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i need to have a make out session with someone but in a really messy and sloppy way

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Remember when Anthony was going to absolutely pounce on his fiancee's sister and she was going to let him until they remembered the door was open?

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always an angel never a god

And I wondered what it was like to be chosen. I was never chosen. I was a maybe, a probably, sometimes even a definitely but never the one, never the chosen one.

Unknown

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I must be paying for some sins i committed in my previous life because the universe makes sure to let me taste love and snatches it right away when i dare think I could be loved. She waits for me to fall for the trap. She lays the bait so insidiously. It’s never going to stop

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I see us smiling and laughing in my head

I see my legs draped over yours, our fingers are intertwine

I feel your kisses on my neck

I feel your breath on my ear

I see you on top of me

Like a perfect dream

I feel you next to me

Even if you're not.

I hear your voice talking to me

I can't help but talk back.

Even if it's only to my imagination

The thought of you is

Uncomfortable

Uncontrollable

And

Unnecessary

Enough is enough.

I fear I am torturing myself

I fear I am aging myself

I fear I will never know passion, agony, and unwavering love for anyone else.

I beg you. Leave my mind. Leave my heart. Leave me alone.

I know it is I that must change. But why did you have to look at me like that. And haunt me for all of my life.

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*Develops feelings for someone* I've made a huge mistake.

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feeling pretty doomed by the narrative rn.

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It killed me to walk away.

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How do you walk away from this?

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i feel safe with him

Feeling safe in someone's energy is a different type of intimacy. That peace of mind and security is very underrated and I cannot emphasize this enough.

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on friends, who maybe want to be a little more than that

@fuckitloveu @mothicalspoken

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and i just want to scream, "i have so much to offer, so much love to give!" but all i hear is the silence of all the people that don't want it.

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Me? Yearning and pining? *nervous laughter* What makes you think that? *turns around and trips, all the yearning and pining pouring out on the ground like blood*

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𝔅𝔯𝔦𝔰𝔨 𝔞𝔦𝔯.