

dean cuts him off with a kiss. sam reins in his brotherly teasing in this moment. does he take a picture for blackmail purposes? of course 

cut to a montage of cas, dean, and sam travelling around the country and fighting monsters. we see sam’s wife (more than a faceless blur!) and her children; we see sam as a lawyer; we see dean and cas’s wedding, we see them settling down in their old age to run a car repair shop.

dean is in bed. he is old. he does not look like he is wearing a spirit halloween costume. he closes his eyes. when he opens them, he is in a field. sam is standing there; it is implied that sam died first. sam and dean hug tightly. bobby (is that his name?) shows up and explains the new rules of heaven (which exist now apparently)

dean: wait, where’s -

the impala drives up from the distance. cas steps out of the driver’s seat. 

castiel: this must be heaven, you’re letting me drive

sam: can you all not be gross for five fucking minutes 

they get in the car with bobby and sam in the back. castiel manages to wrestle the keys from dean. bobby points them in the direction of the little house where sam’s family is waiting. they drive off into the sunset. carry on my wayward son plays over the credits

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T-T

Listen. I love Misha Collins so fucking much that watching that, seeing the way they really truly just pushed him aside and said “seeing Cas isn’t important, but let’s bring back this one character that literally no one even remembers for like one minute” actually shattered my heart. Honestly lemme just vent here for a second because Misha fucking Collins isn’t only responsible for such a beautiful ship but he gave me my comfort character in Cas. He constantly inspired me & not just through his acting. He’s interacted with fans, he’s supported ALL OF US in so many ways and he gave CW such an integral part of the show when he became Cas and I am so dumbfounded and hurt and angry that they really couldn’t (wouldn’t) bring him back for the last episode of the series he’s given years of his life for. They really brushed over the fact that Jack AND Cas fixed heaven together, which means he’s NOT IN THE EMPTY, and then gave us a bibro ending. I don’t even care about canon deancas at this point I would have been elated just SEEING him. CWspn never deserved Misha Collins.

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Estética Dark Academia.

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David with the Head of Goliath (detail). By Pietro Novelli, 1630

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✧･ﾟplaylists to help pass the time *:･✧

hi everyone! it’s been a while since i made a huge playlist masterpost, but i thought that right now when we’re all stuck inside wondering what to do with our time i would make a list of all my playlists. listening to music is so calming and definitely helps me pass the time…so enjoy! - cam

songs that remind me of a fashion show 

a mix of songs that remind me of driving down the coast 

a playlist dedicated to paris 

songs that inspire me 

a dreamy mix

songs to listen to when you feel carefree

a super fun workout/running playlist to keep you pumped up 

songs to listen to during golden hour 

a mix of songs to listen to on a sunny day 

a playlist full of songs that make me feel alive 

songs that remind me of my teenage years 

a study/coffee shop playlist to keep you calm 

songs to listen to on the weekend 

songs that make me feel like living in the moment 

a friday kinda mix !

songs that remind me of a warm spring evening 

a mix dedicated to nature 

my all-time favorite songs all in one playlist 

songs that remind me of flowers and sunshine 

a 12-hour long playlist of songs that make me feel nostalgic 

songs that remind me of going back to school 

my ultimate summertime playlist 

songs that make me feel like i’m in a movie 

upbeat songs to get ready to in the morning 

songs i’m currently loving & listening to right now

a playlist dedicated to italy and all its wonders 

songs that are soft and delicate 

a mix to listen to while watching the sunrise / sunset 

a playlist for a rainy and stormy day 

songs to listen to when you wake up ! 

another nature playlist because why not?! 

a monday playlist to make your monday more enjoyable 

my springtime playlist 

songs that are bittersweet 

my girl power anthems playlist 

for the daydreamers 

songs that remind me of the spirit of traveling & exploring 

a mix to listen to before bed 

songs to listen and dance to in your kitchen 

a super fun 70s playlist 

relaxing songs for a sunday 

songs that remind me of wintertime 

for people who love the east coast 

for people who love the west coast 

a mix of lo fi beats 

songs to listen to in your car at night 

fresh finds (new songs every monday!)

the ultimate sing along playlist 

an indie playlist 

the perfect road trip / daily commute mix 

a super studious playlist to keep you extra focused 

songs that remind me of the beach 

a mix of songs to listen to when you’re j chillin

songs that remind me of a trip to outer space !

listen to this when you’re in love 

songs for stargazing…

the perfect autumn playlist 

songs that make my heart flutter 

a mix of carefree & happy tunes 

the grooviest 80s playlist around 

a mix of golden oldies 

listen to this if you like rap / r&b 

another workout playlist !

a mix of fun, upbeat songs to dance to 

a playlist inspired by call me by your name

a coming of age playlist 

a mix of songs that deserve more hype 

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“The me you see isn’t me – I am my ghost.”

— Mahmoud Darwish, from ‘Mural’, Mural (trans. John Berger & Rema Hammami)

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Witchy Kitchen:  Rose Cremes

Rose Creams

3 tablespoons each heavy cream and Rooh Afza syrup. Next time I might tweak this to 4 tablespoons cream, 2 Rooh Afza

10+ ounces powdered sugar

12 ounces semisweet chocolate chips

2 teaspoons peanut oil

In a medium bowl, whisk together heavy cream and Rooh Afza syrup. Sift 10 ounces of powdered sugar and stir into the liquid until thoroughly combined. Add more sugar by the tablespoon until the mixture is very thick and starting to come together as a ball (although the Daily Mail wants you to be able to knead this on the counter, mine wasn’t anywhere close to that and wasn’t getting there even after 6 tablespoons, so I stopped there. Things worked out ok).

Cover with plastic wrap and put in the fridge for at least an hour and up to overnight.

Use the mixture to make ½ tablespoon-sized balls, which you can flatten slightly into disks, then place them in two batches on powdered sugar-dusted plates. Make sure the mixture stays cool so it doesn’t get too sticky, and coat your hands well with powdered sugar to make rolling them more manageable. Place in the fridge while you prepare the chocolate.

In a double boiler, melt the chocolate chips with the peanut oil, stirring occasionally. When they are thoroughly melted, remove from heat and cool for 10 minutes.

Line a baking sheet with wax paper. Using two forks, dip and roll each of the rosy fondant disks in the chocolate to coat, working quickly so as not to melt them. Place each on the wax paper and cool completely until the chocolate has hardened.

Makes about 30 disks, give or take a couple.

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richard siken / anne carson / arctic monkeys / salma deera / lana del rey / richard siken / ganjashleigh / maggie stiefvater / the japanese house

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Crush by Richard Siken // Two Girls in Bed by Henri De Toulouse-Lautrec // “Washing Machine Heart” by Mitski // David Altmejd // Wasted by Marya Hornbacher // Embrace Painting by Peter Wever