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Google doc with all nitro chiral games for free!! >_<

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btd strade^^///…

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Moar tiny Strade scraps I improvised based on this image I saw and liked on tumblr.com

Strade: Hahaha! You are so feisty and sassy now! I would never have guessed you had this, this…fire inside of you when I was talking to you at the bar! Where did this come from!?…I love it...But...the only thing it's doing is making my dick hard. It's not gonna save youuuu...

Strade: So this is what is going happen next... I have a dick, and I have a knife…and one of these things is going deep inside of you…So tell me Liebling…which one will it be?

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🩸Ren Hana🩸

Hello again! I'm not entirely sure what happened to my old account (jtvampyr), but I'm starting fresh. This time, I'll be more mindful of the Strade content I post to avoid any issues. I just had to re-share this drawing of Ren✨ I absolutely love it!

This account will no longer be exclusively focused on BTD, although I will still post content from that fandom.

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JEALOUS FOX 💬

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oh that fucked up evil necrophiliac from btd2

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Hi I made this.. Shi.. Im LMAO, this was purely shitpost, mostly because I love fox and ykmet ren's desing better!

Also the song is kind of iconic in latam, so that made it funnier.. For me yk, I posted it on tik tok too!, but tumblr is my safe place ♥️

It is my first edit posted though.. @carolzuki if you want to follow me or sum, I also have plans of becoming a cosplayer so... I dunno what should I do with this edit after that XD.

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Sooo, since I've never seen a post about this until now, I decided to do it on my own

Remember when I talked about a special interaction that you can have with Fox on the third show? The one where you have to choose all the wrong choices the moment you wake up with him in your room. Perhaps some of you did not know this, but now you do!

I'm making all the screenshots of this special interaction available to those who have never seen it or can't see it because they don't own the game. This is a simple and straightforward post, so I hope you enjoy it! :}

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what if ren but Furrier

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A furry twink saved me from my artblock

Hii iI haven't draw in such a while, literal years, so im very happy with this little draft I made, is pretty simple though 🥹

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crazy femboy or insane dilf?

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Ren hana obsessed

Analyzing ren hana

I've been thinking so much about ren hana this Past days, I just love lots how his character works, the several trauma he got to bare thanks to strade and the way he turned out years after makes so much sense to me!

I'm not a psychology student, but my brother graduated as a psychologyst and I have gotten to know myself better thanks to therapy (lol, still have lots to discover)

BUT THAT'S EXACTLY IT.

When you're going through a traumatic event, or got pass it, is like your mind resets, in an attempt to get over it our mind re-makes a puzzle to keep us alive, is a dramatic way to write about it, but it is true.

In ren case, he already had things to carry in the back of his psyche, the little or non existent love her mom gave him, and the rejection his clan had gotten him through, since he is a human-beast kind, and they got repulsed by humans .

We all need love to "live", to have a motivation, to have a reaction,to grow with tools that we can use in new stages of our lives, but little ren almost had non of that.

So when Strade found him and kidnapped him, he twisted his thoughts into thinking that the pain that strade Inflicted on him for his own satisfaction was love, after all he was the only one ren had, at least we can see his thoughts go that way in btd1 and 2,yet that writting can change lots in gatobob's new game ykmet, but I'm writing this with that I can take.

He obviously got Stockholm syndrome as result of having to stay with stade for God knows how much, and yet left him to die when he was left out to bleed.

In the back of his mind, he knew he deserved it, but did nothing in a shock.

Ren after that, was and felt severely lonely, proof of that is having too much time talking with strangers, and finding solance seeing gore (snuff, strade homemade videos) because it somehow sticked a sense of nostalgia and the obvious morbid liking he had gotten from it firstly because he is not human, and Secondly because his way of seeing things after too much blood, abuse of strade, and assassination sighting ,was a blow to his psyche.

He got to know lawrence, he also knew he had an attraction to blood, and he wanted him to be his new companion, but we stepped in and that's another story.

Our decisions really affect how ren ends making up the puzzle on his mind, letting the feeling of power to guide him, or finding a way he can grow up as a person with a little of help (sadly this isn't canon in tpof as we could see)

The feeling of power.. The rush of having a life in your hands, the excitement and the soft embrace of the voice that whispers in his ear that he won't be hurt anymore.. That he was the control..

Was the only left piece of the puzzle that he needed to find true solance...

In a path filled with blood,but not his anymore.. He is now strong.

Also I have to say if I were to give a psychological diagnosis to ren(this is not exact of course, I'm nota professional, but at least I could imagine what were MY diagnosis before even getting them in a paper, lol)

I'd list him with:

Bpd-Borderline personality disorder

why?, because I think he fears abandonment as a result of what he has been through his emotions just flows if you're not giving him the answer he wants, and the first escene we have in btd2 when he escaped the bar just leaves me thinking, he felt anxious or overthinked about doing the kidnapping or not after we stepped in or he felt like he wasn't supposed to be there (very much the same)

Depression [I can't tell the level of this at all]

(I think is pretty self explanatory)

Anxiety disorder [I can't tell the level of this either]

Ptsd-Post traumatic stress disorder

(I forgot to write this at first, but it is pretty self explanatory, some words and actions we as a player make, trigger him, and makes him to take different actions, from feeling anxious and scared of us, to kill us or hurt us)

And other diagnosis that are derived from lack of empathy, he is very very unstable ofc just as our other beloved psychos ♥️

Oh and anime and anime girls, they're just so cute, I'm pretty sure he has lots of comfort characters >

(well I don't think I wrote something most of the fandom didn't knew, but well.. I think I wanted to share a little of my thoughts even if no one is going to read this lololol, also English is not my first language so writting this is like training, my grammar is ofc not the best sorry!)

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mods r asleep, chronicillnesspost w viktor arcane

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I haven't used tumblr in such a while

It feels like a whole new thing, also this is a new account, i feel so noob 😭