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On Monday the idea for this meme popped in my head and I hope to god I can find someone else who thinks it's funny.

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That jiggle... 🤤

Saw myself in the mirror and was actually surprised by how big I look today 🫣

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I got new jeans! The zipper on my old 44s only works when I'm not padded which kind of defeats the purpose, so I picked up a 'new' pair at Goodwill.

I was wearing these with a belly earlier but I took that off and decided to fix the legs so my thighs would be a bit thicker. And now you get a nice shot of my ass 🍑

These jeans are actually a lot nicer; they have a shorter inseam so they're not too long on my legs, plus there's some like grippy stuff in the waistband and they weren't made in the era before clothing companies started putting spandex in the denim on men's jeans so they've got a little bit of stretch to them.

I actually might just have to upgrade all my jeans, since I'm pretty sure all of them are from the pre-stretch era (I bought them all like, ten years ago from different thrift stores) which definitely makes padding more challenging.

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Finally got to prepare a meal (frozen pizza, but still counts!) and sit at a dining table in my suit!

As it turns out, the belly does impede reach a bit, so I switched to the belly shelf method partway through.

I'll have to experiment some more with a bigger and wider suit.

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One of the first pads I did in my new place, so about a month ago?

Apologies for the shaky video, I'm not the steadiest camera operator (hence why I don't usually post videos).

Also is it just me or is this first pic real feedistvin-coded?

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"Are you male or female?"

"I'm fat."

"What's in your pants?"

"A fat ass."

I kinda love the way fat skews the lines of gender. Like those are some mighty big tits for a man

Even the word moob itself has a certain ring to it

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Lost twenty minutes and a gallon of sweat to putting this on, only to realize I look like Pat, that Julia Sweeney character from early 90s SNL.

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Yoooooo I can relate in some aspects. I'm AFAB non-binary, and technically bisexual, but IRL I identify myself as a bi lesbian (or just a lesbian for simplicity). The way I explain the 'bi' part to people is that I'm primarily attracted to women and non-binary people, and the amount of men I'm attracted to is such a small pool to be statistically insignificant. As for gender, I present as soft butch on the femme/butch spectrum and in most situations I'm like, "Eh, woman's close enough I guess." If I had to label my gender, I would consider myself a lesbian there as well.

But in kink spaces, I'm much more on the masc side of things and I'm still bisexual, but the pendulum swings towards the other way. I'm primarily attracted to men and non-binary people, and I am attracted to women but less so. This also leads to some weird gender feelings but I'm just now (like, as I'm typing this) realizing that the sexuality-as-a-gender model that I use IRL also applies here? Like, in kink spaces I feel closer to being a gay man? Still not quite, but sorta?

I've talked to my therapist about a lot of this and they've been helpful but they've also emphasized that they are not a sex therapist so anything super complicated I might want to address is probably out of their wheelhouse.

TL;DR I'm also pretty much only attracted to men when fat or weight gain is involved, but I still feel gay about it.

I've seen a few people say that the feedism fetish is the only way they experience homosexual attraction, but I think I've discovered the opposite...

Imagine starting this blog 10+ years ago thinking you're straight only to realize over time that not only are you seriously attracted to the same sex, you are really ONLY attracted to the opposite sex when weight gain is involved.

Doing a lot of soul searching recently...

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It took a few days but I'm moved into my new apartment! All of my padding materials are sitting in trash bags in my car (they're NOT getting thrown out, that's just how I moved most of my clothes). They're basically the final things to get moved in.

Hopefully in the next week or so I can do some kind of photoshoot. My living room doesn't have an overhead light and I don't have a couch yet buuuuuut all the closets in this place have mirrored sliding doors and one of the living room walls is just a closet so that should make for some interesting options.

Eeeeeeeeeee I'm so excited!!!

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Some exciting personal news: I'm moving this weekend!

I'm pretty pumped about it for numerous reasons (closer to work, closer to public transit, nicer neighborhood, underground parking, balcony) but number one reason is: no more roommates!!!!!!!!!! No more sharing a bathroom, no more trying to remember whose stuff is whose in the fridge, being able to make my space as ADHD-friendly as I need it, my cat doesn't need to share space with other cats, and I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT BY MYSELF!!! WHICH INCLUDES JUST HANGING OUT PADDED AROUND MY APARTMENT!!!

Suffice it to say, there might be more posts in the coming weeks. Wheeeee!!!

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Oh hey it's me 👋🏻

shoutout to weirdo autistic kids who stuffed pillows under their shirts to pretend to be fat and didn't fully understand why they did that

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Literally I might just learn how to mold silicone just to make some goddamn squishy fake bellies

I’ve been looking for padding that is specifically made to make you look fatter but I’ve had no luck 😭 it seems like the options are pregnancy bellies, really bad Halloween costumes, or $300 silicon beer bellies… I find it weird that there doesn’t seem to be a lot specifically for under-clothing fetish wear considering how common padding seems to be as a part of this kink!

I picture something form-fitting, similar to athletic wear but padded out with foam or silicon…

Yeah I know what you mean! I've seen underwear that includes butt or hip padding that could work well for some people, even if it's not as exaggerated as I'm sure some would like, but belly stuff is tricky yeah

I've seen some foam pregnancy bellies that I think are primarily for theatre use that I've been tempted by before, but that's about it

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I love fat people and hate fascism

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I love you trans people I love you so much I'm so glad you're alive I'm so glad you're here I'm so glad you exist

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All dressed up... nowhere to go

Alas, the jacket does not fit.

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I love you trans people I love you so much I'm so glad you're alive I'm so glad you're here I'm so glad you exist

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Genuinely feeling fucking huge here 🥵

Sizing: the jeans are a 44in waist (and it was a struggle to button AND I couldn't get the zipper up to save my life!), the T-shirt is a 3XL, and the hoodie is an XL.