carrieholland-blog

[carrieholland-blog]

12/05/18

I have so much to say, but I haven’t been able to write it out. I have a good life, a great husband, a great job, a wonderful home, family, some friends...but I know there is something missing. I haven’t been able to figure it out. To be fair, I haven’t really tried either. I guess this is my first attempt at trying. Someone I follow on instagram asked the other day “What are you saying yes to in 2019?” and it just got me thinking. It helped me realize that it’s time. I am saying yes to seeking out my life in 2019. I don’t want every day to go by unmemorable, and as if it didn’t matter. There are so many cliche’s out there of “life going by so fast” but yet so many don’t do anything to make the most of it. Then there is the cliche of “living the American dream”, but since when does everyone have to live the same and if you don’t fit into a specific mold then you’re not successful?? Every day my husband and I come home after working all day, eat dinner, and sit on our couch watching TV and playing on our phones. Yet EVERY single day that we do it, I complain that I’m bored and I don’t want to spend my life on the couch watching TV. I want to EXPERIENCE life, not just get by. I want to ENJOY every day. I know every day can’t be perfect, and I know I’m rambling and don’t seem to have a clear point, but I KNOW there is more to life than working 40 hours a week and watching tv on the couch. I know there is something in the works and it is SO close I can actually feel it, but I just haven’t been able to pin point it yet. I know there is more to this life, and I am going to find it in 2019. I want to spend my days with joy, laughter, travel, family, and friends. I want to spend my days doing what matters. I don’t want to look back and wish I would have said yes to myself.