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12.03.21

was about to give up on this problem class but then a tiny little rainbow appeared right in the middle. i guess i’ll keep trying then…

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Late night dissertation writing sessions.

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Mondays with Cynthia. Getting it done. Thank god I've got a huge desk.

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9/3/21 | 66/103 Days of Productivity | Zoomester Study Challenge

Had a big of a crash after my essay on Friday, but I'm back at it and ready to back out some lectures today.

Day 6- A cheeky tag yourself

five am. ice cold water. watching the sunrise. healthy smoothies. skincare. reads often. friends with everyone.

ten am. iced coffees. always in a hurry. golden hour aesthetic. remembers the little details. loves old movies.

midday. mom jeans. picnic dates. thrift-shopping. pinterest. low-key insecure. obsessed with photography.

three pm. the color yellow. walks everywhere barefoot. oversized t-shirts. can make anyone laugh. a bit crazy.

five pm. warm smiles. classy. aesthetic instagram feed. anklets. soft music. yoga. face masks.

eight pm.  netflix. cuddles warm sheets. indoors life. loves singing but can’t. sweats. never sleeps.

midnight. driving at night. flirty. neon lights. wears a lot of red. big sunglasses. karaoke.

three am. tired eyes. small sketchbooks. pressed flowers. stargazing from the window.

I reckon I'm a blend of 5am, 10am and 5pm. I kinda vibe with bits of all of them though

Day 7-  Some of your music faves right now (let’s say up to 5)

I've been rediscovering a lot of new music in the pandemic but also gone back to some old favourites. I'm vibing a lot with Courtney Barnett, The National, First Aid Kit, Conan Gray and Tide Lines lately. With a cheeky smattering of girl in red and Phoebe Bridges

Day 8- International Women’s Day! What’s your take on feminism?

That's a hefty question but I'd say my take is hopefully what everyone's take should be - e.g. its a really really good thing.

Day 9- Write something that you’d like to tell yourself.

Please stop fantasising about moving to London, you haven't got an offer from LSE yet. Start fantasising a little about moving to Durham or Bath instead.

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Wow wtf HIV/AIDS was discovered by Flossie Wong-Staal, an Chinese-American woman, and she’s the reason the HIV test even exists. AND THEN she invented the molecular knife that lead to treatments for HIV/AIDS. And she’s STILL ALIVE. We don’t hear about the contributions of Women of Color enough, my word. Madness.

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For future reference.

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Day by day try your hard, receive knowledges for the future. With a purpose to say: “I certained achieve what I strived and I did it”

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8.03.2021

Today i'm finally starting a new semester and i'm excited although i know it will be hard to get to back to studying at first. I have such interesting subjects this semester!!! (Clinical psychology👀) I'm now doing some anki flashcards until class starts. Also, i just started reading a Six of Crows and it seems really interesting so far!!

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Last night, I was super proud of myself for getting my homework done the day after it was assigned. I’m normally a do it the night before it’s due kind of person. So it felt really good to have the mental space to get it done early.

I think part of it is because it’s the second week of school and I haven’t had any homework but this one. Either way, it felt really nice to get it done and get it done using my own mind and understanding the problems. I only had to google something once and it’s bevause it wasn’t in our notes.

Classes are going about as well as can be expected, they’re tiring but it’s much less overwhelming knowing that when I go to class I don’t have another class that I’m missing. (Of course on Tuesday Thursdays that’s not true but it feels nice to have it happen less often)

Let me know how y’all are doing in your classes if you’ve started again, or how you’re spending your time out of classes if you haven’t.

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So yesterday was the first day in 3 weeks I had to be at Uni for 8 am, and it snowed all night long and there was about 30 cm in the morning. The whole city was kind of paralyzed, and I had to get to my uni by feet but I was so genuinely happy!! 

Today it was snowing again so I changed my spot for studying :) 

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Lately I’ve been spending my days purely reading, writing, and planning — to say that I’m grateful for a little break in between semesters is an understatement. Remember to slow down and do things that benefit your wellbeing once in a while, when you get the chance.

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the no bullshit guide to getting your shit together: for the lazy student

Let’s be honest: time management and organization? They’re really hard. Sure, at first you might feel like you’ve gotten the hang of them, that you’re in control of your life. But how often have you fallen off the wagon? Procrastinated on one thing and the next moment, you’re behind in all your classes? I know that sometimes laziness feels like a part of who you are, but honestly, fuck that. Do you really want to give up your success for the disinterest of a moment?

If your answer is no (it better be no, or you really need to get your priorities straight), let’s get to it. 

STEP ONE: BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF

“This class doesn’t even matter.” “I don’t care about my grades.” “I can finish this the day before.” Sound familiar? You might feel great now, but when you’re staring down at your report card later, it’ll feel like you just got punched. 

This is a cliche, but the greatest obstacle to your success is yourself - especially the lies you tell yourself! Sit yourself down and be honest about what you need to improve on. Be as blunt as you can, but for god’s sake, don’t throw yourself a pity party! There’s no use agonizing over what you can’t change. Instead, set realistic, achievable goals, and make a game plan. Struggling with math? Go to extra help. Behind in all your classes? Stay in for a couple nights and actually work. 

STEP TWO: STOP WITH THE FANCY SHIT

Now you know what your goals are, but maybe you want some inspiration, so you log on to tumblr and are instantly bombarded by all these beautiful, well lit shots of the most gorgeous bullet journals, planners, and notes. Impressive, right? Well, I’m gonna let you in on a little secret: they’re all useless! A simple phone planner works just as well, if not better, than a fancy agenda, because you’ll always have it on you, it’s not a hassle to carry around, and you don’t feel obligated to make it look pretty. 

Riddle me this, where are you going to find all this extra motivation to keep prettying up your bullet journal? To write all your notes in perfect, colour coded printing? There aren’t many times in life where taking the easy was out will actually benefit you, so take advantage! Stop wasting your time; get a phone planner and write your notes in your natural goddamn handwriting. 

STEP THREE: CLEAN YOUR ROOM

Yep, your entire room - not just your study space! This one can be put on the back burner for a bit if you’re on a really pressing deadline, but I wouldn’t recommend it. I’m notoriously messy, and if I don’t watch myself, I’d find myself in dirty-laundry-and-old-notes hell. A little bit of organized chaos is fine, I even encourage it! But try working when your desk is covered in mounds of paper and you have nowhere to put your laptop – it’s just not conducive to success. 

Keeping your entire room clean is a way to stave off stress, frustration, and even embarrassment, because nobody wants to show potential roommates how much of a mess they are. 

STEP FOUR: ACTUALLY WORK

Yeah, I know what you’re thinking: “actually work? Who does this girl think she is?” I’d probably think the same thing, except I’ve learned the valuable lesson of sucking it the hell up, and you will too. When you get home from work, grab a snack and work. When you have a free period, figure out what’s due and work. Stop reasoning yourself out of work: you’re not going to finish this later, and that will be on the test. There’s really not much to say about this one, because it’s the step that requires the most raw effort, and you’re really only going to find that within yourself. Tell yourself what’s at stake, and realize that, by setting the standard for your mediocrity now, you’re potentially trapping yourself in a cycle that will last for years. 

STEP FIVE: CUT YOURSELF SOME SLACK

Maybe you’ve been on top of your shit for a day, a week, or even a month, and that’s really great. But then… you fail. You miss a deadline or you bomb a test. So what do you do now? Do you allow yourself to fall back into your old habits? Fuck no! Everyone fails, even that studyblr with those perfect bullet journal photos and a perpetually clean study space. I’m going to tell you something that’ll sound really strange: you should value your failures, especially if you worked hard to avoid them. What?! Be HAPPY about failing when I actually TRIED? Yeah, you heard me right. If you don’t know how to handle failure, then when you inevitably experience it, your reaction will be much worse. 

Failing hurts, and boy, I know how embarrassing it can be. But learning how to deal with failure, and especially how to keep trying after it happens, is an invaluable lesson. 

STEP SIX: TREAT. YO. SELF.

Disclaimer: I’m not suggesting you treat yourself after the most basic of tasks, because please. Treat yourself when you know you goddamn well deserve it. Remember that “all work and no play makes jack a dull boy.” If all you do is study and do your homework, then, pardon my french, your life sucks. If you don’t have friends, play a video game! Eat an entire jumbo chocolate bar! Indulge in whatever the fuck you want, you deserve it. I’m someone that has trouble prioritizing future benefits over immediate gratification, so by allowing myself little pleasures, I save myself from crashing and burning. 

Hope these tips helped, but remember to take them with a grain of salt - you’re you and I’m me, and different things work for different people. Good luck!

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[02/18/21]

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going home this weekend to celebrate the mother’s birthday 😇

currently listening to:

celebrity - iu

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it has been snowing non stop these past days and it is so hard to stay inside when you could go outside and take a stroll through the knee deep snow

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Now that this corner is pretty much finished, I can turn my attention towards other parts of the house ✨

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current desk situation