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calleigh duquesne is the mother of cassandra and allie pressman.

at twenty-six years old, calleigh accepted a high-level forensic consultancy position at yale.⠀ ⠀ leaving louisiana for good.⠀ ⠀ at yale, she fell in love with political science professor henry pressman.⠀ ⠀ they married when calleigh was thirty.⠀ ⠀ together with henry, she relocated to the town of west ham.⠀ ⠀ cassandra was born a year after, and allie two years later.⠀ ⠀ after eight years of marriage and when allie was twelve years old, henry passed.⠀ ⠀ calleigh raised her daughters as a single mother since then.

calleigh is known in the town of west ham as polished, private, and fiercely intelligent.⠀ ⠀ the kind of woman who doesn’t raise her voice, yet somehow still commands every room.

cassandra was the heir to calleigh’s composure, decisiveness, and ethical spine.⠀ ⠀ from her mother, she inherited:⠀ ⠀ calm under pressure — the ability to lead without cracking.⠀ ⠀ a deep sense of justice — knowing right from wrong even when it hurts.⠀ ⠀ high expectations of herself — often pushing beyond limits, believing it had to be her.⠀ ⠀ her leadership in west ham mirrored calleigh’s in the lab: organized, relentless, and principled.⠀ ⠀ cassandra carried herself like a duquesne.

allie is calleigh’s north star.⠀ ⠀ the quiet one, the watcher, the gentle heart.⠀ ⠀ from her mother, she inherited:⠀ ⠀ emotional intuition — the ability to lead through listening and empathy.⠀ ⠀ strength in silence — the art of observing before acting.⠀ ⠀ a quiet resilience — mistaken for meekness until it blooms into leadership.⠀ ⠀ allie remembers calleigh’s words during storms:⠀ ⠀ “you’re not small.⠀ ⠀ you’re just not finished yet.” ⠀ ⠀ she wears her star pendant, a gift calleigh gave to her when henry passed, as a talisman;⠀ ⠀ a constant tether to her mother’s belief in her.

cassandra is calleigh’s discipline.⠀ ⠀ allie is her soul.⠀ ⠀ together, they carry their mother’s legacy into a new world;⠀ ⠀ one built from memory, instinct, and inherited strength.⠀ ⠀ even in a world where calleigh is physically absent, her voice, presence, and lessons echo in every decision her daughters make.

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✮        \        ₁₀.        [ 𝐓̲ ]𝗁𝖾   ‚̲　\       LAST      OF      US        ﹞       :        𝙰𝚁𝙲 𝚇       ¿        ...        ₂₀₃₃.       [ 𝐒̲ ]𝖾𝗍𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀  ‚̲        \       WYOMING         ﹞        :         𝗌𝖾𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾𝗆𝖾𝗇𝗍        ¿.

jackson afforded her a domesticity so rare that even her life pre-outbreak could not have anticipated.        no longer does she have an iron grip on the trigger of her gun,        — - NO LONGER DOES CASSANDRA HAUNT HER WAKING NIGHTMARES.        no longer is her face plastered on every person she kills.        now,        she wakes to the sounds of birds chirping and spends her mornings tending to the earth        — -        for this,        𝘀𝗵𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝗿𝗲𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝗮 𝗯𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁𝘆 𝗼𝗳 𝗰𝗿𝗼𝗽𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗹𝗼𝘄𝗲𝗿𝘀.        [       a yearning to make more life than she took       — -       a desperate inclination for growth and renewal.       ]

with all the years that have passed,        there was no expectation to once again cross paths with joel.        it was a thought that crossed her mind,       of course,        but she never let it linger long enough.        THERE IS PAIN IN MEMORY.        to see him now,        after all she’s been through without him,        after how much she’s grown...        a trickle of indignation runs down her throat.        a remembrance of the unyielding fortress surrounding his tired heart,        the very same one she tried to break down years ago.        (       a begging to be understood        — -        a begging to be loved       ). 

✮        \        [ 𝐈̲ ]       NEED   ‚̲　A       FATHER         ﹞       :        𝙸 𝙽𝙴𝙴𝙳       ¿        ...        ᴬ ᴹᴼᵀᴴᴱᴿ   ‚̲       𝗶       need   ‚̲         𝗌𝗈𝗆𝖾 𝗈𝗅𝖽𝖾𝗋        ᴬᴺᴰ        WISER BEING        𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑟𝑦 𝑡𝑜   ‚̲         𝙸    𝚃𝙰𝙻𝙺    𝚃𝙾    𝙶𝙾𝙳    𝙱𝚄𝚃    𝚃𝙷𝙴    𝚂𝙺𝚈    𝙸𝚂    𝙴𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚈.         ¿.

their reunion was bittersweet.        filled with anecdotes of time long past and moments almost forgotten.        joel stood in the city center to what almost seemed like his downfall,        𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑖𝑡 𝑠𝑎𝑟𝑎𝘩 𝘩𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑤?        an exhale,        IT WAS ALLIE.        they talk.        she jests on the alarming presence of wrinkles on his face,        (       𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗐𝗈𝗋𝗅𝖽 𝗁𝖺𝗌 𝖺𝗀𝖾𝖽 𝗒𝗈𝗎       ).        he retorts by commenting on the length of her hair,        (       why do you insist on taking care of others,        but not yourself?       ).        it is the simple pleasantries,        nowhere yet prepared to address all the words said in boston        — -        all the pain they’ve carried. 

...        ₀₀.       [ 𝑊̲ ]𝗋𝗂𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗇  ‚̲　\       @imunities         ﹞        :         𝗉𝗅𝗈𝗍𝗍𝖾𝖽        ¿.   

𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲’𝘀 𝗮 𝗴𝗶𝗿𝗹 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗵𝗶𝗺,        and it doesn’t take a genius to see what they’ve built        — -        what trust and familial pattern forms their bond.        this girl is what allie wanted to be for joel eighteen years ago.        she observes them,        for a while.        magnetic blue crescents gaze back and forth,        from father to daughter.        an unfamiliar constriction on her jaw suddenly present.        however,        just as the greens began to grow once more,        TIME HAS HEALED HER WOUNDS.        perhaps not completely,        but enough to edge her close to the girl        — -        a hand extended offering freshly dried persimmons from her garden.        (       a gesture of warmth in an otherwise winter storm       ).        ❛        TRY THESE,        not to brag but these are the best persimmon's you'll ever taste in your life.        ❜

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hello friends, i present a timeline (also linked on my pinned). please do give it a read as it vividly explains where allie was during the events of tlou.

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MARGARET ATWOOD

‘November’, You Are Happy (1974);

original photos and edit

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side character energy

poem by @drunk-on-writing / “fat funny friend” by maddie / snowrachell on tiktok / “the lesbiana’s guide to catholic school” by sonora reyes / maude apatow, euphoria / the holiday (2006) / You're Either A Main Character Or A Supporting Character — Take This Quiz And We'll Reveal Which One

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something something girlhood and bedrooms

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say you want me too

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Kathryn Newton as Allie Pressman THE SOCIETY | 1.01 “What Happened?”

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Anaïs Nin, from “The diary of Anaïs Nin, vol. 3: 1939-1944”

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Kathryn Newton as Allie Pressman in The Society (2019- )

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✮ \ ₀₆.       [ 𝐓̲ ]𝗁𝖾   ‚̲　\       GODLESS        ﹞       :        𝙰𝚁𝙲 𝚅𝙸𝙸       ¿        ...        ₀₁.       [ 𝐒̲ ]𝖾𝗍𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀  ‚̲　\       SARATOGA         ﹞        :         𝖼𝖺𝗆𝗉        ¿.

𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲𝘀  ,̲ - every so often  ,̲ she would see her from the corner of her eye ;̲ in passing .̲ 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝖺 𝗆𝖾𝗆𝗈𝗋𝗒  ,̲ BEGGING TO BE ERASED .̲ locks of her golden blonde hair glistening under the rays of the sun  ,̲ 𝙼𝙰𝙳𝙴 𝙴𝚅𝙴𝚁 𝙼𝙾𝚁𝙴 𝚅𝙸𝙱𝚁𝙰𝙽𝚃 𝙱𝙴𝙽𝙴𝙰𝚃𝙷 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚅𝙸𝚁𝙸𝙳𝙴𝚂𝙲𝙴𝙽𝚃 𝚃𝙸𝙽𝚃 𝙾𝙵 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙵𝙾𝚁𝙴𝚂𝚃 .̲ she never leaves her  ,̲ 𝑐𝑎𝑠𝑠𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑟𝑎 .̲ 𝙴𝚅𝙴𝙽 𝙸𝙽 𝙳𝙴𝙰𝚃𝙷  ,̲ SHE IS UNDER HER SHADOW .̲

she settles comfortably under the shade of a giant tree ;̲ legs sprawled on soil ,̲ arms clutching her backpack - GUN LOADED & READY TO BE USED AT ANY MOMENT .̲ she remains alert .̲ the anger of the world teaching her early on what desperation does to people ;̲ 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗻𝗲𝗲𝗱 𝗱𝗿𝗶𝘃𝗲𝘀 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝗱 - pushed beyond their limits .̲ ﹝ she would know ﹞ ,̲ 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑙𝑙 .̲

𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖽𝖺𝗒𝗌 𝗁𝖺𝗏𝖾 𝖻𝖾𝖾𝗇 𝗁𝖺𝗋𝗋𝗈𝗐𝗂𝗇𝗀 ,̲ the nights even more so .̲ after she left buffalo ,̲ all she's seen is violence - 𝑙𝑒𝑓𝑡 & 𝑟𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 .̲ THERE IS NO REDEMPTION STORY ,̲ no heroic saviour to get her through what the world has become .̲ that was cassandra ... 𝙱𝚄𝚃 𝙲𝙰𝚂𝚂𝙰𝙽𝙳𝚁𝙰 𝙸𝚂 𝙶𝙾𝙽𝙴 .̲

ᴬ ᴮᴿᴱᴬᵀᴴ ;̲ a soft exhale .̲ she's tired ,̲ she can feel it ... but she will not let herself sleep .̲ HUMANITY HAS TAKEN TOO MUCH FROM HER .̲ she will not allow herself to die .̲

...        ₀₀.       [ 𝐒̲ ]𝖾𝗇𝗍  ‚̲　\       @survifor         ﹞        :         𝗂𝗇𝖻𝗈𝗑        ¿.        " REST .̲ I'LL TAKE THE FIRST WATCH .̲ "        ...

𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘮 ,̲ ᴶᴼᴱᴸ ,̲ hunched under a tree just as she was .̲ the distance between them made even more sizeable by the great height of the forest ;̲ of the rustling leaves .̲ she pauses ,̲ 𝙿𝙾𝙽𝙳𝙴𝚁𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙸𝙵 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙳𝚂 𝚆𝙴𝚁𝙴 𝚂𝙰𝙸𝙳 𝙸𝙽 𝚃𝚁𝚄𝚃𝙷 𝙾𝚁 𝙼𝙰𝙳𝙴 𝚄𝙿 𝙸𝙽 𝙷𝙴𝚁 𝙷𝙴𝙰𝙳 .̲ 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙨 ⁽ ˀ ⁾ perhaps it is some semblance of something she's been needing all this time .̲ 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑡 ⁽ ˀ ⁾ 𝖿𝖺𝗆𝗂𝗅𝗂𝖺𝗋𝗂𝗍𝗒 ⁽ ˀ ⁾ ᴴᴼᴹᴱ ⁽ ˀ ⁾ perhaps .̲ maybe .̲ NONSENSE .̲ ﹝ impossible ﹞.̲ THEY HAVE ALL BECOME COLD .̲

she replies ,̲ head not turning to look at him ,̲ 𝙰𝙵𝚁𝙰𝙸𝙳 𝚂𝙷𝙴 𝙼𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃 𝙲𝙻𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚃𝙾 𝚂𝙾𝙼𝙴𝚃𝙷𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝚃 𝙸𝚂 𝙽𝙾𝚃 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁𝙴 .̲ she takes it as it is - 𝑐𝑖𝑣𝑖𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑦 .̲ " THANKS ,̲ BUT I GOT IT .̲ DON'T WORRY ,̲ I ALWAYS SHOOT FIRST .̲ "

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this blog is top notch like really really incredible work you are extremely talented. i’d love to see your take on a web weaving surrounding being a family scapegoat/unfavorite child

Daphne du Maurier, The Scapegoat

Stand By Me (1986) dir. Rob Reiner

Friends (1994–2004), 1x02: The One With The Sonogram at the End

The Guardian’s recap of Downton Abbey, 5x04

Eugene O’Neill, Brighton Beach Memoirs

A PostSecret featured in the music video of Dirty Little Secret by The All-American Rejects

Paul And Storm, A Better Version of You

Avatar: The Last Airbender (2005–2008), 1x19: The Siege of the North

The Crown (2016–), 1x08: Pride and Joy

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We needed her! I needed her.

The Society (2019-)