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Nobody asked for my review of these romantic movies *spoilers... probably*

Okay, so yesterday, I had a lot of time to do anything so I ended up watching 3 romantic movies back to back. Because I don't know if I would have enough to say about each of them on their own, I figured I could rank them by enjoyment factor and say a little about each of them. The movies in question, in the order I wacthed them, are Culpa Mia, Love Again, and What's Love Got to Do With It.

Starting off with my least favorite of the movies: Love Again. It was... I guess what I would expect of a cheesy movie... but creepier. I mean the whole premise is that this grieving woman is sending messages to the number of her boyfriend that had dies 2 years prior and a man gets the messages because that is his new work phone number. Even before I watched the movie, I was very skeptical about the premise, but I figured I would give it a shot, because I am in a romancy mood and I have been craving a good romance movie. I, also, love Priyanka and Sam and I was looking forward to seeing them in something I hadn't really seen out of the two. Their characters were... fine. They were awkward and kind of sweet. I did like Mira, even after the weird way she reacted to the death of her boyfriend in the beginning (which was fine and one way to go, but I would have liked to see more of the raw emotion that would come if that did happen in real life, though people do cope with things differently.) I ended up liking her character, though. Rob was.... creepy. I mean someone has to say it. He goes to the opera EVERY NIGHT to try and find this girl because she quoted it. That's kind of stalkerish tbh. And like this girl was grieving and sending her innermost thoughts to this number that she assumed nobody was receiving and he fell in love with her grief and became a bit obsessive about her. And being excited to hear from her is fine and everything, but he kind of used her messages to find her and make her fall for him and that just seems creepy to me, not romantic. In true romance movie form, she forgives him and they end up together, but I feel like that would be completely devastating to find that out and it might just be me, but I don't think I would forgive him or at the very least trust him if that happened, because that's like another level of effed up to me. The acting wasn't bad, I did like the gay friend and Celine Dion wasn't too bad. Nick Jonas also did a good job at being the dickhead. It was just more of what I would assume from a cheesy Hallmark movie, but a little creepier.

Now, the next movie, I really did like despite the premise. And that is Culpa Mia. There are a few reasons that this movie is number two in this list and not number one. The first and BLARING alarm of a red flag that this movie is which really 100% secured its position in this ranking is the fact that they are step siblings. While some may be able to argue that they aren't technically related, they are now siblings and that is incest which is wrong... and creepy. Seems like creepy is a bit of a theme so far. The second thing that really secured its spot for me is the tropeyness of the story. That, however, in my books is not always a bad thing. I love a good trope every once in a while, so I wouldn't completely knock it. This movie follows in the footsteps of a lot of fanfic-esque movies that have been happening lately, such as After, Beautiful Disaster, Perfect Addiction, etc. Two people falling hopelessly in love with each other and not being able to control themselves. I ain't gonna lie, this was done pretty well. I think they had good actors playing Nick and Noah and the two of them really did have some chemistry. I feel like a lot of people that found out about the two of them were a little too chill with the fact that they were siblings hooking up with each other. It was DEFINITELY straight out of a fanfiction, though, with the male lead being the knight for this girl with a tragic back story and him having to help save her from her father in the end. But, overall, if you ignore the fact that they are siblings, they really did build up this couple pretty well in the fighting siblings to lovers trope. Was there a bit too much sex and seduction, yes, but it was bad. Just very predictable. Also, kids, say no to incest.

The last movie and the movie I enjoyed the most by far was What's Love Got to Do With It. But it may not exactly be for the reasons that people are assuming. I thought it was an interesting concept. I love getting a look into other people's cultures through tv and movies and I love how they did this movie. Going through the motions of a modern-day arranged marriage as seen from an the perspective of an outsider who is making a documentary on the subject was definitely something to be intrigued about. I will admit, when I first saw the trailer, I had assumed that I would like it for the romance aspect of it, but it became much more about the culture than that for me. In fact, I think if they really wanted it to be a purely romantic movie, they would have built up the romance a little more, because, while we did get slight hints into the main two characters liking each other, it was pretty subtle until the very end. However, I don't think that this is the main takeaway of the story. In fact, the most interesting part of the movie was a small portion of the movie in what had happened to the sister. At first, I thought that maybe she had died, but it was an eye-opening thing to see that her choices she made for her happiness basically got her shunned in her culture. I am the most basic person ever. I am a semi-religious catholic white girl from America. I loved this look into a culture that I know so little about and how their lives can seem so different, but they can still deal with similar struggles. I, also, very much assumed that the wife (whose name escapes me) was definitely in love with someone else and that her crying on their wedding day was her grieving that love. I was so happy that they did what they wanted and not what they were expected to do and I was even more happy that the sister came back and everyone welcomed her back, because as much as it wasn't what they may have wanted for her, they all still missed her. And it probably still won't be easy for her to transition back into the family, but at least they are on the right path. It was a beautiful story, not even really for the romance of it, but for the insight into the culture and the family.

So, those were my Sunday Movies and my thoughts on all of them. I will try and do a show in the next couple of days. I've recently rewatched some things and want to rewatch some things, so I will get to that when I do :) Toodle-oo!!

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Nobody asked for my reviews but I'm gonna start them again

Hello! So, it is 1 a.m. and I remembered that this was a thing that I did at one point in time and it sounded fun again so I think I may do some more of these. I'm not gonna lie, I was gonna write something on the First Kill show on Netlfix but it was quite a negative review so I stopped and just never continued. In summary for what that would have been, the show was confusing, seemed extremely rushed and too long at the same time and I was disappointed in it. I mean there really wasn't much build up between the main couple, they were already making out in the closet on the first episode and I wanted at least a LITTLE bit of a burn to the romance. As someone who has watched a lot of shows about vampires and mythical creatures, things just kept making less and less sense as the time went on and I see what they were trying to do... kind of... but it was so confusing. They 100% lost me when the dad became a snake man and ATE the grandma, like WHAT?!? Where did THAT come from? I know people are upset that it got cancelled, but I kind of understand why it did, because it just wasn't a good show to me. I expected more and I was excited about it, and the plot just let me down.

Off that topic, I think I want to try (emphasis on TRY) to do some more of these, because I think it would be fun! A couple I'm thinking about doing are Anne with an E, Queen Charlotte: A Bridgerton Story, The Summer I Turned Pretty, and XO, Kitty. Of course some new seasons are coming out as well for some shows so those might be thrown in as well as some random movies that I watch. Anyway, not like I think someone will actually see this post, but I think this could be fun (assuming I actually DO do it).

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Nobody asked for my review of Bridgerton: Season 2 *spoilers... probably*

Yo yo yo! It’s ya gurl :P Yes, I am on the Bridgerton bandwagon.  There are very few bandwagons I have not dabbled in tbh.  So, ya know, I’ll be going random with these reviews. And maybe if I’m feeling crazy, I will rewatch some old things.  This time is different, though, because I actually made notes!! Mostly because I actually watched this a couple of weeks ago, but it helps to keep my brain on straight... ish.... I do tend to go off on tangents.... ANYWAY, Bridgerton Season 2.

So, I will preface this with saying I actually watched Season 2 before I watched Season 1 of Bridgerton.  Mostly, because I had seen bits and pieces of Season 1 on YouTube (because when it comes to TV shows, I am not one to hide from spoilers... in fact, I love spoilers when it comes to tv shows) and it just looked like a bit much to me.  By that I mean that the sex was A LOT. I mean I could tell that from just those few little things I saw, and that’s fine, but I tend to want the romance much MUCH more than the sex.  Like it’s okay to have occasional scenes, but when it’s THAT much, it just feels awkward for me to be watching, personally. It’s weird to say, because I enjoyed watching Sex Education which is just filled TO THE BRIM, but with them talking about it, it felt more medical for me and much more tolerable.  The sex scenes in that did make me feel a bit awkward sometimes, though, still... I love thee tension and the falling in love more than anything, which is what made me want to watch Season 2 of Bridgerton, because, like I said, when it comes to tv shows, I love *insert River Song from Doctor Who saying spoilers*. So, I think for this review I’m going to do it by the characters journeys, because that makes the most sense to me.

To start we are going to talk about the storyline that I cared about the least.  The Feathers. I’ve been calling the Featheringtons the Feathers as a nickname since I decided I want to make this as my next review. I’m not talking about Pen, though we will get to her in a bit, I’m talking about the other Feathers, specifically the mom and the cousin.  If I’m being very truly honest, I don’t really care about them at all.  Like they were all schemey and doing not so great things and trying to trick people, but like I didn’t think that they really added much to anything for me in this season.  It was simply a secondary plot line, which, I guess is good, but I found myself paying less and less attention to that plot line as I watched the show.  I did find it creepy that the cousin was about to be forced to marry... the one that isn’t married and then started seducing their mom.  Like.... ew... But at least Mama Feathers showed some kind of character trait that I liked, which was the fact that she will look out for and protect her children.  I can respect that in her, and that was really the only part of that story line that I even slightly cared for tbh.

Next, I feel like we can move on to Eloise and Pen.  Starting with Eloise, she, again felt so relatable to me.  Like I feel like I would hate the whole “entering into society” thing just as much as she does.  It sounds like it would have royally sucked.  I did like her feminist agenda that she had going on.  Like just let the girl learn and do what she wants to do instead of find a husband.  Like maybe she doesn’t need one.  I mean I know that’s not how society was in that time period, but like I agreed with her on most of the things that she was saying about it.  It just sucks that she can’t really do anything about it.  And her thing that she had with Theo was cute. The fact that they can banter a bit with each other for the duration of their little... fling?... was really cute.  I mean I think that she would be really cute with someone like that when she does ultimately find a husband - which I have bought (most) of the books I just have not gotten around to reading them. Plus I know that Shonda may not necessarily stick to them exactly, as I have heard that this season would have been VERY different without it and I have no doubt that the first season was different as well.  She still deserves to be with someone that she can banter with.

And that brings me (kinda) to Lady Whistledown herself, Penelope Featherington.  I’m going to say it right now, since I’ve known that Pen is Whistledown, and since I now know everything in both seasons that she has done to ruin people’s names in high society, in a time where a person’s name means everything, I don’t really like her.  There are some moments, but it’s hard to get past the whole gossip thing. I didn’t love gossip girl for this reason. I hate rumors and someone who is ruining people’s lives for seemingly no real good reason sounds like a shitty person to me. Hopefully, she will have some kind of redemption, but at this moment it seems like a very low chance. I feel bad for her sometimes, and I definitely did used to like her, but I just don’t like what she chooses to do.  Especially because she hurt my gorl, Eloise.  She was completely out of line with how she handled the whole situation.  Instead of confessing about being Whistledown to save her friend, she completely ruined her and her name.  She now has to live with everyone judging her for that scandal (although talking to a boy of a lower class doesn’t seem scandalous to me, but it was the time and people make assumptions like CRAZY in that time) and as we have seen with Miss Mama Sharma, people don’t forget.  And then she finds out about Pen and the actual bitch pops out, where she says something along the lines of at least she is actually doing something and I’m all like what EXACTLY is it that you think you’re doing? Because to me it looks like you are just ruining people and I don’t know if you should feel accomplished for that.  Like you may think you are standing up for things, but it really just seems like you’re being a gossip and a bully to me.  People will talk but like why do you have to be the one to start the conversation?  Poor Eloise lost her friend and Miss Pen was butthurt by that and by Colin, so she was like, well I was gonna stop, but now I’m not gonna.  Like ugh, the whole situation makes me so mad and Eloise is the victim in all of this.  She found out that her best friend was the one spreading rumors about her and it is nearly impossible for a friendship to come back from that. Especially when Pen is right back at it as Whistledown.  I just hate it.

Next we will go on to the other Bridgertons, specifically those that aren’t named Anthony, since he will be in his own section with hims girlie.  Since we just finished with Eloise and Pen, might as well start with Colin.  Colin is... fine.  I mean I don’t really think there is anything too much that I hate about him, but as of yet, he doesn’t really capture my attention.  It could be going to far to say this, but he really seems kind of dumb.  Like he makes dumb decisions and I just want to look at him and say “Honey, what are you doing?” because like... he just can’t figure it out can he? I mean, he’s like EXTREMELY blind to the fact that Pen is head-over-heels madly in love with him, though it is the most obvious thing EVER.  I’m kind of convinced he is this era’s version of a “bro”. He’s dumb, doesn’t say the right things, acts different in front of his friends (exhibit what he said about Pen, which not cool)... He just feels very like stereotypical bro to me.  Also, why go back to Marina.  She’s fine and has a family.  What did he even expect to accomplish with that? It may have been for closure or something, but it just seemed dumb to me.  Basically, Colin needs to get his shit together, but at least he did help the Feathers, which is good, but he still has a way to go in my mind. 

Next we move on to Benedict.  I low-key love Benedict.  Now that could be the artist in me coming out to take a peek, but he’s okay in my books. He’s a total fuckboy and a little stuck up and annoying at times, but like for some reason, I enjoy how chaotic he is. Especially with how many properly acting Bridgertons there are (not in their actions tho, because.... well you get it).  Also, I really want the painting that he does when he’s high, because that is gorgeous.  

Last of the Bridgertons I will touch on very briefly is Daphne, our voice of reason.  She saw everything, even before she actually saw it.  Like that girl knows what pining is and knows when it becomes real.  I kind of love that her only reason for being back in this season was to tell Anthony every once in a while that he should follow his heart and to remind us that she is still a part of the family even though she may be gone now.  It seemed like the right amount of her.

Now, time to dissect the couple of the show.  KATE AND ANTHONY!!! This season did beautifully with everything regarding their relationship.  I was enthralled from the get-go.  Let’s just say it how it is, it can be difficult to like Anthony.  Most of the first season, I just saw him as being wayyyy too much and frankly unpleasant, but this season, not only did we learn to like him, we learned to understand him. Yes he was still a dick in the beginning.  I mean his only goal was to carry on his family’s name with a suitable wife, so you’re bound to be a little dickish with that being your only goal.  Mans was OVER the whole love thing.  He didn’t even want love, he just wanted to fulfill a duty.  No girl wants to be a duty, no matter what era you are from. This is why it made it so interesting to put a counterpart to him into this.  

Kate is his perfect pairing.  She is everything he is for his family to her family. There is an understanding there that only they could have for each other. They are both WAY too overprotective, but always want the best for their families. Kate wants Edwina to find a husband, not only so that she can fulfill the Sheffields deal (which they suck butt and we hate them, but she still should have told Edwina about it), but also so that she can have a happy life full of love and comfort.  Is she still way too overprotective? Yes... But if I heard the man my sister wants to marry say that he just needs to get someone to wed, bed, and bred, I wouldn’t want her to marry him either.  Then he becomes adamant which makes him even more of a dick than he was before - see: the horse races.  Honestly he was an ass for getting Dorset to try to seduce Kate and (to a much lesser extent) he was an ass for using his position to take that guy’s spot next to Edwina.  Anthony not getting his way apparently leads to dick moves.  Lol, the  next thing I have in my notes is simply “The talent show was weird”, because, yes, it was weird.  Nuff said. 

Then, finally, we get into the character building moments of Anthony Bridgerton’s life.  Starting with Pall Mall and OF COURSE they are both extremely competitive.  But at least it led to the mud scene which was the first time I’ve ever seen Anthony genuinely laugh.  PROGRESS.  And then there were bees.  The fact that we get all of that trauma in the flashbacks of that episode to explain Anthony is actually brilliant.  Especially because it was mostly about how love was tarnished in his eyes from his mother’s reaction.  And when he saw someone that he had confusing feelings for get stung by a bee as well, the panic was INSTANT.  Major props to Jonathan Bailey, because I BELIEVED him.  And one of my absolute favorite moments came out of this.  It’s so minor people may not even remember it, but it’s always the little things that get me the most. When Kate tells him the next day about her bee sting (because of Edwina insisting) and he says “Ah” kind of sarcastically, but after she says “I am well” he does a much quieter and more sincere “Ah”, because he is truly relieved that she is okay. UGH SWOON!  Then it leads to the library scene later on, where he explains to her what happened with his dad and MY GOD I THINK JONATHAN BAILEY IS AN AMAZING ACTOR! Not to say that Simone isn’t because she is definitely the perfect person to play Kate, but Jonathan just stole the show for me. 

Next, we shall deep dive into why Anthony is a liar.  I’m sorry, but you cannot say you are a gentleman that many times and expect me to believe you.  It just does not compute.  Tell me once, okay sure.  Twice, I believe you.  Three times, you sure? Ten times, there is no way in HELL you are telling the truth. Mans really has the nerve to get mad at Kate saying she’s gonna leave and starts getting all up in her grill and being all like seductive, even when he attempts (and fails) to say his heart is with her sister. Your logic is with her sister, your heart is sitting firmly in Kate’s chest, because, sir, you two decided to swap out at some point unbeknown to you. And yet, this is Anthony, so, of course, the logic wins out and he proposes.  But then dick man comes back out to play because now he’s in love with someone he can’t have due to his dumbness (must run in the family). I’m talking about how he was behaving like a child who got his favorite toy taken away when Dorset gave Kate attention.  Don’t get me wrong, the look he gives her is perfect and does an amazing job of showing the longing, but STOP BEING A DICK! He deserved to fall in that lake tbh. Then, after dinner from hell, we get THE line and THE part.  The man looks her straight in the eyes and says “You are the bane of my existence and the object of all my desires.” which SWOON. I, also, wrote that I have a hard time believing the gentleman thing when he says things like “Do you even know all the ways a lady can be seduced?". I mean I don’t really think that gentlemen would say things like that...  Just saying.

And FINALLY Edwina found her glasses and looked at the two of them, because it is OBVIOUS obvious.  I haven’t really gotten into it, but Edwina was boring to me in the beginning.  She is important to the story, but she was just too nice and perfect and it was frankly a bit unrealistic how perfect she was.  It just kind of irked me.  Then we go a complete 180 and turn her from someone who is too nice to one with a huge vendetta.  I get her point-of-view, but she was the one that insisted on going after the Viscount.  In fact, Kate didn’t even want her to go after him because he was a pig, but girl was instant, so I don’t get why she said that Kate forced her into what she wanted.  Also, she acts like Kate fell in love to spite her.  You can’t choose who your heart wants.  She couldn’t help falling in love with Anthony and both Edwina and her adoptive mama looked at her like she just killed someone.  She didn’t try to ruin it.  And Edwina, we found out, is very good at low blows.  I know that if my little brother or my little sister emphasized that we were half siblings like that, I would break down because that is TOO far. I will say that though it did take her sister almost dying to stop being mean, she was okay in the end and there were still some moments with Edwina that I really appreciated and loved, namely the scenes with her and the queen.  First, she handled the situation with the King so well, like that girl was made to be important.  She was made to be something like a viscountess or even a princess, because she handled that with such grace and I really admired that.  Second, at the end, when she and the queen came in for the rescue with Kate and Anthony at the dance, I did really love that. Over all, Edwina wasn’t horrible, it just felt boring and then too much, I guess. 

Before I finish, I just want to interject myself and say that the Bridgerton music is absolutely amazing.  It was so clever of them to think to do modern songs in classical style.  Absolutely marvelous! Okay now back to previously scheduled Kanthony.

We finally got the moment we have been waiting for.  The moment where Anthony is most definitely a gentleman (lol) and we get them finally just letting go with each other.  The tension and the build up to this moment was much better than having a million sex scenes that just become very similar (sorry Bridgerton Season 1).  And then one of my favorite tropes in romance movies: one of the leads getting hurt and the other coming to their rescue!  I love a good hero and no matter how many times I see it, it will never get old to me.  It tied in so well to his story with his dad, too.  And again, I have to applaud Jonathan Bailey’s performance when Anthony’s mom tells him that Kate is awake, because you could physically feel the relief lift off his shoulders as he just sort of crumpled.  My favorite line of the whole series comes out of this moment with his mom when she says, “Real true love is worth it.” Always count on mom’s to give the wisdom.  For him to see everything she went through with his dad and hear that from her felt like it was him giving himself permission to feel that. That being said, it definitely did not look good when he went and immediately proposed to Kate. The last thing they really did together was have sex, so I really don’t blame her for saying no, especially not knowing what we, as the audience, got to see. Then, finally, after some more pep talks, we finally get our happy ending that we needed for these two.  I absolutely adored the moment when he asked how many fingers he was holding up.  So small, but EXTREMELY effective in making me audibly aww.   Then, and I quote from my notes, “The dance with Anthony and Kate is the best dance.  10/10 would dance again.” Sometimes I don’t understand what my brain does, but yes, we love a good happily ever after for everybody!

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Except Eloise... I’m sorry my child...

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Nobody asked for my SECOND review of Heartstopper: Season 1 *spoilers.... probably*

Okay, look.... I know what you’re thinking... You’ve already done a review of Heartstopper, why are you doing another one? WELL it’s because I’m legit obsessed and have watched it so many times as well as like a billion reaction videos (because obsessed) and have so many things to talk about and now I’m not tired so I’m gonna TALK. This time, though, I’m going to go in an order.  Specifically episode order with (hopefully) minor jumping around. Then I’m probably gonna do a couple more reviews of other things I’ve watched recently after that (but maybe not right after that).  So, hopefully I don’t reiterate things that I’ve already said too much, but here we go... again. 

Meet

So, we start off with an adorable bang.  And by that I mean Charlie Spring just being adorable and as heck. Protecc the boy at all costs. And we start off with the bitch Ben.  Which, he can go jump in a hole.  Not Sebastian.... We love Sebastian.... We LOATHE Ben.  Like I hate him even more than I hate Harry.  Because with Ben it’s emotional manipulation, trauma, cheating, ASSAULT... with Harry it’s homophobia which is still horrible, but like Ben RUINED Charlie and made him think he was worthless and we HATE.  But thankfully we have our trusty golden retriever to try and start putting some pieces of Charlie back together.  I know there is a lot more to Charlie’s story that is explored later in the graphic novel series, but I haven’t read it yet (though they will be delivered to me this weekend, so maybe I will do a book review?), and already I can see that Charlie has been put through the ringer, so we PROTECC.  Anyways, some other things about this episode, the sports ball.  I know very little about sports (nor do I really care that much) but like rugby looks... rough... like I’m supposed to protecc and he be getting beat up on purpose.  But I saw an interview with Joe Locke about the running and he was talking about how difficult filming it was and like RELATABLE.  I can’t run.  I did the throwing stuff in track because running is like asking for me to injure myself. Sports ball is... something... that’s for sure. Also, quick mention of Tao getting Elle’s apple juice cause, AWWWW!!! And can we give a quick round of applause to the MVP of ever, Tori.  That GURL is my queen.  It’s such a simple scene but when he’s telling her about his breakup I always laugh at her “Well done, then.” I, also, adore when Charlie and Nick are talking about saying sorry and Charlie is like “.... I kinda wanna say it.” cause SAME.

Crush

Nick Nelson. Standing up for ya boo before he ya boo is bootiful. And I’m glad to see that we have another person on the PROTECC train. The snow scene is QUITE adorable in this episode.  And you added a dog? Do you want me to have a stroke? Like I feel like that was the goal here.  But, yeah, anyways.  The mario kart thing with the “Shut up!” was really cheesy but I couldn’t stop smiling, so clearly it is good cheese.  Moving on, I really saw how jaded I’ve become from other shows, because I was terrified when Tara and Darcy started becoming friends with Elle, but it simply is just adorable and not a horrible scheme.  Also, I love how good of friends Tara and Darcy are.  Like I know they’re dating, but it’s not like the awkward I like you and we hang out sometimes, it’s fully like you can tell it was a precious friendship before they fell in love and they already had this trust built between them because of it.  Like they are so cute. Next, going back to the bois, we love Isaac.  LOL you didn’t think I was going there, right? It does connect to the bois in question though, because we get the iconic line “I wanna believe in romance!” Because like that’s basically my life motto.  Charlie and Nick are so cute and I wanna believe in them too (in fact, I do believe in them too). Especially the almost hand holding with the animated sparks. ICONIC.  The drum teaching always makes me feel a slight bit awkward, though, because like that is a SMALL stool. But that’s literally the only reason.  Sometimes it’s the small things.  Lastly, My queen. “I don’t think he’s gay.” Legend PERIODT.

Kiss

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. First, I’m so sorry Imogen. She didn’t really do anything wrong.  Like the girl put herself out there, which is more than I can say about a lot of people.  She’s brave and I applaud her.  It sucks that it’s like... not gonna happen... like ever... But like she didn’t do anything wrong.  Then there’s the kisses.  Tara and Darcy are really cute together and I love how happy they look when they kiss.  They are actually so cute. And then Nick and Charlie. Literally one of the best kisses and lead-ups to kisses I have EVER seen.  So damn adorable. And then my poor panicking bisexual boy and my poor child who has done no wrong but thinks he has.  I don’t blame Nick for freaking out.  His who life is just a confusion at that moment.  And it seems like he just says what he says to Harry to get him off his back so he can find Charlie. And NICK ALWAYS MAKES UP FOR IT.  He isn’t perfect, but if he messes up, he makes sure to make up for it, which is SO REFRESHING.  Also, quick mention that Tao is WAY overprotective.  Like I get it to an extent but MAN it’s A LOT. He’s very dramatic and we appreciate him on the PROTECC Squad, but like just take a tiny step back.  Charlie still loves you.  Shoutout to Elle for being his calming force.

Secret

That kiss is epic.  I’ve already talked about it, but like UGH! So cute. Perfect, if you will.  Then poor child has to keep it a secret like with Ben, BUT IT’S NOT LIKE WITH BEN BECAUSE BEN IS AN ASSHAT WITH INTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA AND NICK IS LITERALLY JUST SO CONFUSED POOR CHILD! Also, A+ friendship for the friends coming the rugby game.  We love support!!! And Darcy is amazing coming to get acquainted with the local gays LOLLLLL! Speaking of... we have to address it.  Imogen... You kinda dumb.... Still didn’t really do anything wrong, but like... why... why did you talk.... in two ways.  Mostly in the first, because the second was an extension from the last episode in that she can’t help who she likes.  Also, I don’t blame Nick for saying yes.  Should he have? No. But, it was better than completely embarrassing her when the DICKS were watching. And NICK MAKES UP FOR IT CAUSE GOOD GUYYYYY!

Friend

Yet again, Tao is being VERY overprotective.  To the point that.. Yes I get you are trying to be the president of the PROTECC squad, but like... don’t make him sad on his birthday.  I am one who believes that birthday’s should be sacred, so if there is any even slight ruining of a birthday, I get upset.  Again, I see why, but sometimes, it’s a bit much.  Also, Charlie does need to be protected, however, he can still make his own decisions.  Like he’s gonna make mistakes like the rest of us (luckily Nick isn’t one of those) so there is a point where you should just trust him and if things do end up badly, you can be there to pick up the pieces.  I do love Tao, but sometimes... a bit much.  Speaking of Tao, though, this is the first time we see that there are actual feelings in the Elle and Tao situation.  I hope we get another season, because I would love to see that.  Moving on to the birthday boy.  I’m so glad that Nick chose to come to the party (even though it did have some awkward moments) because I just think it was completely adorable.  The best parts were when Nick and Charlie are flirting about Nick’s arms and just the way Charlie cutely says, “Shut up.” And the second adorable part is when Charlie leans closer to Nick and says “No being sad on my birthday.” It makes me chuckle and aww at the same time. And like I said, Nick MAKES IT RIGHT with the Imogen situation.  It’s one thing to say you’re going to make it right and another to actually do it.  Also, just the fact that Imogen makes a playful joke to the friends to get them off of their back really made me feel like the two of them actually were friends.  Like she isn’t as.... Eww as the others even though she’s kind of part of them. 

Girls

I have a MAJOR issue with this episode, for one reason and one reason alone.  That is the milkshake date... So, I played trombone in band growing up - not anymore, I was rubbish and faked it most of the time so they thought I was playing when really I was just trying to hold up the instrument with my weak arms. ANYWAY, I know for a fact that Darcy and Tara play instruments that you have to blow into.  They had AT LEAST 2 milkshakes right before the concert. Like RIGHT before from what I could tell.  And from experience, you should not have sweets or something like a milkshake before you play an instrument that you have to blow into, because then your instrument will not be filled with just hot air, it will be filled with hot sticky air.  Which makes things STICKY! And NOT PLEASANT! That is asking for just not good stuff.  Like don’t! You know how you get that feeling in your mouth when you have dairy stuff too.  THAT’S ALL GOING INTO YOUR INSTRUMENT.  Like don’t eat that close to playing an instrument that you have to blow into!! Charlie is okay because he plays the drums, which, the last time I checked, you don’t have to blow into drums, and Nick, Tao, and Elle are okay because they’re not in band.  But TARA AND DARCY! AAAAAHHHHHHH!  I don’t know why it bothers me so much but it really does. Moving on, Girls are mean sometimes.  I am one.  I know how mean girls are.  ESPECIALLY to other girls. So, I understand Tara being upset because of the whole thing, but thankfully she has Darcy.  Also, I know I hate the milkshake stuff, but that was cute, with Nick telling Elle about him and Charlie and ESPECIALLY the cute adorable weirdness that ensued between Tao and Elle at the beginning.  I LIVED for that.  Since we’re going backwards, lets talk about how cute it was when Charlie got so excited that Nick told Tara and Darcy.  WE LIVE FOR THOSE BEAUTIFUL BOIS.  Is this the episode where Nick finds out he’s bi? If so, then it’s understandable that the Pirates of the Caribbean would show him da way, because like... they hot.

Bully

Bitches. Bitches and bitches. Bitch. Do I really even have to say more? Like Harry is a bitch.  Ben is a Bitch.  I’m not gonna lie though I almost angry laughed when Ben said, “I’m not even gay, I just felt really bad for you.” Cause like uhuh, Yeah... I believe you wink wink. Totally wink wink. Not gay wink wink.... That kid has PROBLEMS.  Thank you Nick for stepping up in the PROTECC Squad once again with Harry and actually punching the SONOFABITCH.  But let’s be real, the second we heard Nick say that Ben and Harry wouldn’t be there, we knew they would.  AND THEN they had the AUDACITY to say “Why is he here?” about Charlie. BITCH I DON’T EVEN THINK YOU WERE INVITED WHY ARE YOU HERE?!? Then we move on to Tao and him finding out that Nick and Charlie are ACTUALLY dating and getting upset.  Then the DICK Harry picks ANOTHER fight and Tao brings the BEAT DOWN. And he was holding his own, so like good on you!! But he’s upset about the whole Charlie not telling him and then says things he doesn’t mean, cause we all knew he would have fought Harry eventually and it wasn’t Charlie’s fault. But Charlie’s in a spiral and has already attempted to break it off with Nick at this point because he thinks it’s what is best for Nick and it just... it just.... doesn’t help anything. 

Boyfriend

There are some MAJOR cheese moments in this episode, but I low key live for them. First, My queen is back at it again with being my queen. “I’m like 95% sure they were both Harry’s fault and I wasn’t even there.” QUEEN.  And the whole “You’re not ruining my life.” WE LOVE SUPPORTIVE SIBLINGS!!!!! WE LOVE SIBLINGS THAT SHOW THEIR LOVE.  HELL YEAH MY QUEEN.  And the teach!! Another MVP! “Don’t let anyone make you disappear.” PREACH! Also, love the announcer.  I believe it was Stephen Fry, but it was hilarious! He said what we all thought.  Moving on to the MAIN EVENT aka SPORTS DAY! Honestly, I’m American.  Sports Day doesn’t exist here, but it sounds horrible.  10/10 would have hated. I love that Charlie switches jerseys and runs for Tao and then they make up which DONT YOU JUST LOVE FRIENDS! It’s actually so cute.  And Charlie stands up to Ben which HELL YEAH!!! Then we have not one but TWO fake outs from Tao and Elle, which *Insert Tao’s RRRRRUDE here*.  Plus the montage of Charlie being a good supportive friend and holding Isaac’s book for him while he javelins. WE LOVE SUPPORTIVE FRIENDS!!! Also, we need more Isaac... Also, Tao needs a haircut... Also... I think that’s it.  And then there is the recreation of the High School Musical 3 scene at the basketball game with my poor sad Nick finally seeing Charlie and being like, no this can’t wait and just running to him.  It was so cute.  Kinda cringe but adorable. Mostly just cringe for the recreation of HSM3 part, because it’s so cute how Nick just doesn’t care and Imogen is just like AWW IT MAKES SENSE THAT’S SO CUTE but with her EYES. But that kiss is INTENSE compared to the others.  Like it had PURPOSE.  It was a callback to the second (third?) kiss but like very effective. And then the beach and THE PICTURES!!! SO DAMN CUTE.  The cringey ocean yelling that was also cute while being cringey and then THE MOMENT. Olivia Coleman is a legend.  She is just so amazing and the coming out scene was absolutely perfect.  

Overall I can’t help but be obsessed.  I get this way sometimes.  I just love love OKAY?!? This was a much more comprehensive view of the entire season for me, episode by episode. I may not do it like this all the time, but probably definitely for my obsessions. The cast was amazing and from what I’ve heard, this is very true to the original story (which I will be reading soon) which is very exciting.  From what I’ve seen the cast is not only just straight (lol) up really good, they also even look like their characters.  It’s just so good and deserves a second season.  What else can I really say....

I want more Isaac and Tori.  

That’s what I can say. 

[cantfindwhoasked]

Nobody asked for my review of Heartstopper: Season 1 *spoilers.... probably*

Wow, my first time doing this... Well, I think that it is only appropriate to start this review off with a Hi :).  I’m sure someone has done it, but I wonder how many times the word hi was said in the first season of Heartstopper... Anyway, back on topic.  This show... My goodness this show was so beautiful.  I’m not going to lie I wasn’t really sure what this show was when I first decided to watch it.  Usually, when the general public says that I need to watch something it is put off in my head and I add it to my “list” that I ultimately don’t ever get to.  Something about this time, though made me want to actually follow the general public’s advice and watch it only a week after it came out. I then proceeded to watch the entire thing in one sitting as one does and I am still feeling the feelings of this masterpiece.  

Let me start off with a little background information on me and what made this show amazing in my eyes.  So, I’m a girl in her mid 20s and, I will say it right now, I’ve only ever liked boys.  With that said, I have had a lot of times in my life where I questioned why I was so different to the people around me.  By that I mean that I got crushes on boys, but they were only that.  They would fade away and there was never a point where I felt the need to act on it.  I love love.  Any type of love between anyone, but I don’t necessarily want that for me.  I don’t even really like to be hugged by friends and family, so thinking of being close to someone else seems like a foreign concept that I’m perfectly okay without.  I know my family thinks it’s weird, but they won’t say anything outright to me.  I mean I’m pretty sure that most of my family have thought that I was a lesbian at one point or another and I just didn’t want to tell them. In fact, they have actually said to my face that they did, at one point, think I was dating this girl I worked with, but the truth is that I just like to put my all into the friendships that I have and I’ve always been shy, so I’ve kind of always felt the need to prove to them that I can make (and do have) friends.  I don’t know if that has a label or if I’m just straight and not interested, but it’s just me and this show really actually made me think... Huh... maybe I don’t have to have a name for whatever... Maybe I can just be me.

Really Heartstopper is a huge breath of fresh air.  As someone who grew up in a conservative tiny town with a fairly conservative family, I was barely aware of different sexualities and gender identities growing up. I’m still pretty uneducated in these matters, but seeing it be more represented in media has helped, though not nearly as much as Heartstopper.  It was actually so refreshing to see something where there was so much representation, especially with those that are bisexual and transgender.  I mean there have been a few shows that I have seen with bisexuality, but usually not with males, and I’ve rarely seen anything with transgender people. I am a firm believer in the “be who you are and love who you want” mentality, because, like I said, I love love. It was so perfect that this wasn’t just a worst case scenario/dark and depressing type of thing like you really unfortunately see a lot with the LGBTQ+ representation in tv and movies.  Don’t get me wrong, it’s getting better, but not to the level of this show.  It’s one of a kind in how normal this show portrays it and I think it will help a lot of people see that it’s okay to be who you are and like who you like. That it can be just as beautiful as anything else. I should probably move on to the actual show now, shouldn’t I. 

Okay.

Let me just say: Charlie and Nick.

THEY ARE THE CUTEST THING EVER.  I’m not kidding it is actually adorable how cute they are. I mean that first kiss scene had me panicking and squealing for joy right there along with Nick. It was *mwah* Chef’s kiss. But my favorite scene, by far, hands down is the next kiss.  No, I don’t mean the one that was immediately after the first kiss, I mean the one where Charlie was freaking out because he thought he forced Nick to do something he didn’t want to and Nick stopped him from going down that dark hole with a kiss. That kiss meant something.  Like Charlie needed that. Also, can I just say that I completely relate to Charlie.  When Tao was talking about Charlie thinking even just his existence was annoying for other people I FELT that in my SOUL.  Literally, SAAAMMEE! So, while I can’t relate to the relationship thing, I definitely know what it’s like for your head to betray you and think the absolute worst of yourself. So, when I say he needed that, I mean he NEEDED it.  Otherwise the mean brain would have taken him further into the dark side and it SUCKS when that happens.  I mean, he started going through the dark side and picking dead flowers near the end of the season when he tried to break up with Nick for Nick’s own good, but, thankfully, Nick is amazing and carried him back to the bright side.  Also, that callback to THE kiss with another THE kiss but reversed was beautiful. I will say, though, I couldn’t help but laugh at Nick screaming on the beach.  Just the way he screamed it was funny to me, like in a cute but kind of cringey way. But it was absolutely wholesome how he stood up for Charlie and started slowly showing the world that he really liked him.  Unlike the asshat Ben, who we do not speak of. If we did speak of him, we would only say that he is an asshat and he is a manipulator and an asshat and asshat number 2, Harry, can just make like a tree and LEAVE like FOREVER.

Anyways, I will say, though I thought that Tao was a little too... much in the overprotective friend category, I really can’t wait to see him and Elle.  They are literally adorable and even just the apple juice thing at the beginning was just like too cute to even handle.  Like he was just so used to it and he was looked sad when he talked about her being at a new school.  So cute and I cannot wait for that.  But, look... I know it’s in the graphic novel series/book, but THAT HAIR BOTHERS ME.  I think will is so cute, but like that hair would do absolutely nobody favors. Otherwise, so cute and I hope/can’t wait to see them in that slow burn friends to lovers relationship.

Next, we shall talk about the other official couple of the show, Tara and Darcy.  I was actually so scared at first when they told Elle that she could hang with them, because I have been jaded by horrible tv shoes in the past where literally everyone sucks, but I was so pleasantly surprised that they were truly just amazing.  They do suit each other so well, though.  Those two are really cute and that kiss with the rainbow lighting was absolutely EVERYTHING. I really hope that things get better for them with the girls in their school kind of being really mean, but I’m glad that they have each other.  

Other notable characters summed up in only a few words (because I need a nap and I could rant forever).  

Nick’s mom - Olivia Coleman is a goddess and THAT SCENE and NEED MUCH MORE. 

Isaac - Pretty awesome, but not around too much.  Need more. 

Charlie’s sister - An Icon - PLEASE GIVE ME MORE!

Nick’s Puppy - So cute, please have a park date with pup (though the snow scene kind of felt like one)

Art Teach - Jiminy Cricket.  The wise one

Now final thoughts are that literally everyone should watch this show because it is perfection and everything I wanted in a teen romance. 

On a scale of 1 to Bubblegum Shake, I would give this a tippy toe kiss.